{"id":3392,"date":"2020-10-20T06:48:54","date_gmt":"2020-10-20T11:48:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=3392"},"modified":"2020-10-20T06:48:54","modified_gmt":"2020-10-20T11:48:54","slug":"im-not-dysfunctional-part-xxxvi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=3392","title":{"rendered":"I\u2019m not Dysfunctional, Part XXXVI"},"content":{"rendered":"

Ye Gods, I just can’t sleep<\/em>. Fuck. <\/p>\n

I keep waking up and shaking, and sweating. Mostly shaking<\/em>. I feel so utterly cold, like my body is dying, yet so warm, at the same time. It’s just so weird<\/em>.<\/p>\n

I really <\/em>need that hit. Like, really really. I’m not going to stop sweating and\/or shaking until I get it. Like, I need it, really <\/em>badly.<\/p>\n

Oh God, help me, lol. Just a few hours. But no sleep for me tonight.<\/p>\n

oof.<\/p>\n

oh man, this sucks, lol.<\/p>\n

oh, I just need this to end<\/em>, somehow. <\/p>\n

aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggg<\/p>\n

it’s SO horrible. so so so horrible, arrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhh<\/p>\n

gawd someone shoot me, get me out of this mess, please please please<\/p>\n

i just can’t even breathe<\/em>. again, lol<\/p>\n

seriously, someone please just get me out of here. I can’t care who, i don’t care where, just… please help me. <\/p>\n

please. SOMEONE.<\/p>\n

ahhhhhhgggggggggg jesus I just feel so WEIRD<\/em>. Can’t even emphasize how weird <\/em>I feel. like I can’t even process<\/em>, … this. Whatever this even is<\/em><\/p>\n

Ah gods, I just really <\/em>need that hit. like, desperately so. <\/p>\n

somehow, I have a feeling that that will set everything right. I just know it.<\/p>\n

oh man, this fucking SUCKS. I REALLY <\/em>dread trying to go back to sleep, here. Seriously. Like I know it will scare me to death, lying there, feeling like this. I REALLY <\/em>just need someone to help me. Like really, seriously. Like majorly, desperately. like NOW, lol.<\/p>\n

oof, this sucks. <\/p>\n

um… ok, whatever.<\/p>\n

it means nothing, I guess. Back to sleep I go.<\/p>\n

i just hope I don’t start shaking again, because that is just really really bad, lol. oh please just get me OUT of here<\/p>\n

um… IDK. like an idiot, I was browsing debby’s insta while typing this, and I saw that cady was still “following” her. clicked on her, and noticed that she asn’t a blue check mark anymore. Hmmnn, wonder why, that seems odd, even considering her… condition.<\/p>\n

ah, lol. yes, I shall talk to cady then, before trying to sleep. yes, that will work. it defo needs to, I mean something <\/em>will, right? yes of course it will.<\/p>\n

ok, then. no more shaking, no more sweating, no more icky scary weird hyper and deathly feeling in my nerves, none of that.<\/p>\n

it’s just cady, bed, relaxation, until i get up and go, then I take my hit, then a day of hell because no sleep, then i go to bed, and then more hell until the weekend. I can do it, no problem. yes no problem, no problem, I can handle it, yessir. <\/p>\n

ok, then. Wonderful! Yes, another fantastic plan. I’m just so good at this! And so SMART. Yup, nobody’s like me, that’s for sure!<\/p>\n

ok, then, great. yeah.<\/p>\n

right.<\/p>\n

sigh…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Ye Gods, I just can’t sleep. Fuck. I keep waking up and shaking, and sweating. Mostly shaking. I feel so utterly cold, like my body is dying, yet so warm, at the same time. It’s just so weird. I really need that hit. Like, really really. I’m not going to stop sweating and\/or shaking until […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3392"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3392"}],"version-history":[{"count":9,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3392\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3401,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3392\/revisions\/3401"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3392"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3392"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3392"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}