Yeah ok so I’m like super overdue for a big dose and I’ll FINALLY have the chance later on today so… yessir, in it goes. Gawd just a few hours until I can get my hit, not too long, I can take it. Yes yes. Not a problem; not at all, everything is completely under my control.<\/p>\n
SO. Blah blah usual stuff, but I also got my hands on a new kind of pain med, can’t wait to try that out this weekend. ALSO- yes I have thought verrrrry meekly and mildly about trying mayyyyyybe just a smidgin of heroin, juuuuust to try it because why not, seriously, I may as well, I am curious now, and I might…. have the opportunity. I mean… seriously, why not? Just a taste. I’m curious. <\/p>\n
I… think I can get some, if I really wanted to. It’s mostly just a “thought” though. I mean I remember talking to Demi about that like a loooong time ago and she said that she tried it (and yeah, I mean I can prove that too) and it didn’t seem to bother her <\/em>too much so… yeah I know I know, but don’t worry, I have this thing COMPLETELY under my control. I’m smart- much smarter than most- so we’re good. I mean, the fact that I collect my used fentanyl patches should be of no concern, lol. But srsly, we’re good.<\/p>\n So…. yes yes, I can’t wait for this afternoon. FINALLY, I get back to… normal. FINALLY, and I can get that reward that I need to get very much, just for dealing with this crazy fucking world of ours. Oh yeah, can’t wait. Nothing else matters really until I get my hit again, yes, I mean I just can’t wait, lol. oof, FINALLY. lol.<\/p>\n Oh yeah, just to feel that wonderful icy cold love surging through my dry veins… nothing is better, nothing is more needed, nothing means more. Right.<\/p>\n You know I really need to start talking about other stuff, here. And I mean I said I would, so… yeah, let’s seriously turn this into a diary, like a real one. Let’s do it. Let’s talk about being a celebrity, day to day life, and everything else. Let’s do it, let’s do it. Yup.<\/p>\n But not now. Right now, I know what I REALLY need. And I’m counting down the minutes until I get it. Just think though, heroin would be SO MUCH more convenient… a medium sized dose of that would take care of me, no problem, just as a supplement, you know? I mean occasionally, once in a while, until I get everything else straightened out, during those times when my supply of other stuff is shakier.<\/p>\n Well, I need to try out that new pain med this weekend, defo. Can’t wait for that, it might be phenomenal. I mean, might be. We’ll see. Oh yeah, life is good.<\/p>\n See? Everything’s under control. No problem!<\/p>\n Yup, everything’s great.<\/p>\n Yup, absolutely.<\/p>\n Seriously. Of course.<\/p>\n Yup.<\/p>\n Yeah!<\/p>\n Right.<\/p>\n Right!<\/p>\n Right.<\/p>\n Right…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Yeah ok so I’m like super overdue for a big dose and I’ll FINALLY have the chance later on today so… yessir, in it goes. Gawd just a few hours until I can get my hit, not too long, I can take it. Yes yes. Not a problem; not at all, everything is completely under […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3304"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3304"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3304\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3308,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3304\/revisions\/3308"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3304"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3304"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3304"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}