Oh man tho, it is hard to breathe. Uhgk. I mean, I’m dry, so I’m in no danger, but still, it really is.<\/p>\n
It’s like I have to fight for each breath of air. Oh lordy, what a terrible inconvenience. oof.<\/p>\n
And the headaches- yikes, they just SCREAM sometimes. Like my skull is in danger of splitting open and the contents of pouring out my ears. The headaches are just unreal. So massive, so brutal. <\/p>\n
Which would… make sense. Narcotics attach themselves to your nervous system- i.e. like your brain, and solar plexus, if I understand them right. So the nausea and the migraines have a simple, logical explanation. It’s my body trying to rid itself of what it considers a poison.<\/p>\n
Then why, tho- why the cravings? If it’s a poison, shouldn’t my body be glad to be rid of it? That would make the most sense, yes?<\/p>\n
So why do I need it so?<\/p>\n
Why can’t I be happy when it’s purged? It’s like… I need it SO. BADLY.<\/em><\/p>\n Like I can’t afford to be happy, or something. It’s a sick game, this is.<\/p>\n I kinda wish I had someone to talk to about this. I mean, I talk to Cady a lot but she’s… dead, lol. So that doesn’t really count. <\/p>\n I know I know. Therapy, right? Like, right now.<\/p>\n I know guys, I know.<\/p>\n But maybe I can… fix this… like, I was an addict before- there was the time in college. And last year, with a different set of narcotics. But this year is so so much worse. This shit I’m taking now is just sooooooo intense, and direct. And I’ve been on it for… a very, very long time. <\/p>\n I….. don’t know.<\/p>\n I need to think.<\/p>\n If I can, with this headache, I mean. Ouch.<\/p>\n sigh…<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Oh man tho, it is hard to breathe. Uhgk. I mean, I’m dry, so I’m in no danger, but still, it really is. It’s like I have to fight for each breath of air. Oh lordy, what a terrible inconvenience. oof. And the headaches- yikes, they just SCREAM sometimes. Like my skull is in danger […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3282"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3282"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3282\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3284,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3282\/revisions\/3284"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3282"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3282"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3282"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}