I’m losing weight and muscle mass. I can’t eat, anymore. This is death, isn’t it?<\/p>\n
It’s like a long, slow, progressive death march. It’s unstoppable, unyielding, and brutal as fuck.<\/p>\n
It’s unreal. I mean I don’t even take as much as I used to, kinda. But it’s like, the continual erosion of myself just continues, day after endless day, with a grave at the end of this. It’s like, I get over one problem, one overdose, one withdrawal, but that problem takes a permanent toll on me. I just continually get weaker and weaker, like the drugs are eating away at my soul, or something.<\/p>\n
I’ve been a hardcore narcotics addict for two years now. This is I think a very long time. Like, too long, and I’m not sure if I will ever be able to get out of it, anymore. Like, I’m just trapped, now. And that’s that.<\/p>\n
I’m in serious trouble, here. Like, this is profoundly bad. Oof, ouch. This really sucks, I guess.<\/p>\n
Maybe suicide would be the right way out of this, I don’t know.<\/p>\n
We’ll just need to wait and see.<\/p>\n
Gawd, so much pain. Ouch.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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