is starring in a new movie with James Franco. You know the one; we’ve all seen the trailers.<\/p>\n
So, I need to think about something, and I need to do it now, I guess. There’s no avoiding this, anymore.<\/p>\n
At what point does Zoey cease to me to be the impossible fantasy girl, and become a girlfriend? And then at what point does she become a piece in my collection?<\/p>\n
I don’t know, but we’re not at the “girlfriend” part yet.<\/p>\n
But we’re getting there… kinda.<\/p>\n
You know- 20 years ago, I was obsessed with Lea Thompson, Zoey’s mom. I never thought of Lea as being my girlfriend or anything, but I did like her, and I did collect any pictures and video clips I could find of her. And she had a part in my fantasy universe of the time of course. In fact, Lea was a major reason that I started fantasizing about celebrities in the first place. I grew up liking her because of Howard the Duck<\/i> and the Back to the Future<\/i> movies, and I’m pretty sure she was the first actress that I actually saw topless on the internet. So, yeah, for 15 year old me, she was pretty important, and she became a key part of the beginnings of what became my empire.<\/p>\n
I never thought back then that I would be at this point with her daughter. It’s kinda wierd when I think about it. I mean, I knew of Zoey’s existence- I think that I might even have some pictures with her in them in Lea’s old directory- but I never, ever<\/i> thought that she would factor into my life in the way that she is. In the way that her mom did, only much moreso.<\/p>\n
It’s pretty crazy. People just don’t change, do they? Except in minor ways. We change superficially, but the core of who we are really cannot be altered. I thought, back then, that my life would be very different these days, compared to what it was then. And it is<\/i>, but… not quite.<\/p>\n
In a way, that’s nice. Continuity can be good. So can stability. But in another way, I find it vaguely unsettling… like, I really<\/i> haven’t changed much in 20 years, have I?<\/p>\n
I think that this is why I’ve been hesitant to move Zoey out of “fantasy” status and into real friend or girlfriend status. I keep thinking about doing that, but I never take steps to follow through.<\/p>\n
She’s almost overly qualified, being ex-Disney, having played a vampire in a B-movie, being young, pretty, famous, instagram famous, talented, and being BFFs with Chloe Moretz and friends with my other girlfriends, amongst other good things.<\/p>\n
But- there’s that issue. In a way, my relationship with Zoey is unique. It’s very different than the ones I have with everyone else. Chloe Moretz, she’s not, in spite of everything. There are other dynamics at play with her that I’m not 100% sure yet of how to deal with.<\/p>\n
But… I’m going to need to deal with them, somehow. I guess that I should use my relationship with Zoey to figure this stuff out, in case this situation happens again at some point.<\/p>\n
As far as Zoey herself, I’ve mentioned some of this to her personally, but I don’t think that she totally gets my perspective. She’s only 22. Hence my writing all of this out. Maybe she’ll read this, who knows.<\/p>\n
Yes or no, I need to think about all of this further. <\/p>\n
And, as is typical in those cases where my fantasies intrude upon my real world issues, that could take a while.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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