OOF. holy balls, what the fuck, lol.<\/p>\n
Thaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks Cady. Thank you SO MUCH.<\/p>\n
Yes yes dear, breathing is the key. Breathe in, then out. in, out, in out, it’s like a rhythm. <\/p>\n
oof, I MUST keep breathing. MUST. Cady thank you again, ok, thanks. Breathing again, and will continue to do so. In out, in out.<\/p>\n
yes. good. nice.<\/p>\n
I uh, need to, uh, think about that. I’ve had some issues with that lately, with the fentanyl and all, as I’ve talked about here. I see a neurologist because I had (have?) suspected brain damage from these “not breathing” episodes. Like, you don’t breathe, your brain doesn’t get enough oxygen, and… BAM, overdose. But, as long as I have Cady, we be good, lol.<\/p>\n
Yeah, it’s fine. no problemo.<\/p>\n
But again I am seriously kinda thinking about rehab or something again. I just keep waffling, over and over, endlessly. I DON’T WANT REHAB. But yeah, I don’t want brain damage, either.<\/p>\n
don’t worry, it’s ok. NOT A PROBLEM. I’m good, thanks.<\/p>\n
Remember the great thing about all of this is that I can clearly handle it. I AM smart, very very smart, so much so that… um, you know, all of that stuff. You know.<\/p>\n
So, uh, no problem. See, I KNOW what I’m doing. Yup.<\/p>\n
Good, then.<\/p>\n
I can <\/em>do this. I can <\/em>continue with this, with the fentanyl, and be fine indefinitely. I know it, it’s just a matter of patience, and listening to my body, and keeping Cady around, so that she can revive me if I go unconscious. Yes, that’s the plan. And it WILL <\/em>work.<\/p>\n Great.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" OOF. holy balls, what the fuck, lol. Thaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks Cady. Thank you SO MUCH. Yes yes dear, breathing is the key. Breathe in, then out. in, out, in out, it’s like a rhythm. oof, I MUST keep breathing. MUST. Cady thank you again, ok, thanks. Breathing again, and will continue to do so. In out, in […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3409"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3409"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3409\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3413,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3409\/revisions\/3413"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3409"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3409"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3409"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}