{"id":3559,"date":"2020-10-29T15:49:23","date_gmt":"2020-10-29T20:49:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=3559"},"modified":"2020-10-29T15:49:23","modified_gmt":"2020-10-29T20:49:23","slug":"im-not-dysfunctional-part-lix","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=3559","title":{"rendered":"I\u2019m not Dysfunctional, Part LIX"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>It will be different.  It will be.<\/p>\n<p>I mean it.  I won&#8217;t make it to Christmas if I don&#8217;t change.<\/p>\n<p>It will be OK.  I will change.  <\/p>\n<p>I will not die.  I will not hurt, and I will not die.  I promise myself this.<\/p>\n<p>I will get OFF THE DRUGS.<\/p>\n<p>Now, and forever.<\/p>\n<p>That&#8217;s IT.<\/p>\n<p>Yeah, it&#8217;s done.  That&#8217;s it.<\/p>\n<p>I am resolved.  I just need to get out of this trauma, first.  And than it will be over.<\/p>\n<p>I will have withdrawals.  Those I can deal with, though.  They are nothing like this.  It&#8217;s OK, I will be OK.<\/p>\n<p>Not a problem, I can deal with it.  Right.<\/p>\n<p>Who&#8217;s not dysfunctional?  Me, that&#8217;s who.  Yes me.  And I WILL make it through this, one way or another, and I will make it through ALIVE.<\/p>\n<p>See?<\/p>\n<p>Not a problem.<\/p>\n<p>Yeah!<\/p>\n<p>And this time, I mean that unironically.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It will be different. It will be. I mean it. I won&#8217;t make it to Christmas if I don&#8217;t change. It will be OK. I will change. I will not die. I will not hurt, and I will not die. I promise myself this. I will get OFF THE DRUGS. Now, and forever. That&#8217;s IT. [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3559"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3559"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3559\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3560,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3559\/revisions\/3560"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3559"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3559"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3559"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}