Sighinide

I should relent, perhaps.

I’m thinking now of what might happen if Trump loses, and de-facto ownership of the right wing passes back to me.

I would… might… end up destroying my girlfriends.

I am much, much more powerful than Trump. Much much more so. And I cannot allow myself to destroy Emma Watson. I just can’t. No way. I don’t care. I love her too much to let that happen.

This power I have… it’s scary. When I feel it, in those times that I allow myself to wade into it deeper than usual, I feel frightened of it’s depth.

So I need to concede and, ugh, continue to allow lesser men, like Trump, to “run” the movement for me. I need to resign myself to decades of pushing them from the sidelines, gently.

I can’t win. I can’t allow my full power to blossom in the way that I know it can. I can’t afford what would happen, then, to Emma and the rest. I can’t allow myself to burn their accomplishments to the ground.

So, I hate to say this, but I feel as though I should support Trump, now.

It doesn’t matter, anyways.

I am well aware that this is a war of attrition. It takes years to siege a castle.

I have time.

Just some quick thoughts, here.

No, I didn’t watch the debate.

I did, however, follow peoples’ reactions on Twitter and other sites that live blogged everything. I think that this gives me an interesting perspective, and one that’s probably more telling- and in some ways more useful- than if I would have watched the debate myself. After all, the point of the debates is to woo the common man, and not people like me. It’s to reach the undecided. The apolitical.

My take?

The system is still floundering and failing.

The general consensus seems to be that neither candidate was impressive, or representative of the people- or even of their own constituents.

This is basically what I was afraid of, vis-a-vis Trump, especially. Scanning peoples’ comments, it seems as though he came across like a republican, and not a conservative.

And of course Hillary seems to have come across as a democrat, and not a liberal. But that’s not a surprise as that’s what she’s been all along.

So basically, there’s nothing there that should interest me. Or anyone else not emotionally invested in either party.

When I scanned Twitter hashtags last night, what I saw were people talking about stuff that nobody really cares about, like Benghazi, Hillary’s emails, and completely irrelevant details like what Lester Holt did / didn’t do / shouldn’t have done. What I saw was people talking about what I think are distractions at best, save for those who were rolling their eyes at the whole thing.

What I didn’t see is talk, on Twitter or elsewhere, about the multi-trillion dollar a year deficits the government is running, or about our $20 trillion debt, or about how our currency is failing, or about how we’re going to fix our horrific student loans problem, or about immigration, or about black on white racial crime, or… anything else that people are actually interested in.

Granted, I didn’t watch the debate. Maybe the candidates did spend time on these issues, and nobody on Twitter was talking about it. But… I doubt it. And I think that if they actually did, than that’s almost worse, because their answers to those problems must have been so empty and devoid of relevance that the public didn’t bother to take note of what they said.

Bipartisanship just doesn’t interest me. At 36 years of age, I am too old and too mature for that kind of thing.

Well- at least, this is the case for the bipartisanship of today. Maybe back in the 80’s or 90’s, that stuff might have been fun, or maybe even relevant.

Not today, though. It seems as though our society has outgrown the need for such things. Our problems certainly have, as neither party seems able to actually fix anything.

I don’t know. What I’m seeing and feeling these days is a kind of grim finality to these things. As in, this is the end of the line for the way that things used to be done, and not a start of anything new.

Well, life goes on.

Whether or not the system will, on the other hand…

is hanging out w/ Liberty Ross now. Yeah, the Liberty Ross that almost ruined my relationship with Kristen Stewart. Yeah, THAT one.

She was at her party this week. That’s just the kind of thing she does now, I guess. I mean, it’s her choice, but you’d think she wouldn’t.

Is it good or bad that I’m not totally surprised by this?

For those wondering why I haven’t posted more stuff lately- meaning, in the last year of so- it’s because I’ve been holding off. The political clown show captured too much of my attention.

But- that’s doesn’t mean I haven’t written things. I have. I just haven’t posted them.

Yet.

But, now that I have more time to do stuff… I think I will. So, here’s a series of posts, from back in April, that I didn’t pull the trigger on then for various super cringy reasons. I’ll explain the drama at the end, along with my reasons for actually posting this now.

So, without further adieu, here’s the Hollywood gossip of April 10, 2016, today.

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Celebrity Gossip of the Day

OK, not really celebrity. OK… actually, no, this fits, because I’m involved, so I would be the celeb here.

I just found out this week that Annaleigh Ashford, one of the stars of HBO’s Masters of Sex, married my childhood best friend.

Yeah, I know. I KNOW.

Talk about getting the weird vibes, and ALL AT ONCE.

See, I almost once devoted myself to boffing every single chick on that show who had ever gotten naked, just to brag and show them who the real “Master of Sex” was. Just for the experience of it.

So I of course started with the first episode, and targeted Annaleigh as my first girl because 1) she was cute, and 2) she had done the requisite nude scene, but… I held back, in the end. I almost did it, and I wanted to do it, but that damned psychic intuition of mine didn’t like the idea. It kept urging me away from doing so, because of some possible future weirdness that would be created from that… conquest. So I reluctantly agreed and from then on stayed away from every girl that ever appeared on that show. Just in case.

Now, I’m glad I listened. Oy! I really dodged a bullet there, I guess.

It’s fine when I boff people I don’t know, or to whom I have no connection to. But when the personal starts to intrude, even slightly, things can get… complicated. And I like to avoid complications.

Don’t get me wrong, Annaleigh’s husband and I haven’t spoken in decades, so nothing would have changed with me. Well, nothing except for me getting profoundly creeped out by the whole thing.

*Whew*

Celebrity Gossip of the Day, Part II

I also once deigned to watch the show, or at least a token episode, to see what it was about, and if my own fantasies play a part in it, somehow. Even though of course they do. I mean, who else would Masters of Sex take inspiration from, really?

I’m getting creepy vibes and images right now of Annaleigh and Joe from recess discussing my sex life in lurid, graphic detail.

AUGGHH!!!!!!!

ICKKK!!!!!!!!

Oy. This is something I’d rather not know about, perhaps.

Celebrity Gossip of the Day, Part III

Well, the previous post was funny, but in all seriousness, Joe, if you’re actually reading this, congratulations. You got yourself a hell of a girl and a nice life to go with her.

I’m glad it all worked out for you. Life’s been kind to me, overall, since we parted. As I’m sure you know, but… it’s always nice to hear that firsthand.

BTW- craziness- I was going through some old stuff a few weeks ago and found one of the Valentine’s Day cards we exchanged in class back then. I forgot what they even looked like (or that we even exchanged them, TBH), but there it was. It was this little 4” x 3” cardboard cutout with Dumbo on it and your printed name and a cute message on the back. The message: “To Tom, the best friend I’ll ever have.”

All together now: Awwwwww.

Anyhow- crazy. What a blast from the past!

I wasn’t sure of what to do with it, so I stuck it back in with my papers.

Well… if I ever decide to formally join the industry somehow, someday, maybe we’ll meet again and exchange stories.

That might be fun.

Celebrity Gossip of the Day, Part IV

I guess it’s true what they say. People with similar natures really do flock together. Wow.

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Well, back to the present.

Perhaps I should have posted that back then, but I hesitated, I think because of my personal revelations. And because of the… oddness of it all.

Well, truth be told, I’m glad I didn’t post this then because I need to say something else, now, that’s equally as stupid and important as the earlier stuff.

The focal point of the new controversy: Annaleigh Ashford is Victoria Justice’s costar in her new movie, a remake of Rocky Horror Picture Show.

This isn’t bad, or even notable, except in that small way in which it is extremely so. See, now I wonder what Annaleigh and Victoria discussed on set, when nobody was there. Or, horror of horrors, when people were there. And I wasn’t.

The fact that the new version of Rocky Horror is quite obviously inspired by my wanton sexual proclivities with my… wife of 7 years, Victoria herself, should interest me, and it does, me being me, but… there’s that thing. And I just can’t help but think about it.

See, Vicky is obviously hot in said movie. Any look at the promo materials will tell you that. I mean, Jeezus, there’s been like a dozen scenes of her being semi-naked released onto the net already, and the movie hasn’t even premiered yet.

Hmmm.

Another thought: am I really that much of a control freak? So much so that such a ridiculous concern should be such a sticking point in my enjoyment of seeing my partner of 7 years now succeed in the way that she’s always wanted to?

Hmmm… Perhaps. What would Joe think, I wonder?

AUUGGGHH

Never mind.

I’m still not seeing it.

This stuff… whatever it is, doesn’t seem to be working.

I’ve been watching, still- I gave it a few weeks in this case, just to see. In that time, I’ve only become more convinced that the “alt-right” isn’t the movement, or whatever, for me.

I think the problem is the confusion. The “Alt-Right” seems to have too big a diversity of opinions. What it seems to me is that everyone under the sun who has a slightly conservative bent in some direction, who also doesn’t like the GOP for whatever reason, is part of the “alt-right”. Thus, the movement’s foundations are built on logically contradictory things. On things that should never be brought together, ever.

It all just doesn’t make sense to me. I won’t go into the details so much, since I’ve already done so, but it should suffice to say that I’ve never seen a movement so disorganized in it’s message or purpose.

The “alt-right” seems to not know why it exists. Does it hate the political system or not? If it does, than why does it support the consummate political insider- billionaire oligarch Trump? Does it hate the GOP or not? If it does, than why does it support the GOP’s candidate so fervently? And why is it throwing it’s support behind those institutions that seem most directly aligned against the values they say they love, like the US military and the Christian church?

Blah blah. Etc.

I don’t get it, except to say that the movement as a whole doesn’t seem as though it will have much staying power.

I’ll contrast this with liberals, who, until very recently, had logically consistent and on-point messages. Everything they did from about 1920 to now was based on dismantling the “patriarchy”, i.e. middle class white male culture and demographics. This simplicity of message gave their movement staying power and direction. It kept it aloft, and gave it many successes, in those years when it was still a viable choice.

I mentioned this before, but the Alt-Right to me seems too confused to even identify it’s enemy properly. We all know who the liberals hated. They made it clear, and their message was always consistent. But nobody knows WTF these alt-rightists are gunning for. Are they against an institution? A government? A race? An idea? WTF do they stand for, exactly?

This… IMHO, is the problem. And it may not be fixable.

This is why Trump doesn’t get support from such a huge swath of the populace. His lack of a consistent message makes him seem dangerous and unstable. It make it look as though his whole platform is based on anger, rather than any positive idea for a successful future, of some kind, for someone, somewhere, besides himself.

Are these guys racists, or not? If they are, they need to just go right out and SAY it. If they did, it would put everyone’s minds at rest. I mean, at least we’d know where it is that they actually stand on this issue, at least.

It’s the constant shucking and jiving of the “alt-rightists” that puts everyone off.

You know- some parts of this movement seem to hate Jews. Ironically, it’s for the very thing that they themselves are doing, right now, by refusing to actually say publicly what it is that they actually stand for.

People, just SAY WHAT YOU MEAN, for once. Are you racists, or not? Do you truly believe that the races are “equal”, or not? Just SAY IT!

This goes back to what I said in my previous screed here, against Christianity. How do you reconcile a love for Jesus’ teachings with the reality that everyone who represents those teachings hates you and everything you stand for?

And the same goes for the military- how do you reconcile a love for a strong US military with the reality that it’s the US military that has been at the forefront of pushing through every social change that you say you hate so much? Trump has repeatedly said that he wants a stronger military, and this is one of the few messages of his that nobody doubts. So… what? How do you square away this with the things you say you believe?

And Trump, himself. This oligarch represents the very system you say you hate. And you’re going to vote for him? Why?

I, like everyone else, would be more comfortable if Trump and his supporters would stop acting so damn soft and self-conscious and actually SAY WHAT IT IS THAT THEY ACTUALLY THINK. Are they concerned about the long-term future of whites in America? So, SAY IT.

Ugh.

This… movement, apparently led by quasi racists, is trying to bring in black voters, for some reason. As in, they actually think that blacks will willingly go along for the ride and freely submit to the rule of race-conscious whites, you know, like they did back in the good ‘ol days of Jim Crow and the three fifths rule, just… because. Because they’ve been asked nicely. Guys, that isn’t going to happen, because that’s not how things work. And they repeatedly now compare Trump to Reagan, the failure who amnestied every illegal in the country.

Regarding Trump’s actual plans- if what he’s said thus far are in fact his actual plans- I don’t much like them. We need not just a wall, we need a twenty year, if not permanent, stop to ALL immigration, from everywhere. What good is a wall, if the people stopped by it just immigrate here legally, instead? What have we accomplished, then? Nothing. And we need an end to to the Reagan stupidity, and I mean all of it. Everything Reagan did in office was bad, and I mean literally every single thing, so everything he did should be reversed- both at home and abroad.

… I don’t know. What I think that all of this boils down to is that I still don’t trust Trump.

And a few other people.

But… that’s neither here nor there, right now.

Tonight, I might like to talk about other things, because I haven’t done that in a while.

I wish I knew what to think about her. I think we ALL do, really.

I mean, there’s something about her that’s just… hmmm… I don’t know.

Best not to look into it, I guess.