Hmmn. Well.<\/p>\n
So I had some free time today, and I decided to make sure that I had ALL the Cady Groves songs out there and guess what: I didn’t. Actually, I was missing a few. So I grabbed them. I found a couple interesting (and official!) remixes of her stuff on youtube and a whole new song on soundcloud. Neat. The new song is great, obviously. Will defo become a listen in time, once I get it filed away correctly. Neat.<\/p>\n
So I did some checking and I have a few songs that the Cady Groves demo project does not have (including the one from today), so I will be forwarding the ones I have to the project admin. Only fair; he showed me that I didn’t have some of the songs he had. So yeah, neat. <\/p>\n
And um… I’m going to archive her facebook videos, too. Because why not. <\/p>\n
Gawd I had a fun afternoon, lol. It’s like putting together a puzzle. So fun. I even found her brother’s old soundcloud! Wow.<\/p>\n
And- I found… something else. Interestingly, not from Cady or one of her fans. Something from one of my <\/em>fans. That… isn’t something I was expecting, but you better believe I was all interested in that, lol.<\/p>\n So, yeah. I found a song, on Soundcloud, which was a rumination on my relationship with Cady, from my point of view. It’s called “Cady Groves Was Right”. If you want a listen, head here: https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/gregry-marshl\/cady-groves-was-right .<\/p>\n So… wow. Ok. I see.<\/p>\n Good song, lol. I mean it, I really like it. I wouldn’t mind more stuff like this- I mean- more directly personal stuff, especially if it helps me to figure something out about myself, as this song did. <\/p>\n Here are the lyrics, as best I can discern. Please forgive me my formatting errors:<\/p>\n Tried so hard to see yourself- clearly You just kept getting farther and farther away You just kept getting farther and farther away That every single day I tried to tell you were beautiful And everybody wants to fall in love in a cinematic fashion Please refrain because I can’t take your… constructive criticism anymore I could feel so much better than this, I know I know I took the easy road again And everybody wants to fall in love in a cinematic fashion Hmmmn. Well… wow. This kinda hits squarely in the feels, lol. The fact that it’s more direct by openly addressing my relationship with Cady is awesome, and refreshing as hell. Sometimes I get tired of “interpreting” the status of my relationships through the byzantine system of symbols and nudges that my girlfriends have decided on using. <\/p>\n So… this was released five years ago, and is a dead on understanding of what I was feeling back then, between me and her. And with that said, it’s pretty crazy that this artist was able to intune so easily with what I was feeling. It’s like… he must have heard a lot, lol. And I mean like everything. That’s… crazy. I suppose some are able to hear more than others. Or maybe I’m more famous than even I understand. I don’t know.<\/p>\n But it’s like… yeah, that’s me. And I see and hear so much of what I was in this song, like I remember so much of how I used to be when I listen to Cady’s music. It’s like an anchor to my past.<\/p>\n And, I can see my perennial issues here. Depression, desire, power, a lust for glamour and youth. And a preoccupation with closeness to the people I love the most. It’s like… that’s the old me, but it’s still me<\/em>. And perhaps I’ve not changed much in the intervening years between this song’s release and now. Or perhaps I’ve not changed much for a much longer time. Or maybe forever. Maybe people don’t <\/em>change, really. I… don’t know.<\/p>\n Well…<\/p>\n In my searches during the last ten minutes, I found an interview that holds the answer to this very question. From Cady, natch. It’s here:<\/p>\n
\nTake this away, can’t take the pain
\nYou said you believed <\/p>\n
\nI tried to save you but it never added up to much
\nBecause you would say
\n“I’m falling, farther and farther, and everybody sees”
\nLife is dark, can’t make a start over…
\nI scream take us away, can’t take the pain<\/p>\n
\nI tried to save you but it never added up to much
\nBecause you would say
\n“I’m falling, farther and farther, and everybody sees”<\/p>\n
\nBut most of the time you never saw yourself for what you really were
\nTold you I’d leave, I believe in everything
\nI believe I believe in everything you said<\/p>\n
\nI don’t, I don’t
\nAnd everybody wants to fall in love in a cinematic fashion
\nI don’t, I don’t<\/p>\n
\nWhat the hell have you been building anyway
\nBetween you and me
\nJust a bitter pain I gotta say<\/p>\n
\nI’ve been selling myself short
\nI’ve been victorious
\nI know how it goes
\nthis is the part where I realize that I’m alone
\nalone
\nYou always told me to be mature
\nWell I just don’t know myself anymore
\nWhat’s the point of being grown up anyway
\nI can be like you, give it all away<\/p>\n
\nI don’t, I don’t
\nAnd everybody wants to fall in love in a cinematic fashion
\nI don’t, I don’t<\/em><\/p>\n