I really really would kinda like to drown myself in narcotics. Like, really really badly. Super badly. Ultra badly.<\/p>\n
Ahhhh yes, I REALLY want some. My head is throbbing, probably from withdrawals, and my breathing is getting shallower and shallower. Kinda sucks, but I do know how to fix it. <\/p>\n
Ahhhh, fuck, fuck, this sucks. It’s reeeeally bad, altho not AS bad, so yeah, there you go.<\/p>\n
But I do really, really need a fix, again. Really really. Super badly.<\/p>\n
Uggghhk, that sucks. Ahhhk my hands<\/em>, lol. Oh they feel so weird. They feel so bare. I need another hit, my nerves are acting up, again. Feel so cold, yuck.<\/p>\n I need that fentanyl. Such great stuff. So nice, so good, so warming and loving. Need it so much, right now. More than anything, more than life, more than… anything<\/em>.<\/p>\n Oh yeah, need it bad. And it’s like I can’t think about anything else until I get it. This… sucks.<\/p>\n Like, I need to leave, so…<\/p>\n Oh, fuck it, I need to use, and I need to use NOW. Oh yeah, I need it, it’s very important, more important than anything, it’s absolutely essential. Fentanyl is so… everything, really, when it’s needed. It’s like I would die for it, lol. I REALLY need it, so fuck it.<\/p>\n Ok, then.<\/p>\n It’s great that I have such a control over all of this, it really is. Because it would be awful if I didn’t, you know? Fentnayl is again probably the most addictive substance on Earth, I’m told. But with my IQ- which, again, is up in the… you know, like it’s really high, I can… avoid… most of the… traps, and such, associated with use. I mean like, I’m REALLY good at managing this. Really good, great actually. I’m healthy, and stable. Right.<\/p>\n Ohhhh I’m really having trouble breathing, lol. So I’ll just take some and everything will be OK. Fentanyl is my friend, I know how to… manage… him, it… well. It’s Ok, weird my brain is slowing down. Wierd.<\/p>\n Ok, that’s enough, lol.<\/p>\n Oof.<\/p>\n Yeah, yuck, OOF, ahhhhh, ohhhh, jeez…. oh man. It’s like I can feel my nervous system curling up and going into “shutdown mode” again. Ooh, ye gods, that sucks. Oh, so awful, what the fuck even IS this, lol.<\/p>\n Ahhhhmmm… ah… ah… ahhhhhhhhh…<\/p>\n Ah… um… what the fuck… ah…<\/p>\n OK, FUCK THIS.<\/p>\n Ohhhh… yes… ok, then. Fentnayl taken.<\/p>\n YAY, LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!<\/p>\n So good, thank you god. Thank you thank you, so much, kind sir! Feel so good, feel so perfect, feel so ME.<\/p>\n Finally, thank you so much. Oh, my head, tho. LOL.<\/p>\n It’s ok. Whatever.<\/p>\n Ahhhh… um… ok, let’s wrap this one up.<\/p>\n Hmmmn… yeah.<\/p>\n sigh…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I really really would kinda like to drown myself in narcotics. Like, really really badly. Super badly. Ultra badly. Ahhhh yes, I REALLY want some. My head is throbbing, probably from withdrawals, and my breathing is getting shallower and shallower. Kinda sucks, but I do know how to fix it. Ahhhh, fuck, fuck, this sucks. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3864"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3864"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3864\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3868,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3864\/revisions\/3868"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3864"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3864"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3864"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}