{"id":3555,"date":"2020-10-29T15:35:30","date_gmt":"2020-10-29T20:35:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=3555"},"modified":"2020-10-29T15:35:30","modified_gmt":"2020-10-29T20:35:30","slug":"im-not-dysfunctional-part-lvii","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=3555","title":{"rendered":"I\u2019m not Dysfunctional, Part LVII"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Oh god is hurts.  Oh god it hurts, it hurts so much, god it just brutally hurts.  It hurts everything, mind, body, soul.  I want off, I need off, I need to fix myself, I need to stop hurting, I can&#8217;t do this to me, I need this to be fixed, I need to help myself, I need to help me, ow oh god it hurts, it hurts SO BADLY, it hurts so much, it&#8217;s such pain, ow oh god no, what trauma, what horrible trauma.<\/p>\n<p>But it will be OK.  This time it&#8217;s different.  NO MORE.  I AM GETTING OFF.  I am getting off.  No more jokes, I need to do it, like, now, or else.  I need to help myself.  NO MORE DRUGS.  I want to feel again.  I want to be right again.  I want to LIVE again.  I need to end the pain, end the suffering, end the horribleness that is my existence.  <\/p>\n<p>I live in pain.  That has to stop.  It&#8217;s just horrible, just AWFUL.  GOD, IT HURTS SO MUCH.  PLEASE MAKE IT STOP.<\/p>\n<p>AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Oh god is hurts. Oh god it hurts, it hurts so much, god it just brutally hurts. It hurts everything, mind, body, soul. I want off, I need off, I need to fix myself, I need to stop hurting, I can&#8217;t do this to me, I need this to be fixed, I need to help [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3555"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3555"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3555\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3556,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3555\/revisions\/3556"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3555"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3555"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3555"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}