Sighinide

I wrote tonight’s blog entry awhile ago. Wednesday, to be honest. I knew it was venomous, and I wanted to let it sit before posting it.

I thought about it off and on over the last few days, before deciding to post it today. I was angry and decided… why not. It’s how I feel, so posting it on my own, private blog can’t be wrong, right?

I don’t know. A second before posting it earlier today, and I mean, at the *exact* moment before hitting the “Publish” button, I was listening to some Cady Groves, and got an impulse to check out her twitter.

So I did. I’m a big fan of hers. She’s my friend, and I’ve liked her twitter since forever time.

There, I saw some shocking and heart wrenching tweets about how she just lost another one of her brothers to an early death, and how painful that is to go through. Not something you want to see from a friend.

Interspersed through her laments were messages of support from her fans and friends. They were all touching, but the one that stood out for me was Debby Ryan’s.

Debby is, to me, the quintessential NYC girl. Not just because that was the whole plot of her Disney show, but because she seems to live that life for real. She clearly loves the city and it’s culture. I know that she doesn’t stay there for long periods of time, but that is kind of what I would expect from a New Yorker- they’re always off to some place or another. She’s active and nice, but also no-nonsense. Just the type of person you want to help in a trouble.

Soooo… I like Debby as a person. Alot, actually. She’s my friend too, and we’ve been through a lot of stuff together and done a lot with each other. I like her so much that I’m a bit jealous of her real boyfriend so I don’t seek her out as much as I used to because I know I’ll see… him. (I still seek her out. I just leave quick.)

Which got me to thinking about my angry essay. Am I being too harsh on NYC? Yes, it’s true that Lloyd Blankfein is just unimaginably heinous. But not everyone in NYC is Lloyd Blankfein.

Ultimately, I don’t want to make the mistake of doing what I accused the coastal elites of earlier. I don’t want to just tar entire groups of people as being vile and lecherous because of the actions of a few.

Hmmmm… so after I hugged and consoled Cady, I went back to the essay. Should I post it or no? I decided to post it on the grounds that it might, somehow, be beneficial. It stands as it is, which is as an emotion locked in time. It was what I thought then, and this is my blog, so it’s posted. Hopefully some good will come of it somehow.

Can fuck itself. I’m tired of it and I’m sick of the people that live there.

I still can’t believe the enormity of the crimes that these people have committed. They’ve sown discord and chaos all across the world, and betrayed and ruined their own country, solely to ensure that Wall Street executives could give each other record Christmas bonuses year after year.

The scale of their sins is almost too huge to comprehend. They’re not human, these people. They’re monsters, real monsters, and what they’ve done deserves the ultimate punishment, which is what they will ultimately get.

I just can’t with these people. I can’t, and I won’t. I’m over them. I used to watch SNL, mostly for the references to me and the spare bits of humor that I could find in it. No more. There are better things to do with my time than to waste it watching that trash.

What is wrong with Hollywood these days? Why must they endlessly celebrate depravity and criminality, especially that of the New York / Washington D.C. set? Whatever happened to simply telling a story that might actually have some appeal to normal, non-corrupt people?

I’ve been watching a lot of anime recently, which I’ve just realized I’ve always liked better than the swill they show today on American TV. I’m not alone in that sentiment either. When was the last time an American TV character entered the global consciousness in the way that Naruto or Goku have?

Perhaps things would be different if my household had more than basic cable. I’m sure that the spate of recent HBO shows are superior to those I have access to. But still, the point I made stands. Which one character in the current roster of American TV characters has the universal appeal and global following of Naruto?

I’m getting off topic.

I’m beyond tired of so much attention being paid to the problems of that overrated, broken down, dirty, crumbling, freak-filled, useless city. I don’t CARE if Wall Street goes under. I. DO. NOT. CARE. AND. NEITHER. DOES. ANYONE. ELSE.

What the FUCK, people? Is it really so important to you to keep your financial bubbles going that you will literally destroy the economy of the world to keep them in place? What is WRONG with you?

Lately, a regime mouthpiece, Bloomberg.com, reported that US food prices are up by 19% thus far in 2014. Which of course means that they really are up by 25% at least. And all of this is happening as Obama continues to shove hundreds of billions of dollars a month into Wall Street so those monsters can enjoy their bonuses. Hey Obama, what the FUCK, you stupid idiot? You can’t even do corruption right! This kind of extreme disregard for the welfare of the public is something that not even a third world dictatorship would consider.

The US government’s ONLY duty is to protect it’s citizens. That is it’s only reason for existing. It does not exist to engage in financial speculation. It is not there to interfere in the Ukraine. It does not exist to advertise “equality”.

If it is the case that the American public is protected and doing well, it may be possible for the government to do other things, such as those I listed above. But it *cannot* do these things while there is significant strife at home!

Trust, once broken, is not easily repaired. The bridges between the US “elite” and the public have been burnt very badly by the stupid nonsense and blatantly criminal behavior that has come out of NY and DC for the past 20 years. It will take decades of careful actions to rebuild trust- if such a thing is even possible.

For what it’s worth, I do not think it’s possible. I see nobody in the “elite” with the brains, patience, or education to do such a thing.

Wikipedia has a list of the factors that are considered elements of a “failed state”:

1. Loss of control of its territory, or of the monopoly on the legitimate use of physical force therein
2. Erosion of legitimate authority to make collective decisions
3. An inability to provide public services
4. An inability to interact with other states as a full member of the international community

Also from Wikipedia:  Common characteristics of a failing state include a central government so weak or ineffective that it has little practical control over much of its territory; non-provision of public services; widespread corruption and criminality; refugees and involuntary movement of populations; and sharp economic decline.

People, this is our destination in the very near future. This is where we will be in a year, or two at the most.

All of this really makes me regret choosing to be a part of the establishment in this country, today. I should have just gone off and done my own thing. But I was curious and I wanted to see how all of this would turn out.

There are good reasons why I’ve kept the vast bulk of my hidden knowledge to myself. It’s kept in walled off sections of my mind. Nobody can see into those places but me.

It’s because I know that the knowledge I have will only be used for negative and destructive things by my “friends”, since they seem permanently incapable of actually creating anything beneficial or helpful to society at large.

Honestly? Fuck them. As if I’ll tell Lady Gaga, of all people, the steps to fixing her Lupus. She can figure that shit out for herself.

And thanks again, assholes, for the Obama administration. He will without question go down in history as the most incompetent AND the most corrupt President ever.

Really guys, thanks sooooo much!

War is coming.

There’s no question. Succession is the topic of the day. People are preparing on both sides. It will be long, painful, and bloody. There is too much repressed anger for it to be otherwise.

I feel for the poor white people out in rural America. Especially for the men. I really do. They have suffered tremendously under the regime. Their jobs have been stolen from them, their voices have been silenced… and the insults! Time and time again, the media demonize them as subhuman. White trash. Foolish. Incompetent. Cracker. Inbred. They are the only people that the regime can mock openly, so they receive a terrible, constant beating from our viscous media. It is unjustifiable abuse, plain and simple. It is so severe that it reminds one of the abuse that blacks suffered in the media prior to the 1900’s, with the difference being that the media today is so omnipresent that the abuse can’t be ignored.

I do feel for black Americans. Some of them. The rappers, actors, and athletes are trash. They can go fuck themselves. The poor ones, though, have had their lives ruined by unchecked immigration and the drugs that the Manhattan kingpins shove down their throats. The latter is especially galling and inhuman. Ever notice that the guys who run the multi- trillion dollar narcotics trade in their “off” hours are the same guys who created the mass prison system? Wow. How fucking evil. Up yours, you monsters!

I get it. I get the anger behind the Knock-Out game and everything else. But it is unconscionable that it is being directed at the wrong people. What do the victims of the Knock- Out game class whites have to do with how the drug trade is controlled? They likely don’t even realize that *is* controlled. This kind of anger is terribly misdirected.

It is interesting to see black Americans siding with their captors; it makes me wonder what kind of dynamic is at work there. Perhaps they think that by sucking up to them that they’ll be protected when the time comes. I don’t know. Perhaps they’re right to an extent.

Maybe it’s just that blacks see whites as a monolith. “They’re all in it together” or something. That’s wrong, but given how tight-lipped and conspiratorial whites can be, I can see this as being a possible reason.

Regardless, there is too much anger. It needs an outlet and it will find one. I hope, for my sake, that the white, rural people win. If they lose, the powers that be will likely construct a North Korea style totalitarian state where the US used to be. This may be the point behind the recent pushes to entrench the power of the already far too dominant and controlling NSA. There is only one place where that leads.

I suppose that the light of freedom will shine in other places, like Shanghai and Moscow, but I would prefer it to see it from here. Being a subject of some terrifying dictatorship is not my idea of a good life. Well, I guess I could leave. If I get out in time, that is.

In this war I don’t care if blacks and other minorities need to be sacrificed. For some reason- be it genetics, brain washing, a false hope of future success, or some other circumstance- they have chosen the wrong path. Fuck them.

It will be interesting to see what my girlfriends do when the time comes. Most of them are white. They are currently positioned on the “bad” side, but they have relatives- and me, for what that’s worth- on the other side of the fence.

This is the interesting mystery. I wish I knew how this will turn out.

What is clear is that they will be forced to choose. Their way of life is dying of course. The death of the middle class in the US is destroying the “consumer” lifestyle that is the foundation of so much of what my girlfriends have. There is no Hollywood without a middle class. Without consumers, the days of iTunes, cable TV, cinemas, fashion magazines, and department stores are over.

And again, there is the anger to think about. Read any story on the “news” websites that discusses a black on white crime. And then read the comments. There will be thousands, if not tens of thousands, of comments, all of them critical of the regime’s insistence on obscuring the obvious truth. And this is *after* the regime censors and deletes 95% of the comments. Lower and middle class white people everywhere are beyond furious, and justifiably so. With the regime refusing to protect them, it is inevitable that some of them will take the law into their own hands and hunt down those responsible for putting them and their families in danger… as they should. Rappers. Gang members. “Civil Rights” leaders. NBA players. Targets- all of them. Teach those niggers a lesson. When this happens, who will voluntarily get in their way?

The rage that whites have towards blacks and their enablers is so dangerous because of how personal it is. Everyone in the lower classes knows a victim. Everyone has heard of a girl that was raped by blacks who never went to the police because she was afraid of the consequences. Everyone knows a young relative who is routinely beaten by blacks during recess while school officials look away out of fear of being “racist”. Everyone knows a victim of the Knock Out game. The anger is very personal, and, coupled with the devastating effects of mass immigration, Affirmative Action, and Obama’s extremely disastrous Presidency, it has become an explosive just waiting for a fuse.

So… all this considered, which way will my girlfriends go? Will they sit idly and comfortably, hoping that the storm passes them by? Will they abandon their lifestyle and join the resistance? Will they run into the arms of the government?

What do I think? I suspect that at least a few of them will try to become mouthpieces for the regime’s new absolute totalitarian state. I can certainly see the more sheltered ones taking this route. I think that most of the rest will sit on their laurels and listen to Beyonce while everything good dies around them.

And then the mobs will reach them all.

Again- there is too much anger. Too many ruined dreams. Too many broken promises. Far, far too many lies. It may be too late in the game for them, either way they go. The last opportunity to truly change course was 2 years ago at the latest, back when I launched those furious and fearful tweets to them. At this point, with public anger deepening and no real economic recovery in sight, it’s only a matter of time before the rage fueled violence that is contained within the lower classes explodes and works its way up the chain. It’s too late at this point to stop it.

Oops.

For myself? I could leave… but I’m not sure where to go. I will not join Obama, that’s for sure. I would sooner die. I could leave for the East. Both Russia and China’s brands of tyranny are overall much softer and less violent than Obama’s. Another possibility- I could stay here and vanish. Or I could use my powers and bring to life my darkest fantasies. In my mind’s eye, I can see myself ensconced within a massive basalt castle, surrounded by an enormous graveyard holding my enemies’ corpses.

Or not. Whatever. We shall see.

I can hear it. It’s off in the distance… but getting closer. It’s a thunderous rumble- menacing and powerful- but muffled by the space between here and wherever it is. What… is it? A thunderstorm of unprecedented proportions? A hurricane, uncharacteristically poised to strike at Chicago? Are these the preliminary shocks of an earthquake of biblical magnitude?

Oh, wait, no. It’s none of those.

It’s just Ashley Wagner’s hunger for fame.

My bad.

Well, it’s been sprung. I waited for the perfect moment to launch coup attempt number 2.

Let’s hope that this attempt goes farther than the last one.

Well, the Academy Awards have, again, come and gone. I didn’t watch them this year. I had things to think about and pictures to organize last night. I had to get my folders caught up. I lost time last month because of the Olympics.

I also didn’t watch because of my uneasiness about the whole affair. This year’s Oscars, however fun they were, didn’t appeal to me. There is something really off- no, broken- about Hollywood, despite it’s appearance of wealth and success. Or perhaps because of it.

I’ve already expounded at length about the problems in this country that are being overlooked by the coastal elites. There’s no need to detail the obvious, but a list would help the memory: dangerous levels of racial violence; the isolation and complete estrangement of the country’s largest demographic; never- before seen levels of financial inequality; a general feeling that the entire young generation has been “lost” by a lack of jobs and opportunity; record high levels of corporate and government debt; a flailing and ineffective president who seems to have no understanding of how to conduct himself on the world stage, or even domestically; and a government that is universally feared and distrusted.

With all of this in mind, which of the Best Picture nominees reflects on these problems? Let me look… ah; none of them.

There seems to be a couple of movies that touch, tangentially, on these all important issues, perhaps as an afterthought. Scorcese’s Wolf of Wall Street comes to mind. I’m sure that his paean to the unbelievable greed of his Wall Street backers includes a rueful moment or two of reflection about how they have ruined the futures of millions of their neighbors. Maybe, maybe not. Perhaps there is something to see in Nebraska, though given Hollywood’s track record of late, I would doubt it.

In a way, it seems fitting that 12 Years a Slave won Best Picture. I can imagine how the after parties went in L.A. after the show. I can see the Hollywood elites, huddled around tables, congratulating themselves for addressing the problems of the 1800’s as the entire country collapses around them. I can’t think of a more appropriate picture for the twilight of the American empire than that.