Just to follow up on the few thoughts earlier:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I decided to unfollow all the Laura accounts, and Vanessa too, because I reeeeeally<\/em> can’t deal with this right now, b\/c I have things going on, things that are more important, and, frankly, it’s like… I just can’t deal with the reality of that<\/em> being the only IRL (i.e. face-to-…face (ish(?))) interaction with her I’ll ever have, lol.<\/p>\n\n\n\n IDK, I mean… it’s like… I’ve had so many social media interactions with celebs that were really good, lol. Likes and stuff, I mean. And I know this is very shallow but… I’ve gotten many likes from Kathryn Newton and had a shedload of great interactions with Meg Donnelly, I mean I singlehandedly got her back and posting on twitter (I mean, almost singlehandedly, but- you catch my drift) and aside from those incredibly epic twitter sprees during her two Cinderella Story playthroughs (which I wonder if she even remembers frankly) I’m not sure if we ever connected. Or maybe… we did, and I’m forgetting? Maybe I’m forgetting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n IDK.<\/p>\n\n\n\n But… it’s like… you know?<\/p>\n\n\n\n I don’t know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Well… I have to go back to real life, and that kind of… sucks?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ugh. But real life isn’t even real life- not anymore? I mean, now that we’re all transhuman cyborgs? Christ, what the fuck?<\/p>\n\n\n\n It boggles the mind, frankly, that someone who has been so connected with so many people with SO MUCH power and financial resource would be so, I don’t know, isolated. And- destitute, technically? Or, at least, in proportion? <\/p>\n\n\n\n Not being an idiot, I am of course well aware that these people are wealthy. No need to elaborate further.<\/p>\n\n\n\n But like… Jeezus. What the fuck? I mean I’m not begging on the streets but man, what is the mechanism to get them to toss me a bone or something? Is there one? I don’t understand, genuinely.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Maybe that’s the lesson, here. Turn inward?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Or is that just running away?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Fuck, I don’t know. Seriously, I have no idea, like at all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n My Disney+ is coming up for renewal soon and I’m debating cutting it this time. Too much money. Maybe I’ll renew over the summer, I don’t know. I mean… it’s just… damn, I don’t know. This stuff occupies sooo much of my headspace, you know? Like wayyyyyyy too much. Way, way too much. Maybe I would feel better, freer, happier without it hanging over me like some kind of everpresent guillotine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n It’s just… it feels like “work”, rather than “fun” if I’m being honest. Like life has become inverted somehow, weirdly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n It’s just…… toooooooooo much<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Just to follow up on the few thoughts earlier: I decided to unfollow all the Laura accounts, and Vanessa too, because I reeeeeally can’t deal with this right now, b\/c I have things going on, things that are more important, and, frankly, it’s like… I just can’t deal with the reality of that being the […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5155"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5155"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5155\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5156,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5155\/revisions\/5156"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5155"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5155"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sighinide.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5155"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}