{"id":3161,"date":"2020-09-22T03:09:59","date_gmt":"2020-09-22T08:09:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=3161"},"modified":"2020-09-22T03:09:59","modified_gmt":"2020-09-22T08:09:59","slug":"im-not-dysfunctional-part-ix","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=3161","title":{"rendered":"I\u2019m Not Dysfunctional, Part IX"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Ah- one more thing.  The idea I just raised there, about talking frankly about suicide making it easier to justify, is one reason why I stopped blogging.  I&#8217;ll get into that big issue, later.  But it was part of it.<\/p>\n<p>Like, I was scared of what I would do if I dared to open up, even to myself.  Of what I would do, to me.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s scary, it really is.  I don&#8217;t want to die.  I want to live, to be happy and prosperous.  And I think I can.  I think&#8230; I can.  Think so.<\/p>\n<p>I hope so.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t know.<\/p>\n<p>I <em>dearly <\/em>hope so.  <\/p>\n<p>But&#8230; I really need to get to bed.  This is another drug fueled blogging escapade that really needs to stop, like now.  I won&#8217;t even proof this post, it is what it is.<\/p>\n<p>Good night.  I&#8217;m safe for now, I think.  Don&#8217;t worry.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Ah- one more thing. The idea I just raised there, about talking frankly about suicide making it easier to justify, is one reason why I stopped blogging. I&#8217;ll get into that big issue, later. But it was part of it. Like, I was scared of what I would do if I dared to open up, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3161"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3161"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3161\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3162,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3161\/revisions\/3162"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3161"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3161"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3161"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}