Well, I’ve been watching some Christmas movies.
I saw the first two Princess Switch flicks, and will watch the third. I am going to see Laura Marano’s Cinderella Story movie with her, tomorrow. That will be a blast.
Tonight, I saw Let it Snow, the Netflix Christmas chick flick with Isabela Merced, Kiernan Shipka, and Odeya Rush. And, surprisingly, Joan Cusack, who not so surprisingly stole the movie out from under the feet of her younger co-stars. I also saw Ben is Back, the drug addiction drama starring Lucas Hedges, Julia Roberts, and Kathryn Newton. Very interesting, that one was.
I also saw Spirit Riding Free: Spirit of Christmas, a low budget animated Netflix production that was apparently a continuation and ending of a long running series. This particular episode of the series featured Kathryn Newton’s opposite and romantic nemesis: Katherine McNamara, and in a role that was inspired by circa-2011 Taylor Swift, no less.
I’m also going to see the Christmas episode of My So-Called Life, and of course the Peanuts special, again. And maybe a few other things, we’ll see.
Maybe a few episodes of The Simpsons and Futurama. We’ll see.
Oh wait. I also saw Aimee Teegarden’s first Hallmark Christmas movie, and plan to see her second. And I saw Haley Pullos’s A Royal Christmas Ball. So yeah, I’ve been watching a decent number of flicks, lol. And they all tell me something, so regardless of all other concerns, I always learn something about my relationships when I watch them.
Tonight’s choices of Let it Snow and Ben is Back were interesting ones that were made more so since the films were played back to back, without much of a pause in between.
Let it Snow was basic Netflix fare, but fun, and with real heart. Not too Christmassy, which isn’t a bad thing at all, and… I don’t know, it was a fun, lighthearted Netflix chick flick. I mean, you know what you’re getting with that description, lol. It was defo cheesy at times, but here the cheesiness worked IMO.
It was… interesting to see what the filmmakers thought about me and… my relationships, and problems, as well as my strengths and abilities. Yeah, all of that is in there, you just kinda need to work the symbolism and innuendo, you know?
Thanks so much, Kiernan, for the nice things you said about me. Thank you so much. I would write more but my hands are starting to hurt. Maybe I’ll expound later.
But Kiernan, you’re a keeper, defo. People as lovely as you are a rarity. It isn’t just your physical prettiness that makes you beautiful; it’s your soul.
But yeah, my hands are starting to hurt. Ouch, lol.
Uhm… other things… I’m not that desperate for validation and love, am I? I mean I can’t be, but what was said in the movie did make sense… Ahh, some other day with this, lol.
Ben is Back was one hell of a ride. Holy shit, what a tornado that film was.
And I can see what the filmmakers were doing, here. I could see very plainly. Very, very plainly. Yes, I get it.
It’s baffling to me that this movie was released before my problems with fentanyl and morphine addiction. Yes before.
Jesus Christ, you people really know me.
Basically, the film was some kind of nightmare scenario that did double duty as an intense family drama and a very loud, strong warning to yours truly of what I would lose if I fell into drug addiction yet again, this time with harder drugs, like… heroin, or fentnayl, I guess. Or morphine or whatever.
It’s almost like the people that run all of this have some kind of crystal ball that somehow tells them exactly what to say to me to prevent certain disasters. It’s weird and kinda unexplainable.
Well, what is explainable is the obvious message of the film, which was “HEY IDIOT, LOOK AT WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO LOSE IF YOU TRAVEL THIS PATH”.
Kathryn Newton’s inclusion in this film was very deliberate, and designed to trigger me, specifically. They even say as much to the word in the film itself.
Here, she’s beyond beautiful. Almost supernaturally gorgeous. And the filmmakers seem to be shouting with her “YOU WILL LOSE THIS IF YOU BECOME AN ADDICT AGAIN.” Everything about her in this movie, and her performance, seems to be shouting this, LOUD and clear, at me in every scene she is in.
The church scene, featuring her beautiful voice? Check. That scene with her triangulating the phones, and crying her eyes out because she’s scared that I’m in serious trouble and she doesn’t know what to do to help? Check. Her playing the piano in that dress? Check. Her not… trusting Ben, like at all, to manage his life correctly with his history of drug problems? Check… of course. And yes, I know stuff like the piano scene may make little sense to you, but these are scenes designed to… trigger me, specifically. To warn me away from what I very almost became.
But I’m not an addict, now. I still use, and sometimes I use in ways I’m not really supposed to, but I’m different, now. I use medicinally, not for recreation. And I use much smaller amounts of narcotics than I used to.
Ben is obviously, very obviously me. But I hardly need to discuss this I’m sure.
But yeah, that film was just… kinda unnerving. Scary. I almost became that, or something kinda like it. Scary. But don’t worry, I’m different, now. Thanks Kathryn, don’t worry hun.
Seriously, thank you so much, Kathryn.
And thanks Katherine, for her wonderful songs in Spirit Riding Free. I love them all, and have them running through my head right now. Thank you so much, love. You know just what I need, when I need it. It’s kinda uncanny.
Well… bed. Must be ready for Laura. Cinderella waits for noone.