Sighinide

When I talked about the working class cultural revolution, earlier, I meant the real culture of the working class. Not this Breitbart nonsense. I meant the social elevation of small business owners and factory workers, and the values usually exemplified by those types.

I mean values like prudence, thrift, hard work, devotion, self-reliance, and working class comradery.

I mean things like the “live and let live” small government philosophy.

I think that maybe people (Trump, and the rest of the GOP) don’t know what “working class” means. It doesn’t mean stupid, or rude, or unknowing. Just because someone doesn’t have a 4 year degree doesn’t mean that he isn’t educated or intelligent.

*sigh*.

Well, that’s it for tonight.

The issue I have with the alt-right is that there’s no “there” there.

It has no sense of history. There’s nothing there.

It has no presence. There’s nothing that ties it to anything real, or even gives it an image of substance.

It’s followers seem, much too often, to be a bunch of angry, ignorant, drunken frat boys. The movement as a whole seems to lack cognizance.

I think that this is why their hero has been struggling as of late. The movement has frighteningly little substance, so Trump has nothing to say in regards to potential policies and plans.

This is reason #348 why I haven’t been backing him lately on Twitter or elsewhere. It’s because if he’ll build one wall, apparently solely to benefit his own fortunes, then why not another- say, a wall between him and us?

I still find the cult-like devotion his followers have in regards to him worrying. He’s as much of a blank slate as Obama was before his inauguration. How do they know that Trump won’t turn on them, the way that Obama turned on his followers?

I will not back anyone I’m not 110% sure is going to do the right thing. Politicians have a miserable record in this country. They lie, cheat their bases, and steal. I will never back a politician without solid evidence that he or she will not ever do those things, and I haven’t seen that, or anything close to it from Trump.

I will not be anyone’s useful idiot. Fuck that.

Back to the “alt-right”. There’s nothing to that stuff. The image I have of the people who comment at Brietbart is that they’re empty people who profess a love for Christianity, but who spend their free time looking at Internet porn. Like they’re the kind of people who whine about black crime but watch the NFL religiously. They’re people who seem, like Vox Day, to despise every political stance under the sun, despite spending so much of their time on political websites. They’re people who claim to be “White Nationalist” who are seemingly obsessed with the one political party that has always, always represented the polar opposite of that view, because it just now threw a few table scraps in their general direction.

Everyone’s views waver from time to time. We’re all human. But the lack of anything approaching real substance and logical consistency with Breitbart’s readership, and, hell, the readership of almost every “alt-right” website I can think of disturbs me.

This is why I want to publicly distance myself from this stuff. That ISN’T me.

This is why, earlier, I pointed out that lack of an “alt” in the “alt-right”. What we’re seeing with the rise of Trump and Breitbart is the same old, same old Nixon/Reagan-style elevation of the absolute worst parts of the white demographic. You know, that old, tired, failed strategy.

This… isn’t what I can support.

I think it telling that the “alt-right” doesn’t sound like much of an “alt” to anything at all.

To me, there is precious little difference between the rhetoric of “alt-rightists” and that of a typical Ronald Reagan worshiping GOP nerd. In fact, there may be no difference between them at all, from what I can see.

Here are the beliefs of the “alt-right”, as compiled by “alternative” blogger Vox Day:

https://voxday.blogspot.com/2016/08/what-alt-right-is.html

Day’s list is a list of Reaganeque GOP talking points, only confused. That’s all it is. And that being the case, if this list does, truly, represent his beliefs and those of his movement, he and his followers can fuck off.

Reading the list, I’m having a hard time understanding what it is that he actually stands for. This is also Trump’s problem, as I see it. In his first two bullet points, Vox attacks liberalism, libertarianism, socialism, National Review style “neo-conservationism”, Marxism, communism, and some other ‘isms. Then later on, he attacks free trade, globalism, and other economic ideas. That being the case, WTF does he actually like? Does he have any likes at all? I mean, outside from his own race, kinda, creature comforts, and some things on the Internet?

Beyond that, I disagree with almost every one of his stances, but in the interests of space, I’ll only discuss our major differences.

Actually, rather than do that, I’ll just outlay what it is that I believe, here. Then people can compare and contrast as they like.

I am a dark conservative.

1) I believe, principally, that Christianity is a plague on Western Civilization, scientific progress and rational thought. I believe that Christianity is inherently anti-Western, anti-civilization, anti-education, anti-white people, and immoral and a perversion of the right and proper way of thinking about things- and always has been. I believe that Jesus worship is a problem, if not THE problem- and I think that Christianity and Christian institutions, like the Vatican and the Protestant Church, may in fact be the origin of everything that ails us.

2) I believe in socialism. I am an elitist; a believer in natural hierarchies. I believe in Thomas Jefferson’s dictum about the evils of the banks and corporations. I believe that unfettered capitalism (i.e. paper wealth accumulation) is a major problem.

3) I believe in the reality of race. The races are not “equal”, and to think they are is dumb, infantile, and wrong.

4) I believe in the power and benefit of money. Real money, I mean. I believe in the power of using and accumulating currency that is a substitute for a real-world asset, like gold. Everything else instigates corruption.

5) I believe that the world is violent, and that to the victor go the spoils. Because that’s what the last 10,000 years of history tells us.

6) I believe that Satanism and the old religions, like Odinism and Roman/Hellenic paganism, are best for both conservatives and Whites because those are naturally, authentically European religions. The weird, incomprehensible, stapled together Asian/Jewish/European/African mongrel religions like Christianity, Islam, Baha’ism and such only confuse people at best. Ethnoculturalism must extend to important matters like religion as well, and not just to TV, the Internet and mp3’s.

7) I believe that anyone who takes religion literally should not be respected. Just as educated Greeks laughed at the simpletons who believed that Zeus was a real person who sat on a chair up in the clouds throwing lightning bolts at people, so too should we laugh at any moron who actually gives real credence to literal interpretations of any religious philosophy.

8) I believe in the inherent supremacy of my own race, and I believe that this is the right and proper way to think. That is the natural way, so that is the right way. Not to mention that in my case this belief is logical- my people created civilization and the modern world. We are the best, the most capable, and thus, yes, the most supreme. The evidence for this is the last 500 years of history.

9) I believe that it is fine to recognize and appreciate the talented people of other races. You should do this; that is the right and noble, the Aryan, thing to do. The ability to appreciate, and thus learn from others, is one of the things that has made my own race strong. But this does NOT mean that the races are inherently “equal”. Because they are not. And it does not mean that the other races must not be defeated to protect our own, hard won prosperity.

10) I believe in the Rule of Law, so long as the law is just and serves the race. Otherwise, the law can fuck off.

11) I believe in globalism. Global thinking, meaning big thinking, large scale thinking, always wins the day. I believe in the old socialist dictum of “Think globally, act locally”. Global thinking beats national thinking, hands down. All great movements and civilizations are built by educated men with global perspectives and ambitions.

12) I believe in the importance and the power of nature. The Earth is our home, and we must protect it and cherish it as we would our houses. To do otherwise is to betray humanity and your own race, if not yourselves, your children, and your own best interests.

In short, I am a conservative. I think that most conservative thinkers from 1300 to about 1800 would agree with most or all of my dozen points here. The “dark” is mostly for style purposes. As a Satanist, I use it to distinguish myself from the more pagan-minded conservatives of the middle ages.

So, there it is.

I’m getting tired of others’ cowardice.

It’s gotten to the point, now, where I’m running out of places to visit on the web because of all the contemptible Trump cheerleading being performed by people I used to respect and listen to. I feel embarrassed for them; so much so that I can’t help but turn away. It’s sick and stupid on their part.

It honestly makes me wonder if any of Trump’s cheerleaders were ever truly worthy of respect. Perhaps I was wrong to listen to them, earlier, if this is all they’re made of.

Being who I am, I have an instinctive revulsion for men who cheer lead for other men. It looks grotesque.

Yuck.

As far as Trump’s actual policies, he has proven himself, thus far, to be a typical GOP stooge. He has my message but Mitt Romney’s spirit. He has shown himself, time and time again, to lack any substance beyond that of any other garden variety GOP politician.

He looks like a hack, frankly, and in his case, it looks even worse than usual, because he has never, ever, stuck with anything at all for very long, ever.

Remember when he was a democrat? He voted for Obama in 2012 after questioning Obama’s citizenship back in 2008, remember? Remember when he was best friends with the Clintons? I do. Trump flip-flops at least as much as Romney. AT LEAST.

He doesn’t truly believe in anything, obviously.

Given his history, I can’t support him, and I wonder WTF the people who do are thinking.

So, fuck ’em all.

I’m getting sick and tired of hearing about Donald Trump.

Frankly, I don’t like him. I’ve tried, believe me. I’ve tried. I’ve tried, many, many times over, to see what others see in him, but I just… can’t.

I just don’t understand his appeal.

I like Trump when he takes ideas from me, yes, but that’s just because he flatters me when he does so.

But as for him… I can’t stand him, and the more I learn about him, the less appealing he looks.

I can’t get over the fact that he’s so clearly not who he claims to be.

Trump is an oligarch; he’s a product of the Fed’s easy money experiments in the 80’s and 90’s, and he defines that era. He doesn’t belong in any conservative movement, and you can tell.

Trump principally cares about himself, not the country, and he clearly doesn’t care about any transcendent ideals, left, right, or otherwise.

I’m sick of the “alt-right” as well. I don’t fit in with them and never will. I am not a member of any “alternative” movement. I am a conservative. I take my cues from authors long dead, not from bloggers or twitter accounts.

The fact that the “alt-right” sees in Trump a savior is a good indication that I will never fit in with them, ever. Not that I want to, anymore. Now that I fully see what Trump is, I mean.

I’m beyond sick of the GOP as a whole. I want them all gone; all of them, Trump included.

I’m tired of seeing the GOP make a mockery of the political ideals I believe in. I’m tired of their candidates, like Trump, who purposely sabotage their own chances and support bases for the “greater good”.

I dislike being a part of any of this nonsense.

So, henceforth, I am reasserting myself and what I believe in.

I am a dark conservative, forged in the Satanic underground of the mid 90’s and early 00’s.

I am a conservative. I am not anyone’s “alternative”. I do not give a fuck if Trump wins or loses. I truly do not care, either way.

In fact, I would be glad if he loses. Nothing would make me happier, because a loss for Trump would sink the GOP forever.

The GOP is the party of Lincoln and always has been. It’s the party of New Englander Wall Street types and their sycophants, like Trump, Nixon, Reagan and Romney.

These people are not conservatives and never have been, despite the fantasies of their sheep.

So, fuck ’em all.

And… strangely enough, I don’t feel devastated.

It’s eerie. And shocking. But… it’s me.

I feel, weirdly enough, invincible.

I feel like this can only lead to new things. To good things. To new opportunities. I feel elated and happy.

It’s a stark contrast to how I felt the last time I lost my job. Then, I was crushed. Thank God that the Scarlett pics leaked that day, or I don’t know what I would’ve done.

But now… I feel like it almost doesn’t matter.

I think I know what’s going on. It’s me, and it’s the vampire’s powers. I had no idea how strong he is. I mean, I had no idea.

I feel amazing.

I’ve grown up so much, too. I’m not the man I was. I’ve changed. I’m so much stronger than I was back then that that’s incredible in and of itself.

Last time, I felt like crying for weeks. This time, I feel only pride at the things I’ve accomplished at work. I’ve legitimately done amazing things, and I’m recognized for it. I feel great.

I’m really impressed by the vampire, and by Sara. too. Her ability to navigate stressful social situations with grace, confidence and attitude is second to none. Thank you, Sara. I could tell that my boss was impressed by how coolly and confidently I took the news. I mean, I learned the news before I left that my last day was tomorrow- after a near 5 year stint- and I handled with grace and aplomb, I thought. It was amazing, how I felt.

I didn’t break down. I wasn’t even unduly shocked or scared. I took it like a man.

Ironically, by borrowing from a girl.

Sara- you really are incredible. Thank you for what you’ve done with me.

Before I left today, I used my organizational powers to strip mine my cube of everything of value.

It occurred to me while doing so that it’s that set of powers that the vampire might want access to.

Or, maybe he just wants “Tom” to be whole. Hmmn. He is good, at the end of the day. He really is, I think.

I feel just amazingly strong, now, and not like a monster. I feel like a human with great self confidence and a great future ahead of him.

I feel, kinda, like myself. I feel like I used to feel, before the split.

Kinda.

Well, I need to rest up for tomorrow’s big day. It’ll still be difficult.

But, it’ll be doable.

Thanks, guys! The future looks fantastic.

If I hand Trump the victory I upset everyone I love.

My family, my friends, my coworkers, my fans, my girlfriends, and all of their friends… everyone that’s important to me.

I don’t want to make everyone upset and miserable.

I’m sorry, I know that this is un-dictator like of me, but it’s the case, and I need to think about this.

Or, maybe I could bury my head in the sand and run away from my problems.

That might work, too.

I’m ready, now.

But I’m not- quite- sure I want to jump in.

I’m finished with my political research. I’m done. I know how it works, now.

I can do anything, politically. I’ve mastered the field.

The question I face now is simple- do I want to actually use my powers and knowledge?

Or- do I keep them for myself?

I can hand Donald the election on a silver platter, if I wished. But do I want this?

Is that best for me?

Should I let him flounder, so that Hilary can take the election,and thus get blamed for the ensuing chaos after she’s inaugurated?

Or- should I not? Should I not step in?

Should I even care, either way? I have a life to lead that doesn’t involve politics.

I don’t know.

I really need guidance.

I wish I had someone who could help me through this.

It’s just the same speech, over and over and over and over again.

It never changes!

Yes- it’s always delivered eloquently, and with passion, skill and conviction.

But it’s still the same damn speech.

I get the appeal of it. It’s nice to hear, and you must respect the ability of those who give their individual spins on it.

But it’s still the same damn speech.

The contrast between the RNC and the DNC could not be more glaring. The RNC was interesting. Like everyone else, I was curious to see and hear what Trump would have to offer the country.

Tonight, I feel like there’s no reason at all to watch the DNC tomorrow. I mean, why would I? Hilary will just give the same speech as the one her husband gave, and the one that Biden gave. And the one that Obama gave, and the one that what’s-his-name-her-vice-president gave.

On top of that, everything just seemed so stale. So old. So precise, and skillful, yet so… boring. So unimaginative. So very 2008.

This… isn’t going to work.

Another reason I stepped back from Trump is because I wanted to give the Democrats another shot. All of my girlfriends like them, so, yes, I more than once considered that perhaps I could learn something, or perhaps a lot, from today’s Democrats. I was curious, and I wanted to see.

God, I’m just so disappointed.

I feel like to those who love the speech, it must have been heaven to hear it relentlessly and unforgivingly over the course of the night. But to those who may have been on the fence, this isn’t going to cut it.

I think it telling that Obama kept referring back to 4 years ago, to 8 years ago, to 12 years ago. It’s because he, like everyone else in that room, seems frozen in time.

Obama’s speech, as well delivered and eloquent as it was, was a disaster. It almost would have been better for Hilary had he screwed up. Going out of his way to emphasize that the speech he was giving was so similar to the speech he gave 12 years ago at his first DNC is precisely the reason why we need him out of office.

People have moved on. In case the Democrats haven’t gotten the memo, they’re angry, and tonight was a good example of why. People are sick and tired of hearing the same damn speech, delivered over and over again. They want, need, and deserve something new.

I don’t get why this isn’t obvious. I saw the DNC on CNN, and all the commentators could talk about was how good Obama’s speech was. Obama’s speech may have been good for him, but it was not for her. He, like her husband, and her VP pick, fucked up.

This is what happens in oligarchies. People get cut off from the outside world. They get isolated. They focus on “giving a good speech”, rather than connecting with the public.

Trump’s speech wasn’t good, but it was effective. It was overly long, but people really listened. Tonight’s speeches were more efficient than his but ineffective because everyone already knew the punchline beforehand.

To me, tonight seemed more like an epitaph than a beginning.

It felt like a swan song.

It felt like the end of an era.

Yeah, but do I actually need to FEEL this? And SEE it? Seriously, dude, what the FUCK?

… yeah, I “get” it.

I know it’ll be fine once this is done. But it’s still creepy.

As you can imagine, it’s weird typing like this.

I’ll go back to bed, now. I’ll seal myself in one of my protective cocoons until work, though. If this slows your work then so be it.

I need to get back to sleep.

Good luck!