I think something snapped in me that morning. <\/p>\n
Last weekend, I came to another realization. I’ve been using gratuitous sex as a way to distance myself from people. Especially celebs.<\/p>\n
This sounds counter-intuitive, but it’s the truth.<\/p>\n
By making everything super-sexual, I’ve intentionally limited the time I spend with people, and made it tough for others to reach me in ways that are normal and personal. It’s a barrier.<\/p>\n
It took Christina’s death to make me realize this. <\/p>\n
I should have been with her. I really should have. We were the ultimate fit for each other. We had identical interests and found each other fascinating. So- why didn’t I, when I had the chance?<\/p>\n
Maybe it’s because we would<\/i> have been so perfect for each other that I didn’t. Maybe the reason I didn’t hang out with her is because we would have had more things in common than just sexual stuff, and for some reason, that fact pushed me away. <\/p>\n
As in, we could have been real friends, instead of mutual sex objects.<\/p>\n
You know, it used to be different. I used to relate to people telepathically in more ways than sexual ones. But lately, that just hasn’t been happening as much. I wonder why.<\/p>\n
There’s some interesting psychology going on here, somewhere.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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