{"id":412,"date":"2014-06-29T22:17:43","date_gmt":"2014-06-30T03:17:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=412"},"modified":"2014-06-29T22:17:43","modified_gmt":"2014-06-30T03:17:43","slug":"rivers-of-blood","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/?p=412","title":{"rendered":"Rivers of Blood"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I just want to scream.  Really, really loudly.  I have to be so so quiet and bottle everything in and it hurts so much sometimes and I hate it.  Fuck.<\/p>\n<p>What I REALLY want, at least right now, is to go back to cutting myself.  Seems like a fine way to pass the time.  <\/p>\n<p>I just want to feel that wonderful, addictive endorphin rush again.  That, and I want a different kind of problem.  I\u2019m sick of worrying about the same old, same old problems.  I want a new and novel one, and an injury is just the ticket.  The accompanying light-headedness is a bonus.  Lose enough blood and you get to escape for a bit!  It\u2019s just what I need.<\/p>\n<p>I am sooooo well adjusted.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I just want to scream. Really, really loudly. I have to be so so quiet and bottle everything in and it hurts so much sometimes and I hate it. Fuck. What I REALLY want, at least right now, is to go back to cutting myself. Seems like a fine way to pass the time. I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/412"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=412"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/412\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":413,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/412\/revisions\/413"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=412"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=412"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=412"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}