{"id":121,"date":"2013-08-10T15:27:37","date_gmt":"2013-08-10T15:27:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=121"},"modified":"2013-08-10T15:28:34","modified_gmt":"2013-08-10T15:28:34","slug":"tonights-concert","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=121","title":{"rendered":"Tonight&#8217;s Concert"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I need this concert to be as good as it can be, because I might never see Taylor again.  This is why I\u2019ve been writing so much about it.  If I build it up enough, then maybe the memories of this one evening will\u2026 hopefully\u2026 be enough to last me for the rest of my life.<\/p>\n<p>Also, it does still kind of freak me out that Taylor refuses to talk to me.  The last time I saw her in concert, I saw how popular she was, and how many friends and fans she had, and frankly, how rich and important she was\u2026 and I became jealous of her.  And after I lost my job right after the concert, I started to hate her, because I felt as though I wasn\u2019t good enough.  I became suicidally depressed because nobody wanted to talk to me, even though I needed to talk to someone.  I hope I never have feelings like those ever again.<\/p>\n<p>This time, I think, things will be different.  I\u2019m more confident now and stronger and smarter and more secure in many ways.  I\u2019m at the point now that I\u2019m not worried about how I\u2019ll feel when I wake up alone tomorrow.  Good.  I deserve that, I think.<\/p>\n<p>We\u2019ve both grown so much since we saw each other 2 years ago.  She\u2019s became more herself, and I\u2019ve became more myself.  It\u2019s been nice.<\/p>\n<p>I hope that Taylor has the time of her life tonight.  I know that I will.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I need this concert to be as good as it can be, because I might never see Taylor again. This is why I\u2019ve been writing so much about it. If I build it up enough, then maybe the memories of this one evening will\u2026 hopefully\u2026 be enough to last me for the rest of my [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/121"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=121"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/121\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":125,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/121\/revisions\/125"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=121"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=121"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=121"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}