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Oops, Part IV

Saturday, July 23rd, 2016

Now, wait a second.

I don’t think so. I mean, what I’m saying here can’t be real. It just can’t be. And it’s not. That isn’t how it works. I mean, that’s how everything else works, but not this.

No, this whole line of thinking is ridiculous. I’m not a cokehead. I’ve never even done the stuff. How would I even know what it feels like? This is just me, fantasizing about being in Hollywood again, or something. I don’t know what is going on here, quite frankly. But it’s not that. That’s just dumb, and can’t possibly be real.

And if it is, it’s very easily fixable. So, that’s that.

Oops, Part III

Saturday, July 23rd, 2016

You know, this might be the point of “Clean” from 1989. As in, Taylor wasn’t writing about herself, there. She was writing about me. And maybe a little about her, but maybe she picked up on this before I just did, now. And maybe I didn’t realize what was going on, then, because I just didn’t listen. I didn’t pick up on the clues she was leaving me in the lyrics and such. It’s about me. I’m the addict. Not her. ME.

That… makes a lot of sense.

Wow.

Mind. Blown.

Oops, Part II

Saturday, July 23rd, 2016

Ah, OK. I get it. I AM a cocaine addict.

Yup.

I just realized it. My decades of absorbing the brain waves of cocaine users has given me the ability to generate the effects of cocaine without the drug itself.

The power of coke isn’t in the drug, it’s in the effect the drug has on the brain. I can generate that effect without the substance itself, I think.

I AM a cocaine addict.

I think.

Well, now that I know, I should be able to control it.

I didn’t get it, before. When I wrote the original post in this series back in 2014, I thought my problems were caused by health supplements that somehow emulated the effects of cocaine, or something.

Here’s a quote:

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Is some of that stuff addictive? I mean, the roots and herbs and minerals and stuff. You wouldn’t think so, really, but some illegal drugs are herbs and isn’t cocaine a mineral too? It can be prepared as a salt.

I’m not saying that anything I was taking was like crack or anything- that would be nuts- but I was taking way, and I mean WAY, more stuff than I should have been, especially, now that I think about it, when I was feeling down or depressed, or stressed out at work. When I was really down I would go over by three or four times the recommended maximum dosages on the packages sometimes. Was I an addict? I mean, it wasn’t intentional that I would take the stuff just to escape from reality. So I did it without thinking. Is that addiction?

So I recently stopped ingesting all of what I was taking and I feel a lot better but I *think* I might be having some withdrawal symptoms weaning myself off of what I was taking. But that’s impossible, right? They’re just herbs and roots and minerals etc. It’s nothing illegal!

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Nope. I was onto something, then. But I wasn’t quite there.

The stuff I was feeling, (and have felt, since, off and on) couldn’t have been from the supplements, only. There was something else there, too.

I think my brainstorm up above might be right. In matching up my brainwaves to those who use the drug, even without my knowing they use it, I’ve learned what it feels like and can, I think, “make” that feeling in myself without any actual coke.

Yup. I think that’s it.

A Few Thoughts on Taylor + Tom, Part VIII

Wednesday, July 6th, 2016

Perhaps I’m not being fair with the criticism, here.

I don’t like what I’m seeing with Tom, yes, but I also don’t like, much, what I’m seeing from Taylor. Perhaps her swimsuit pics dazzled me too much for me to see this.

Truthfully, I thought that Taylor was going to take a bit of a break and lay low for awhile after her relationship with Calvin Harris ended.

But, she didn’t. I kind of thought that she would spend some time alone, like… like she promised, back in the day, after the 1989 tour ended. I thought she would chill for awhile. But then all of THIS happened.

I get that Taylor’s thing is “too much”, but this seems a bit too much, even for her.

Even for me.

It’s a lot, and it’s too public, I think.

Taylor’s appeal has been largely based on the fact that she was public, but also private in some ways. Now, not so much. The sense of mystery about her seems to have dissipated.

Perhaps that’s inevitable. Being famous must make it almost impossible for someone to maintain mystery, and being the world’s most popular musician might make it impossible, literally. There’s no way she can keep the veil over herself. Certainly not in her case, and most definitely not when you consider the blinding lights shining on all of her friends, too.

And- she had a kind of earthiness, too. She was famous but very grounded. Lately, she doesn’t seem grounded at all.

Perhaps that one is my fault. She’s now grounded on me rather than, I don’t know, her childhood, or her past experiences in school or whatnot.

I used to write blogs about this problem, but the fun of 1989 and the tour removed all of these concerns from my mind. But now, these problems of hers are appearing once again, and they’re bigger now, since they weren’t dealt with the first time around.

I blogged before about how important it was that Taylor keep up her status in the Country and Western community. If not musically, then at least socially. But, she hasn’t done this. If she had, maybe she wouldn’t be having the problems I see her as having, now.

Today she’s so far removed from that scene that it would have been odd to see a country star at the 4th of July party she just had. Anyone she would have invited would have looked terribly out of place.

Yeah, that advice would have been perfect for her. She should have taken it. There’s something inherently grounding about country music. Even country-pop hybrid music like Taylor’s earlier works seem quite grounded and real compared to everything else in the pop culture milieu.

Well, I tried to warn her. And she had years to do something about this. But… she didn’t do anything.

*Hrrrumph*.

A Few Thoughts on Taylor + Tom, Part VII

Wednesday, July 6th, 2016

I think I’ll join the chorus and inquire about what, if anything, Tom Hiddleston is thinking.

I don’t get his recent actions, either.

Is he trying to copy me? Because if that’s his intent, he’s failing horribly at it. See, I’m not Taylor’s sycophant. I hang out with her because I’m her muse, her sometimes BFF, her sometimes frenemy, and, like many younger, sheltered celebrities, her sometimes father.

Seriously. I’ve talked about this before. I speak the girls’ language because I like it, obviously, but also because I need to connect with them because I need to raise them to an extent. You know, to make sure that they don’t fall into the typical starlet’s trap of drugs, illiterate sub-normal IQ “bad boys”, and general groundlessness. In Taylor’s case, I’ve been guiding her and educating her in the ways of the world now for 8 years at least. So I’m not doing it like… him.

So sure, I talk like Regina George, sometimes. Or I mean, I would be talking like her had she been smarter. But you knew that.

*Sigh*…

But back to Tom… IDK what’s he’s doing. Dude CAN’T be happy. It just doesn’t look like he’s in his element.

Now that I think about it, even back when I was in that horrific depression I didn’t act like Tom. I always maintained composure… mostly. I felt bad, and kind of lost, but I don’t think I ever came across like I felt myself beneath Taylor, or something like that. Or that I didn’t have a place for myself, there with her and her friends. And I guess that I always managed to stand above Taylor and the rest in my own way, despite how awful everything else was.

Tom just seems… like he doesn’t even have that, kinda. His place, there, with Karlie, Cara, Halston and Abigail. Where is it?

I mean, I get where it is. That’s obvious. But it just isn’t there. Where it should be.

Thoughts on the Death of Liberalism, Part XXII

Sunday, June 26th, 2016

It’s been awhile since I wrote one of these. Let’s see how it goes.

So- Brexit won. I’m surprised. Not because of the vote, but because it seems that the UK establishment didn’t have an array of tricks and ploys ready to stave off such a result. Or- perhaps they did, but all of their preparations weren’t nearly enough to prevent such an embarrassment, which is even worse.

The UK’s democratic establishment isn’t just floundering, now; it’s lost. And I mean that literally. With Cameron out and Labour in shambles, does anyone know who is currently running the UK? Is anyone currently running the UK? From my vantage point, I can’t make heads or tails of anything going on over there.

I would have voted Brexit, too. One clear look at the EU and it’s obvious that staying is foolishness. Just look at poor, beleaguered Greece- they’re like the United States. They’ve been in a recession for 8 years and nobody seems to care, least of all its EU “friends” and “allies”. And the rest of the PIIGS are almost as bad, and getting worse all the time. The EU has brought economic ruin to many, many people. It’s crushed hopes and shattered dreams. It’s brought misery, bankruptcy and hopelessness to millions.

And, the rapefugee crisis is something only a sicko would love or support. It’s genocide against Europe’s whites, and nothing more.

The EU is a vile, reprehensible abomination of a government. It’s leaders are unelected democratically- the common people have no say in who gets to lead the EU and why. And any democratically elected leader in Europe is subservient to the EU’s unelected tyrants. The EU is an effrontery to anyone who values liberty, freedom of speech, and rational, accountable government.

I’ll be glad to see it go.

How are things here, in the states?

Worse.

The “United States” is doomed. I’ll just say it.

I honestly think at this point that an amount of armed rebellion in inescapable, save for the possibility of some divine intervention, somehow, or a full devotion on my part to “fix” things, which isn’t going to happen, because I have a job and many other things to attend to.

I did my best to save the US. I tried as hard as I could with the limited time and resources I had, and I think I should be proud of my efforts, considering that I was one of only a small handful of people to make any.

At this point, right now, I’ve given up on trying to save the oligarchy, in particular. They’re hopeless, all of them, and they’re all equally doomed if things continue on their current course.

I used to write about this stuff a lot, a long time ago. I remember a paragraph I wrote, once, about how there might well be no turning back. Let’s see if I can find it…

Hmmmm. This might be it.

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Back to my original point… there are too many lies. Way, way, wayyyyyy too many. Even if “Obama” had been a competent and respectable leader, even if the economy were actually doing well as opposed to falling into the abyss, there still would be too many lies, I think, for the liberal establishment to escape from his Presidency with its credibility intact.

There are so many lies that in my view it discredits completely the entire order. It’s laughable to see the GOP debate some African born illegal alien “President” about his domestic policies as though he even knows what country this is. The GOP is presumably run by people with education over the third grade level, so they must know that his character isn’t even American. If we know it, than so do they, and the fact that he was allowed into the political order in any way discredits so much of the whole system. The future of politics here is a gaping abyss. I mean, even more so than it is now.

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I think that there might well be no possibility of saving the US establishment. They’re toast. The turning point, IMHO, was 9/11.

When they did 9/11, the oligarchs willingly and voluntarily severed themselves from the American public in a way that IMHO is impossible to fix. They caused a permanent fissure. After 9/11, there really and truly was no turning back for them. It was the NWO or nothing.

Since the NWO isn’t going to happen, obviously, they’re going to be left with nothing.

Yes, 9/11 was the turning point.

The oligarchy’s attempts to reconnect can’t happen because reconnection requires honesty. Honesty is the basis of trust, and without trust, you can’t connect.

And the oligarchy cannot be honest with the public because of its role in 9/11. No way.

So, they’re sunk.

Unlike so many on the alt-right, I have never been particularly keen on Trump. I’ve liked some of his ideas, but I’ve never trusted him, personally.

I think I’ve wrote about this before. Let me check…

Here.

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I don’t like them. Any of them. I’m trying, real hard, to like Trump, because I so desperately want to like somebody. I mean, I’m like a dying man in the desert, and I’m hoping that that thing labeled “Trump” over that sand dune off in the distance is actually what I hope it is, and not the mirage that it most likely, most probably, is.

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I still don’t trust him, and from the looks of things, I’m not alone anymore, either.

I don’t care how much he says he hates the Clintons. He doesn’t. He’s an oligarch, too, like them.

His whole message rings too shallow to me.

From the beginning, there were warning signs. Like his “Dancing Muslims” shtick, which I thought back then was a transparently obvious ploy to obscure in peoples’ minds the story of the “Dancing Israelis” back on 9/11.

Many, many other things don’t sit well with me regarding Trump. To be blunt, I dislike his one-note and shallow obsession with Muslims.

This, to me, is pure oligarch.

Nobody cares about the “Evil of Muslims” other than those who are trying to obscure the fact that ISIS is a US government creation, like Al-Queda was, and like 9/11 was.

Muslims aren’t the problem in the US as far as crime or violence goes. And I don’t care how many false flag attacks “show” otherwise.

The real problem in the US as far as violent crime is obviously the black race. For more, just do a Google search or read some of the stuff I wrote previously here.

Any real populist would put the curtailing of black crime front and center in his campaign.

His personality, as well, is pure oligarch. He comes across as a spoiled, entitled billionaire bully. Like a typical pampered oligarch, he’s a snob without the refinement. He has that rich man’s habit of being cruel without the wit and smarts that a lower class man must incorporate into his attacks to give him cover.

And, while I’m on the subject, I don’t like Trump’s attitude on the economy.

Like a typical oligarch who has never had to really work for a living, he is all attack, attack, attack. He offers no advice to others, and presents no plans to bring others into his successful milieu. He’s all about keeping others out. Again, like all the rest of them.

Trump comes across as someone who has never had to scrounge. You can tell because he doesn’t have the instinct to help others when they might be down, or in need or something. You know, like the instinct of a real working class man, who has to rely on others’ goodwill to get by.

Trump’s interpretation of working class people is an oligarch’s caricature of them. Only in a billionaire’s airy, sheltered fantasies do they act like he seems to think they do.

Trump isn’t a populist. Not even close.

That being the case, he’s not what we need.

We need an end to oligarchy, not it’s continuance under another name. We need people like Trump out.

And that, it looks like we’re not going to get.

So, if nothing changes, we’ll sink, and then break apart, and that will be that.

Demi Lovato

Thursday, June 23rd, 2016

had a Twitter meltdown, kinda. It wasn’t blood curdling or bone chilling like mine typically are, but it was a meltdown, somewhat.

She quit Twitter in a huff and then came back with an agitated rant about society and the superficiality of everything, these days.

When she quit Twitter earlier, I thought about tweeting her some advice. Here’s what I wrote out in a brainstorm:

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Hmmmm… it might be better to pace yourself, rather than quitting 100%. From here, you look too invested, I think.

You have about as many tweets as Selena, Taylor and Katy P. combined. Seriously- 15K is ALOT of tweets.

I think social media is best used infrequently, as a supplement. That way it won’t affect you too much. Just my 2 cents.

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I think that’s still good advice, and I think I’ll take in myself, and not tweet her. I’m sure she can figure it out as she matures. She’s still very young, and so Twitter will probably factor into what she does regardless of what I say to her.

Looking at everything now, it seems like Christina’s death is still affecting things. It is for me, at least, and I’m sure that it is for Demi and the others, too.

IMHO, you don’t get over something like that quickly. Getting over a death takes time, and in the case of a sudden, violent death, it takes more than time; it takes adjustment. After something like what happened with Christina, you can’t just pick yourself up and go on, say, like you can after a friend’s death from a long battle with lung cancer.

I’m not 100% sure of what Demi and the others are thinking, but I can imagine what I would be thinking were I in their place, right now, and I can tell you that I would be questioning everything. Because after that kind of sudden shock, what else can you do?

I don’t know.

It’s unfortunate, in our society, how we’re expected to just pick up and move along after some kind of trauma, like an unexpected death. It’s like people don’t even want to listen- like listening would somehow damage them. Like hearing about others’ burdens would rub off something bad on them, somehow.

It’s unfortunate.

Well, I kind of got off topic, but there it is.

A Few Thoughts on Taylor + Tom, Part VI

Wednesday, June 22nd, 2016

Perhaps I should explain. Or maybe not, but IDC, I’ll do it anyways.

I’m still going to fuck her- I mean, those pics of her in that red dress with the boobs(?) are divine. But as far as everything else goes… IDK.

………..

I’ve got alot to answer for, don’t I?

A Few Thoughts on Taylor + Tom, Part V

Wednesday, June 22nd, 2016

You know, sometimes I just can’t with the whole “Taylor Swift” thing.

Now would be one of those times.

Elle Fanning

Wednesday, June 22nd, 2016

can SING?!?! In addition to all the other stuff she does?

That hardly seems fair.