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Fuck. Well, whatever. Ancient history now, I guess, but now I remember- this was the point where I basically jumped out of my chair in worry about Cady. She was\u2026 very public about how vulnerable and miserable she was. Ok, so me being dumb me, I came to her rescue, hugging her, protecting her with my magic.<\/p>\n Yup. No fucking kidding. Again- an echo of my own recent thoughts. Hindsite really is 20 \/ 20, isn\u2019t it? You never appreciate what you should until it\u2019s gone. Especially the people. ESPECIALLY the people. The ones you take for granted. The ones you don\u2019t appreciate enough because they seem just too familiar to you. Those types you only regret not being with when it\u2019s too late.<\/p>\n Fuck.<\/p>\n And yeah, often others\u2019 coldness and uncaring aloofness towards your own sorrow can be just brutal. Not that I know anything about that. <\/p>\n Ha, right.<\/p>\n Ugh. Moving on…<\/p>\n Dealing with it. Publicly, like I would, lol. Note the well wishes from Debby, here, as opposed to her recent deafening silence. <\/p>\n I mean, I get it, maybe she just didn\u2019t think it was appropriate. Or maybe she said something in private. But, still.<\/p>\n Speaking of which\u2026 the twitter family. Yeah, I remember those days. Sure sucks there now, doesn\u2019t it?<\/p>\n Alright, so Casey was murdered. Fine, I guess I should have studied my notes first before launching into those grief filled tirades last weekend. But, I mean, I was really fucking sad. And angry. And I didn\u2019t have time to look all of this shit up, just for my own sake. So fuck it, God damn it. Fuck all of it, including her. <\/p>\n This stuff rhymes, doesn\u2019t it? The usual shit, I can handle it, it doesn\u2019t bother me. Well guess what, you can\u2019t, it gets you, in the end. Nobody is immune, not even you. Are you listening to yourself, Tom? You\u2019re going to die, you know.<\/p>\n And what was that shit, Cady? I will never do drugs? Yeah right. Juuuuust pure, undiluted alcohol, for apparently years on end. Just that stuff, instead, you awful, awful, awful person. Because everyone knows that I know where it will lead. Just to show the world how much I hated everything. How disappointed I was in them, for bothering to help me through life\u2019s problems. For caring about me. When fuck knows that only those who are wrong about things care about me. Right Cady? Well, what does that say about ME, then, you hurtful bitch? You abusive bitch who threw away the greatest relationship maybe ever because she wanted to escape. Dumb bitch. You know how many people would have done anything to be in her spot? Millions, maybe more. Dumb bitch.<\/p>\n And now, for the grand finale- the last tweet I saved and the one that apparently meant the most to me- the one in which she \u201cgets over it\u201d and pledges to live a long and healthy life, because of us. Because of ME. \u201cVampirate\u201d. Right, Cady. <\/p>\n Right. <\/p>\n Fuck you.<\/p>\n This is on top of another tweet that contained a selfie clearly pointed directly at me.<\/p>\n Cady\u2026 seriously? Obviously, this being the last tweet of the bunch, of what I remember now as being a very tiring but inspiring few days, is significant. I think I was proud of my work in making her feel better. <\/p>\n Lots of good that did, lol.<\/p>\n Who the fuck cares, I can be as negative as I want, here. It\u2019s not like any of this is real, right?<\/p>\n Fuck you, Cady.<\/p>\n You had\u2026 so much to be thankful for. To love. And you threw it away. All the blessings of this world, you threw right back in nature\u2019s face. And for what? Because you were angry? Well, guess what, we all get angry sometimes. We all get disappointed. Sometimes very so. Lord knows I do, and I\u2019m apparently someone who shouldn\u2019t be.<\/p>\n But\u2026 this? Seriously? I mean God damn it, Cady.<\/p>\n Well, fuck you, again. Pretty much anything would be better than this, just for my sake.<\/p>\n Or\u2026\u2026\u2026..<\/p>\n Maybe not, from that perspective, if I can make all of this mean something good to me, instead of just being a collection of wasted opportunities.<\/p>\n Maybe\u2026<\/p>\n I don\u2019t know.<\/p>\n But I mean, I could pick out a list of stuff here that indicates that she basically checked out of life the minute she got the call, platitudes or no. I mean, just look at this:<\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n