Sighinide

seems to want to talk about poetry. She’s been spotted out and about a few times receently with a T-shirt inspired by Ginsberg’s Howl.

I’ve never been much for Ginsberg, myself, so instead of talking about Howl, I’ll offer up Karl Shapiro’s Hollywood as a counterpoint.

This poem has always been one of my favorites. It might actually be my favorite. It’s just… perfect. For me.

Hollywood, unfortunately, seems to be one of those masterpieces that, once acclaimed, has been lost to time. I couldn’t find it in it’s entirety online, anywhere. So, I typed it out myself. That way, it’ll at least be remembered here, if nowhere else.

This is a WWII era piece. The perspective here is that of a soldier daydreaming about the city while being deployed in the Pacific.

Hollywood

Farthest from any war, unique in time
Like Athens or Baghdad, this city lies
Between dry purple mountains and the sea.
The air is clear and famous, every day
Bright as a postcard, bringing bungalows
And sights. The broad nights advertise
For love and music and astronomy.

Heart of a continent, the hearts converge
On open boulevards where palms are nursed
With flare-pots like a grove, on villa roads
Where castles cultivated like a style
Breed fabulous metaphors in foreign stone,
And on enormous movie lots
Where history repeats its vivid blunders.

Alice and Cinderella are most real.
Here may the tourist, quite sincere at last,
Rest from his dream of travels. All is new,
No ruins claim his awe, and permanence,
Despised like customs, fails at every turn.
Here where the eccentric thrives,
Laughter and love are leading industries.

Luck is another. Here the body-guard,
The parasite, the scholar are well paid,
The quack erects his alabaster office,
The moron and the genius are enshrined,
And the mystic makes a fortune quietly;
Here all superlatives come true
And beauty is marketed like a basic food.

O can we understand it? Is it ours,
A crude whim of a beginning people,
A private orgy in a secluded spot?
Or alien like the word harem, or true
Like hideous Pittsburgh or depraved Atlanta?
Is adolescence just as vile
As this its architecture and its talk?

Or are they parvenus, like boys and girls?
Or ours and happy, cleverest of all?
Yes. Yes. Though glamorous to the ignorant
This is the simplest city, a new school.
What is more nearly ours? If soul can mean
The civilization of the brain,
This is a soul, a possibly proud Florence.

Here’s something else from the past, for those interested. First, I’ll post here two very rough drafts that I wrote up back in May. The second one of these has a pretty obvious error that I’ll leave in, untouched, because I think that it’s telling and interesting nevertheless. Then, I’ll close with some additional factoids and insights.

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An Examined Life

I did it, I think. I think I finally figured myself out.

I think that this… stuff, this reality bending thing I do, might have been going on now for 3 decades, at least.

I’m noticing now that the celebrity culture of today looks weirdly close in some ways to the fantasies I had as a kid about the Greek Gods. I mean, they’re even starting to look the same, now.

Scarily enough, I think that I might have been “molding” things for a long, long time now. Perhaps much longer than I had even realized.

I’ve not seen the comic book movies. I mean, movies like the Avengers, Thor, The X-Men, Iron Man, Spider-Man, etc. I’ve not seen a single one of them except for the first Tobey Maguire Spider-Man movie, way back then, but I have a very, very scary hunch that they might be similar in form and content to the Marvel-based fantasy world I created as a little kid about those characters. I got this idea from reading synopses of the films on Wikipedia. I mean, I don’t really know, and I hope that that isn’t true, I really do, but if it is… I wouldn’t know what to think.

My Marvel fantasies were based primarily on the 80’s comics. The ones I got from my mom’s co-worker. I got boxes and boxes of old comics from him… mostly Marvel, but a few DC. I bought some comics of my own, like the Guardians of the Galaxy and X-Men comics of the 90’s, but I couldn’t afford to buy too much that was new. So I read used comics, mostly. Back in grade school I made a huge, elaborate fantasy world off of the 80’s Marvel Universe that might be similar to the one currently popular w/ other people. Might. I wouldn’t know, since I’ve made it a point to avoid it.

If it is… IDK. I could think it a coincidence. I mean, it could easily be. How many kids had those same fantasies about those characters when they were young, back then? Maybe millions, or tens of millions. Surely the directors and producers of the films did too, right? So, it would likely be a coincidence. But… maybe not. What if it’s just a little too coincidental? As in, coincidental down to details? And I mean this seriously, guys. Those synopses are freaking me the hell out right now. What am I supposed to think, then?

I probably shouldn’t see those movies, maybe.

An Examined Life, Part II

My powers, like the rest of me, must have developed in fits and starts. As in, some years they might have grown a lot, in others, not so much, and in some they might have actually regressed through disuse.

I don’t think it realistic at all that the “Marvel Universe” film fad could be a complete fabrication of my 12 year old brain. I was too young then, and too weak, to have done such a thing. And that was a long time ago, way, way before anyone thought that a live action Thor was a good idea.

However- there are coincidences, here, that are just too interesting for comfort. A few of the storylines and plots of the Marvel movies that Wikipedia provides are indeed quite similar to what I thought about, back then. The Iron Man and Avengers movies in particular seem alarming.

But… there are glaring differences, too. Some of my primary fantasies never made it to the silver screen. Like the ones I had of Hercules (the Marvel character), Groo the Wanderer, and ROM the Spaceknight. I had every issue ever printed of ROM, ever, including the annuals, and a huge, corresponding fantasy world of him as well, but there’s no film of him anywhere. And of course there’s nothing of Groo. And I had never even heard of Deadpool.

But still, the similarities are there. I still find it hard to believe that Guardians of the Galaxy and Ant-Man became movies at all, let alone hits. And that Infinity Gauntlet and possibly, maybe even Secret Wars are apparently going to be filmed. That’s weird, and it does make me wonder.

What I think now is this: if I did indeed have any influence over the Marvel craze, it was in pushing over the first domino. If I did do anything (and again this is a big if), it was in getting the ball rolling.

In this scenario, in pouring my psychic energy into Marvel-based fantasies back then, I opened the door, somehow, to the general movie universe becoming real in the first place. So in reading and re-reading my copies of Secret Wars and Infinity Gauntlet, and inadvertently focusing my fledgling powers on those characters and what a movie of those comics would be like, I started a chain reaction that snowballed into what could be their actual creation.

Both Secret Wars and Infinity Gauntlet were big with me, back then. I even had most of the crossovers and follow up issues, like the Adam the Worlock series that followed up Infinity Gauntlet. I don’t remember much of the Crossovers, unfortunately, except for that cool Hulk one with the cultists during Infinity Gauntlet, and the Secret Wars II Thor crossover issue with Kurse. And the Cloak and Dagger one where the Beyonder removed their powers. That one was cool and touching. I think I still have that one, somewhere. The rest, though, I don’t much remember.

And I’m not alone in this, of course. There must have been other kids with some amount of psychic power thinking these things, too. So, maybe it was a group of us, and not just me. That is very possible If not likely.

I certainly hope so. My first thought in regards to the Marvel movies was that they were popular because they weren’t about me. As in, they were popular because they were the peoples’ refuge from my mind control. Granted, of course, my powers did extend to the actors, but not necessarily, I thought, to the plots and characters of comic book movies. So it was a way for common people to escape from me when in the multiplex.

I certainly don’t begrudge people that, and I didn’t investigate the movies because I somewhat wanted that to be true.

Anyone that wonders why I wouldn’t want that to be true need only read the Infinity Gauntlet and Secret Wars series themselves. Shades of Doom, here, not wanting to sleep because of his fear that he would inadvertently destroy the universe. Or of Death mistakenly zapping herself back into her shriveled old body.

Ultimate, Godlike power has major drawbacks. To rule the universe means that you have responsibility for it, too. And that means that you must always be wary of a zillion unrelated things and how they all relate to each other. And that’s not necessarily fun. Or good.

We’ll see what happens with Infinity Gauntlet.

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A lot of insights here.

I think that for now I’ll focus on the comic book angle.

Did you spot the mistake in the second post? Obviously, when I wrote these drafts I was under the impression that the Secret Wars miniseries that is being talked about was the old one. It isn’t. It’s actually a new miniseries… also named Secret Wars. I don’t write comics, so I’ll leave my opinion of that move out of this, I think.

But- still. It is still named Secret Wars. And of course the plot is different from the series from my youth, but it does seem similar to other fantasies I had back then. So… it’s not exact, but it’s close. Kinda.

And so is the rest of it. In my old post about the Guardians of the Galaxy movie, I remarked this:

“I will see GOTG though. Yeah, def. It’s just amazing that they made a movie out of it. I don’t care if it’s got different heroes than the ones I grew up with. I don’t care if the movie was made because Hollywood is out of ideas or whatever. I actually used to daydream about what a Guardians movie would be like during those boring math classes. I’m definitely going to watch this at some point. In fact, I’m becoming more and more curious as I type this.”

This made it seem as though I wasn’t familiar with the characters in the new Galaxy team. This isn’t entirely correct. The team itself I wasn’t familiar with, but a few of the characters on the new team I did know about when I was young. Like Rocket Raccoon, for example. I never once read a comic with him in it, but I was aware of him because of a few in-comic ads for his old 4 issue miniseries back in the 80’s. So he had a spot in my fantasy world as well, along with Drax the Destroyer and Gamora, who I learned about in the mid 80’s edition of the Official Marvel Handbook.

But- Groot, I hadn’t heard of until the movie. Nor Starlord. So, there’s that.

What worries me, here, are the implications of what I’m thinking about. If my brainstorms here are correct, and if I’m not going off the deep end with the narcissism here, then the Marvel Universe fad could in fact be my primary vehicle for mind control over the masses. As in… it could well be my Trojan Horse. My way of softening them up for the kill, which comes in the form of other movies and TV shows. So, it wouldn’t be the masses’ escape from me, after all. Then… perhaps there is no escape from me, for them.

Scary thought. Truly. Let’s hope it’s wrong. But if it isn’t… then I’ll accept it, and so, I guess, will everyone else. Because that’s just how things are destined to be.

At any rate, the vampire and I need to talk, someday, about this. Not now, though.

I think I’ll close this post with a thought to one of Dr. Strange’s most memorable moments, and the one most poignant to what I’m feeling now. It was in one of those old “What If?” comics.

In it, Galactus (I think) used the Ultimate Nullifier to wipe out the universe. All that was left of creation was Strange, the Silver Surfer, and Phoenix. They find each other in the void, and after talking about their situation, eventually Phoenix and the Surfer depart to find their own paths in the emptiness.

Strange, though, stays put. As the universe’s most powerful wizard, he feels a duty to protect it even if it is now empty and dead, forever. Even if it will never again be threatened by anything. So, he does… for all eternity. Alone.

That… can’t be my fate. And it won’t be.

I’ll not go out like that- alone, the most powerful and untouchable being out there.

That isn’t the right way to live, I think.

And it won’t be mine.

I should relent, perhaps.

I’m thinking now of what might happen if Trump loses, and de-facto ownership of the right wing passes back to me.

I would… might… end up destroying my girlfriends.

I am much, much more powerful than Trump. Much much more so. And I cannot allow myself to destroy Emma Watson. I just can’t. No way. I don’t care. I love her too much to let that happen.

This power I have… it’s scary. When I feel it, in those times that I allow myself to wade into it deeper than usual, I feel frightened of it’s depth.

So I need to concede and, ugh, continue to allow lesser men, like Trump, to “run” the movement for me. I need to resign myself to decades of pushing them from the sidelines, gently.

I can’t win. I can’t allow my full power to blossom in the way that I know it can. I can’t afford what would happen, then, to Emma and the rest. I can’t allow myself to burn their accomplishments to the ground.

So, I hate to say this, but I feel as though I should support Trump, now.

It doesn’t matter, anyways.

I am well aware that this is a war of attrition. It takes years to siege a castle.

I have time.

Just some quick thoughts, here.

No, I didn’t watch the debate.

I did, however, follow peoples’ reactions on Twitter and other sites that live blogged everything. I think that this gives me an interesting perspective, and one that’s probably more telling- and in some ways more useful- than if I would have watched the debate myself. After all, the point of the debates is to woo the common man, and not people like me. It’s to reach the undecided. The apolitical.

My take?

The system is still floundering and failing.

The general consensus seems to be that neither candidate was impressive, or representative of the people- or even of their own constituents.

This is basically what I was afraid of, vis-a-vis Trump, especially. Scanning peoples’ comments, it seems as though he came across like a republican, and not a conservative.

And of course Hillary seems to have come across as a democrat, and not a liberal. But that’s not a surprise as that’s what she’s been all along.

So basically, there’s nothing there that should interest me. Or anyone else not emotionally invested in either party.

When I scanned Twitter hashtags last night, what I saw were people talking about stuff that nobody really cares about, like Benghazi, Hillary’s emails, and completely irrelevant details like what Lester Holt did / didn’t do / shouldn’t have done. What I saw was people talking about what I think are distractions at best, save for those who were rolling their eyes at the whole thing.

What I didn’t see is talk, on Twitter or elsewhere, about the multi-trillion dollar a year deficits the government is running, or about our $20 trillion debt, or about how our currency is failing, or about how we’re going to fix our horrific student loans problem, or about immigration, or about black on white racial crime, or… anything else that people are actually interested in.

Granted, I didn’t watch the debate. Maybe the candidates did spend time on these issues, and nobody on Twitter was talking about it. But… I doubt it. And I think that if they actually did, than that’s almost worse, because their answers to those problems must have been so empty and devoid of relevance that the public didn’t bother to take note of what they said.

Bipartisanship just doesn’t interest me. At 36 years of age, I am too old and too mature for that kind of thing.

Well- at least, this is the case for the bipartisanship of today. Maybe back in the 80’s or 90’s, that stuff might have been fun, or maybe even relevant.

Not today, though. It seems as though our society has outgrown the need for such things. Our problems certainly have, as neither party seems able to actually fix anything.

I don’t know. What I’m seeing and feeling these days is a kind of grim finality to these things. As in, this is the end of the line for the way that things used to be done, and not a start of anything new.

Well, life goes on.

Whether or not the system will, on the other hand…

is hanging out w/ Liberty Ross now. Yeah, the Liberty Ross that almost ruined my relationship with Kristen Stewart. Yeah, THAT one.

She was at her party this week. That’s just the kind of thing she does now, I guess. I mean, it’s her choice, but you’d think she wouldn’t.

Is it good or bad that I’m not totally surprised by this?

For those wondering why I haven’t posted more stuff lately- meaning, in the last year of so- it’s because I’ve been holding off. The political clown show captured too much of my attention.

But- that’s doesn’t mean I haven’t written things. I have. I just haven’t posted them.

Yet.

But, now that I have more time to do stuff… I think I will. So, here’s a series of posts, from back in April, that I didn’t pull the trigger on then for various super cringy reasons. I’ll explain the drama at the end, along with my reasons for actually posting this now.

So, without further adieu, here’s the Hollywood gossip of April 10, 2016, today.

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Celebrity Gossip of the Day

OK, not really celebrity. OK… actually, no, this fits, because I’m involved, so I would be the celeb here.

I just found out this week that Annaleigh Ashford, one of the stars of HBO’s Masters of Sex, married my childhood best friend.

Yeah, I know. I KNOW.

Talk about getting the weird vibes, and ALL AT ONCE.

See, I almost once devoted myself to boffing every single chick on that show who had ever gotten naked, just to brag and show them who the real “Master of Sex” was. Just for the experience of it.

So I of course started with the first episode, and targeted Annaleigh as my first girl because 1) she was cute, and 2) she had done the requisite nude scene, but… I held back, in the end. I almost did it, and I wanted to do it, but that damned psychic intuition of mine didn’t like the idea. It kept urging me away from doing so, because of some possible future weirdness that would be created from that… conquest. So I reluctantly agreed and from then on stayed away from every girl that ever appeared on that show. Just in case.

Now, I’m glad I listened. Oy! I really dodged a bullet there, I guess.

It’s fine when I boff people I don’t know, or to whom I have no connection to. But when the personal starts to intrude, even slightly, things can get… complicated. And I like to avoid complications.

Don’t get me wrong, Annaleigh’s husband and I haven’t spoken in decades, so nothing would have changed with me. Well, nothing except for me getting profoundly creeped out by the whole thing.

*Whew*

Celebrity Gossip of the Day, Part II

I also once deigned to watch the show, or at least a token episode, to see what it was about, and if my own fantasies play a part in it, somehow. Even though of course they do. I mean, who else would Masters of Sex take inspiration from, really?

I’m getting creepy vibes and images right now of Annaleigh and Joe from recess discussing my sex life in lurid, graphic detail.

AUGGHH!!!!!!!

ICKKK!!!!!!!!

Oy. This is something I’d rather not know about, perhaps.

Celebrity Gossip of the Day, Part III

Well, the previous post was funny, but in all seriousness, Joe, if you’re actually reading this, congratulations. You got yourself a hell of a girl and a nice life to go with her.

I’m glad it all worked out for you. Life’s been kind to me, overall, since we parted. As I’m sure you know, but… it’s always nice to hear that firsthand.

BTW- craziness- I was going through some old stuff a few weeks ago and found one of the Valentine’s Day cards we exchanged in class back then. I forgot what they even looked like (or that we even exchanged them, TBH), but there it was. It was this little 4” x 3” cardboard cutout with Dumbo on it and your printed name and a cute message on the back. The message: “To Tom, the best friend I’ll ever have.”

All together now: Awwwwww.

Anyhow- crazy. What a blast from the past!

I wasn’t sure of what to do with it, so I stuck it back in with my papers.

Well… if I ever decide to formally join the industry somehow, someday, maybe we’ll meet again and exchange stories.

That might be fun.

Celebrity Gossip of the Day, Part IV

I guess it’s true what they say. People with similar natures really do flock together. Wow.

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Well, back to the present.

Perhaps I should have posted that back then, but I hesitated, I think because of my personal revelations. And because of the… oddness of it all.

Well, truth be told, I’m glad I didn’t post this then because I need to say something else, now, that’s equally as stupid and important as the earlier stuff.

The focal point of the new controversy: Annaleigh Ashford is Victoria Justice’s costar in her new movie, a remake of Rocky Horror Picture Show.

This isn’t bad, or even notable, except in that small way in which it is extremely so. See, now I wonder what Annaleigh and Victoria discussed on set, when nobody was there. Or, horror of horrors, when people were there. And I wasn’t.

The fact that the new version of Rocky Horror is quite obviously inspired by my wanton sexual proclivities with my… wife of 7 years, Victoria herself, should interest me, and it does, me being me, but… there’s that thing. And I just can’t help but think about it.

See, Vicky is obviously hot in said movie. Any look at the promo materials will tell you that. I mean, Jeezus, there’s been like a dozen scenes of her being semi-naked released onto the net already, and the movie hasn’t even premiered yet.

Hmmm.

Another thought: am I really that much of a control freak? So much so that such a ridiculous concern should be such a sticking point in my enjoyment of seeing my partner of 7 years now succeed in the way that she’s always wanted to?

Hmmm… Perhaps. What would Joe think, I wonder?

AUUGGGHH

Never mind.

I’m still not seeing it.

This stuff… whatever it is, doesn’t seem to be working.

I’ve been watching, still- I gave it a few weeks in this case, just to see. In that time, I’ve only become more convinced that the “alt-right” isn’t the movement, or whatever, for me.

I think the problem is the confusion. The “Alt-Right” seems to have too big a diversity of opinions. What it seems to me is that everyone under the sun who has a slightly conservative bent in some direction, who also doesn’t like the GOP for whatever reason, is part of the “alt-right”. Thus, the movement’s foundations are built on logically contradictory things. On things that should never be brought together, ever.

It all just doesn’t make sense to me. I won’t go into the details so much, since I’ve already done so, but it should suffice to say that I’ve never seen a movement so disorganized in it’s message or purpose.

The “alt-right” seems to not know why it exists. Does it hate the political system or not? If it does, than why does it support the consummate political insider- billionaire oligarch Trump? Does it hate the GOP or not? If it does, than why does it support the GOP’s candidate so fervently? And why is it throwing it’s support behind those institutions that seem most directly aligned against the values they say they love, like the US military and the Christian church?

Blah blah. Etc.

I don’t get it, except to say that the movement as a whole doesn’t seem as though it will have much staying power.

I’ll contrast this with liberals, who, until very recently, had logically consistent and on-point messages. Everything they did from about 1920 to now was based on dismantling the “patriarchy”, i.e. middle class white male culture and demographics. This simplicity of message gave their movement staying power and direction. It kept it aloft, and gave it many successes, in those years when it was still a viable choice.

I mentioned this before, but the Alt-Right to me seems too confused to even identify it’s enemy properly. We all know who the liberals hated. They made it clear, and their message was always consistent. But nobody knows WTF these alt-rightists are gunning for. Are they against an institution? A government? A race? An idea? WTF do they stand for, exactly?

This… IMHO, is the problem. And it may not be fixable.

This is why Trump doesn’t get support from such a huge swath of the populace. His lack of a consistent message makes him seem dangerous and unstable. It make it look as though his whole platform is based on anger, rather than any positive idea for a successful future, of some kind, for someone, somewhere, besides himself.

Are these guys racists, or not? If they are, they need to just go right out and SAY it. If they did, it would put everyone’s minds at rest. I mean, at least we’d know where it is that they actually stand on this issue, at least.

It’s the constant shucking and jiving of the “alt-rightists” that puts everyone off.

You know- some parts of this movement seem to hate Jews. Ironically, it’s for the very thing that they themselves are doing, right now, by refusing to actually say publicly what it is that they actually stand for.

People, just SAY WHAT YOU MEAN, for once. Are you racists, or not? Do you truly believe that the races are “equal”, or not? Just SAY IT!

This goes back to what I said in my previous screed here, against Christianity. How do you reconcile a love for Jesus’ teachings with the reality that everyone who represents those teachings hates you and everything you stand for?

And the same goes for the military- how do you reconcile a love for a strong US military with the reality that it’s the US military that has been at the forefront of pushing through every social change that you say you hate so much? Trump has repeatedly said that he wants a stronger military, and this is one of the few messages of his that nobody doubts. So… what? How do you square away this with the things you say you believe?

And Trump, himself. This oligarch represents the very system you say you hate. And you’re going to vote for him? Why?

I, like everyone else, would be more comfortable if Trump and his supporters would stop acting so damn soft and self-conscious and actually SAY WHAT IT IS THAT THEY ACTUALLY THINK. Are they concerned about the long-term future of whites in America? So, SAY IT.

Ugh.

This… movement, apparently led by quasi racists, is trying to bring in black voters, for some reason. As in, they actually think that blacks will willingly go along for the ride and freely submit to the rule of race-conscious whites, you know, like they did back in the good ‘ol days of Jim Crow and the three fifths rule, just… because. Because they’ve been asked nicely. Guys, that isn’t going to happen, because that’s not how things work. And they repeatedly now compare Trump to Reagan, the failure who amnestied every illegal in the country.

Regarding Trump’s actual plans- if what he’s said thus far are in fact his actual plans- I don’t much like them. We need not just a wall, we need a twenty year, if not permanent, stop to ALL immigration, from everywhere. What good is a wall, if the people stopped by it just immigrate here legally, instead? What have we accomplished, then? Nothing. And we need an end to to the Reagan stupidity, and I mean all of it. Everything Reagan did in office was bad, and I mean literally every single thing, so everything he did should be reversed- both at home and abroad.

… I don’t know. What I think that all of this boils down to is that I still don’t trust Trump.

And a few other people.

But… that’s neither here nor there, right now.

Tonight, I might like to talk about other things, because I haven’t done that in a while.

I wish I knew what to think about her. I think we ALL do, really.

I mean, there’s something about her that’s just… hmmm… I don’t know.

Best not to look into it, I guess.

Ok, with all of that posted, one final note- it truly is impossible to square away a belief in Christian institutions and those of the West, since all Christian institutions are actively trying to destroy Western society with Muslim and Mexican immigration.

You can’t defend both. You need to pick one or the other. Do you support the Pope, or do you support the continued existence of your race and the West? Because they are fundamentally at odds.

The Church has already made it’s choice. It has decided to ally with it’s Abrahamic brothers, the Muslims, against agnostic Europe. It has gone “all-in” with Islam.

It’s the birds of a feather philosophy. Islam, like Christianity, is based on the Jewish Torah. Catholics have more in common with Muslims than they do agnostics. So, of course those two will band together to destroy agnostic Europe.

I’m not mincing words here. Every Christian institution stands against Europe. Every notable clergyman is opposed to the continued existence of America and Europe as White countries. And this is not an exaggeration- I mean every single one. Yes, there may be an isolated, rural preacher out there, somewhere, who stands against illegal immigration and the Muslim invasion. That does not absolve the fact the 99.9% of his peers do not support him, and that the entire church hierarchy above him doesn’t respect his views.

Men of the right- it’s time to choose. It’s one or the other. Europe or Jesus.

But not both.

Never again, can you have both.

Ok, I feel like I should explain more of things, now. Most importantly, I feel like the issue of Christianity needs to be discussed. Rather than write out a big spiel, I’ll just post something I wrote a good 6 months ago. I didn’t post this then because… IDK. I wrote it out at work and didn’t have time, I think. And I was tired of being controversial. But I’m OK with that now, so here it is. After I post this stuff, I’ll come back with some conclusions later on.

Part I
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Ok. It’s time. I need to lay it all out, finally, after having this stuff stew in my head for the last year or so. I need to just say my piece. I’ll lay it all out there, factually, and without excess emotion, passion, or demagoguery. I’ll just explain what it is that I think and why.

Here’s what I believe: It’s time for conservatives to throw away their bibles.

It’s time to get rid of Jesus. It’s time.

Christianity is a dead religion vis-à-vis young conservatives (i.e. white, middle class Midwesterners and Southerners). It’s a non-starter at this point and it will never again be relevant. It is truly a dead religion in the West, and any attempts to jump start it at this point will result in failure and embarrassment.

It’s time to ditch it entirely.

Look, I’m someone who grew up respecting Christianity. When I was a kid, like most others in my demo, I thought I would be forever Christian- like my parents. And then, life took over- real life- and I quickly realized that I couldn’t stick with it and survive. And I mean that literally, without exaggeration.

Christianity just does not mesh with the modern world. It just doesn’t. It’s morals are fundamentally outdated and useless in today’s society, if not actually outright harmful. There is almost no way to live as a devout Christian in today’s world and still be sane, and this is most especially true if you are a young, white male in the US or Europe. It just can’t happen.

Christianity is just incompatible with our daily lives and may very likely be dangerous to our physical wellbeing at this point.

We, as a people, as a demographic, need to come to grips with this. And conservatives most especially, because the contradictions in what they believe are tearing them apart.

Try this- read the news about “migrants” in Europe. Who is it that is always at the forefront, publicly ushering them in? It’s the Pope.

Yes, the Pope. And his underlings. It’s the Catholic churches, and the Christian NGO groups. And the Protestants- the Queen, and her churches.

It’s the Christians.

It’s not the Satanists, people, and I’m beyond tired of reading this. Not because it’s offensive to me, personally, but because it doesn’t make any logical sense. The Pope is not a Satanist. Neither is the head of the Protestant church. The Pope is a Catholic, the Queen is a Protestant, and the people who claim otherwise look like deluded idiots.

There is nothing “Satanic” about the NWO. The NWO is a Jewish/Christian creation down to the marrow of it’s bones. It is the real-life incarnation of the Christian dictate to create a raceless, nationless “Brotherhood of Man” bound by a devotion to the Christian hierarchy (the Vatican, churches, etc.), with a strong component of Jewish finance propping it up. It is a Judeo-Christian creation. It is the wet dream of anyone who really loved Sunday school.

Satanism does not play a part in the NWO. Satanism is a religion formed in the dark ages in Europe out of the remnants of the old witchcraft cults, and a few other various tribes of people (like the remnants of the Barbarians). Satanism is what was created when the Catholic Church started burning witches at the stake. The victims of the church’s purges banded together to survive, and called their religion Satanism- it was a way to keep their traditions alive in an age when not professing a belief in the Bible’s characters would get someone killed, by law.

Since then, Satanism has been an underground phenomenon, out of necessity. Once the absolute tyranny of the church was lifted somewhat with the creation of the United States, it was able to come out of hiding. But that is only very recent, from a historical perspective.

Satanism is not the enemy.

If conservatives wish their race to survive this century, they cannot afford to live in fantasy. And most importantly, they cannot afford to mis-identify their enemy. And they certainly cannot afford to mis-identify their enemy just because they’re too frightened of what might happen next.

Look, the enemy is the Church. The Pope. The Bible. It just is, and there’s no getting around this. It’s time to man up and look at the world as it actually is, and not how you’d like it to be.

Besides, as a religion, it’s outdated and useless anyways. It isn’t realistically possible to live a “Christian” existence anymore and still be able to function. That’s why the churches are empty.

It’s time to give it up and move on.

I did, and I can’t say enough good things about it.

Part II
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My own personal take is that the only established religious tradition that can offer hope is Satanism, but that is only one man’s opinion. I’m sure that there are other pagan religions just as good.

Like I said earlier, Satanism is natively European. It was born from the remnants of the European witch cults that who were forced to go into hiding to avoid being burned at the stake for being “heretics”. It is European by blood. It is also established and famous enough to get peoples’ interest. And it’s cool enough to get the youth interested. It’s our way out.

Granted, this will not go over well with a lot of people in the demo, to say the least. To most of them, it would go over like a lead balloon, and it definitely wouldn’t take well with the simpletons who think the bible is literally true. But to those who understand that it isn’t, what I’m saying should make logical sense. And, having tried it personally, I find that it’s worked very well for me.

And, crucially, it’s a plan. It’s an actual plan, and it might work. It sure as hell beats just sitting there!

Do we want to survive, or not? Are we willing to fight the tough fights to preserve our homelands or not? Because if something as nonessential as our experiences in Sunday school are going to hold us back from fighting to retake our homelands, than we might as well just lie down and die now.

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Also- there is no reason why jettisoning Christianity would also entail getting rid of basic morals.

One of the principal reasons that conservatives cling to Christianity in this day and age is the belief that without the guiding hand of the bible, peoples’ true nature, “evil”, will come out and destroy civilization. That is not so. It is not a problem to live normally and productively and also as a non-Christian. I mean, holy crap, I’m like the fucking Antichrist, or something, and I hold a 9-5 job at a cubicle farm as well as well as anyone else does.

Look- we need a blood religion that can give us the revolution we will need if we wish to survive, and this might be our only real shot.

So, that’s it.

Part IV
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One more note about Christianity- it was not, as it’s followers seem to believe, instrumental to the development of the West.

I hold Spengler’s view that Western Civilization is distinct from Classical Civilization. I don’t see “The West” as a construct that spans from Ancient Greece to modern Germany. I agree with Spengler that Western Civilization started around 1400 A.D., at the time when the Vatican’s grip over Europe was weakened at the end of the dark age.

Note what I said above. I believe that the West was born not of the Church, but of Europe’s repudiation of the Church and it’s doctrine of forced ignorance. It was the free spread of information that led to the creation of our (white, Aryan) civilization. It was the free spread of information- that very thing that the church hated most- that led to the creation of everything you see around you and gave our people the tools to rule the world.

It was the printing press that gives us everything we have. Gutenberg brought knowledge- books- out of the greedy hands of the Church and into the hands of the people. This act ended the dark ages and was our civilization’s real birth.

The Church has never been comfortable with this. It doesn’t like knowledge in the hands of others and it’s obvious. This is why it always, always fights for censorship and for the right to remove freedom of association from peoples’ lives.

The rights of freedom of information and association are why America exists! If anyone doubts this, read the Bill of Rights again. This country stands against the Church, not for it. The Church is why people immigrated here in the first place! They wanted to get away from the Vatican and the Protestant Churches! They wanted to read any book they wanted, and practice any faith they wanted, and associate with whom they pleased. Read any grade school history book for more info on this.

And this attitude is precisely why the USA became the world’s pre-eminent power of the modern age. It’s because we were governed, once, by men of reason and education, and not by men of the Church or the synagogue.

Don’t let any of the Founding Fathers’ talk of “God” fool you. They meant “God” as a being separate from the Church itself. Too many people conflate God with the Pope. The Pope is not supernatural, and most people in this world do not believe that he speaks for God.

The Founding Father’s “God” was not represented by the Church or the Queen. You can tell because they left Europe, to come here and get away from said establishments.

Part V
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Alright, it’s getting late, but here’s one final note on this subject.

The reason that Christianity was popular in Europe from Constantine to about 1800 was because literally 99% of people couldn’t read, and thus didn’t actually know what the bible said. It was this ignorance of the details of Christianity that made White peoples’ faith possible, because, you know, the Christian religion, when actually contemplated, comes across as frankly incomprehensible.