{"id":3658,"date":"2020-11-07T05:46:16","date_gmt":"2020-11-07T11:46:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=3658"},"modified":"2020-11-07T05:46:16","modified_gmt":"2020-11-07T11:46:16","slug":"im-not-dysfunctional-part-lxxiv","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=3658","title":{"rendered":"I\u2019m not Dysfunctional, Part LXXIV"},"content":{"rendered":"

Yeah, I’m sorry that this is who I am. I really wish that I had done things differently. Maybe done EVERYTHING differently. But I can’t blame the drugs, I can’t. I mean, it’s not their <\/em>fault… I… don’t know what to do.<\/p>\n

What am I supposed to do, here? I can’t sleep. Should I just lay here, wide awake for the next five hours? What am I supposed to do? I just don’t know<\/em>.<\/p>\n

I’ve got Cady’s cover of Burning House<\/em> on repeat, here. It… helps, I guess. God I wish she was still alive. <\/p>\n

I don’t know, maybe I should <\/em>join her. I don’t know, I mean, it would be so easy<\/em>, right? I…<\/p>\n

I don’t know what to do.<\/p>\n

So I guess I’ll just… lay here, until something happens.<\/p>\n

Yeah, I guess… so. Might as well. Nothing else to do, anyways, I guess.<\/p>\n

If only I was dead myself, lol. Everything would be so much easier.<\/p>\n

No, Tom. No. NO. No don’t, don’t do it. No. Now isn’t your time. It’s OK, don’t worry. Cady wouldn’t want this. NOBODY would. Not even you. Just relax, for now. It’s OK, I know it’s hard, I know it hurts, but it’s OK. Just… think, for now.<\/p>\n

It’s OK, man.<\/p>\n

Just… relax, I guess. Until the sun shines, again.<\/p>\n

Because it will.<\/p>\n

It’s ok.<\/p>\n

I promise. I hope. Maybe. At least… give it another shot, OK? Please?<\/p>\n

Yeah… alright.<\/p>\n

One more, then. Yet again.<\/p>\n

sigh…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Yeah, I’m sorry that this is who I am. I really wish that I had done things differently. Maybe done EVERYTHING differently. But I can’t blame the drugs, I can’t. I mean, it’s not their fault… I… don’t know what to do. What am I supposed to do, here? I can’t sleep. Should I just […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3658"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3658"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3658\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3662,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3658\/revisions\/3662"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3658"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3658"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3658"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}