Sighinide

In a way, these celeb leaks and hacks fit in well with the numerous and growing acts of public sabotage committed by working class white men. Recently, a white man here in Chicago made headlines when he sabotaged the air center at O’Hare airport, causing many millions of dollars in damages.

Again- this demographic is angry and getting angrier. I still believe that this story of this anger is the most important issue facing America today. The fact that we refuse to talk about it, or respect it, or even mention it means to me that we’ve lost the plot as a society. If one man, working alone, can cause a hundred million dollars in damages, imagine what a million men working together, or even individually, can do. They can wreak terrible havoc across America. And yes, I will be in there with them, doing my part.

Many, many things can be sabotaged easily by the white working class; they know better than anyone the nuts and bolts of the system. Airports, bridges, railways, computer systems, satellites, manufacturing machinery, roads, power stations, oil wells… all of these can be gummed up quickly by someone who knows where the weak points in the system are.

The oligarchs ignore this at their own peril, but ignore it they will. They’ll ignore it because they’re stupid and shortsighted.

Again- the time of feminism and “civil rights” is long past. Dire things await us if the supreme problem of the alienation of white men is not addressed well and addressed quickly.

Tomorrow is too late.

I’ve been thinking some more about the leaks and their social ramifications. This is such an interesting and pivotal phenomena. I can’t help it, not that I should.

As I’ve discussed, there exists a secret network of chatrooms and darknet pages that the leakers and, possibly, the hackers themselves use to collaborate on projects regarding the leaks. I’ve been monitoring these pages closely since the leaks started.

Beyond the pictures themselves, I’ve discovered a few interesting things from this monitoring, the first being the mentality of the hackers themselves. They tend to be like me, of course: white, male, smart, alienated, and underemployed.

The hackers and leakers are like me in that they see the celebrity girls and clearly desire them, but have great difficulty in seeing themselves as being represented by them and the culture they inhabit. Thus, the celebrities are regarded as the “other”, as people who are not like them and thus fair game for attacks. This is especially true when the leakers’ thoughts turn to things like money. Their ideas there seem almost like an echo of my own. The celebrities have money and opportunity, so they can afford all the therapy and diamonds they need to fix their feelings. So fuck them. Those bitches.

IMHO, the hacks aren’t going to end. Not anytime soon, at least. Not as long as the economic system in the US is as fucked up as it is. There is clearly too much economic inequality, and that problem is actually worsening in spite of my warnings. Unbelievable. Do the .01% in this country really believe that they can continue on this path without repercussions? What fools. What stupid, naïve, arrogant fools.

One of the leakers published a “How-To” guide to cracking celebrity accounts. I’m not going to detail what’s in it for obvious reasons, but the publisher made it clear in the document that he believed that this stuff would only be the tip of iceberg, and that it may continue indefinitely. I believe him. Right now, there’s a few million computer geeks sitting at home, totally unemployed or extremely underemployed. I’ve been one of these people before, and I know others like this in real life. I know smart people with CS degrees who stock shelves at Target.

These people are angry and frustrated. They’re starting out in life overloaded with debt and with absolutely no way to pay it off. It’s criminal, or at least it would be in a fair and just society. I can certainly see some of them taking out their frustrations on Hollywood.

Frankly, the celebrities should be thankful that I’m not in the place I used to be. I can outcode almost anyone. Programming languages are merely languages with math, after all, and my proficiency with both is obvious. And although I’ve never programmed anything offensive or criminal, learning how to do it would be child’s play for me. They’re lucky lucky lucky that I’m on their side.

For the time being, I’m not going to wreak havoc. We’ll see how long that lasts.

This topic brings to mind an essay I was going to write about the VMAs before the leaks started. The focus of the essay was going to be on the shocking dearth of representation of white, American men on stage at the awards show, despite them being by far the largest and most important demographic in the country. It’s baffling, it really is. Who in their right mind really believes that this culture we have is representative of anything but the views of the .01%?

I mean, yes, Miley brought in that homeless guy. But I’m sure that seemed like more of a joke than anything else. Honestly, people; what the fuck is going on? You can’t possibly believe that this stuff is going to continue forever as it is.

This recent talk of feminism is very jarring. They’re barking up the wrong tree. As usual. This stuff isn’t going to stop, is it?

The anger just grows and grows…

But I digress.

I want to see those Abigail Spenser videos. Those 3 that everyone is looking for… where are they? And people only have the 3 pics of Kirsten Dunst… where are the rest?

And God damnit, somebody fucking hack Emma Stone too. Do it now before she deletes whatever she’s got on her phone. I need to see her tits at least once before I die. I swear to God that I’ll just do it myself if nobody does it for me.

Well, not really. That would be criminal.

Whatever. Fuck them!

I’d kinda like to go back to the college me, if only for a hour. I’d like to be young again. And I don’t mean in this weird, inhuman vampire pretend young life I live right now. I’d like a real hour again as a truly youthful person.

I liked being young. I liked so much of my college experience and I’d love to re-visit it and do it over again.

Hmm… but I’m thinking the wrong thing right now. I’m thinking that I loved college, even though I didn’t. I’m forgetting that I was confused at the world and directionless and unpopular and a drug addict and a sometimes cutter and all the rest of it.

But I want to go back, regardless, if only for an hour. It would be fun.

I want to see my old roommates again from my Freshman year. I want to play Goldeneye and watch Sifl and Olly with them just… one more time.

I want to listen to The Plain White T’s again in a car with my friends from Sophomore year. We practically wore that CD out on the trips we took to and from the local bowling alley.

I want to go back to the café that I used to go to my Junior year, and drink that familiar hot chocolate and work on those math proofs again.

I want to go back to the house I lived in during my Senior year and see my old friends there again. Just once. Even that cramped little room I lived in seems so inviting now. A lot of memories were made there, even though the room was only big enough to hold one person at a time.

And while I’m at it, I wouldn’t mind seeing the rest of my old dorm rooms again. Just for curiosity’s sake. Or the cafeteria, just for an ice cream cone. Or the science building. I want to see the old Unix and iMac labs. Or the performing arts building. I only went in there a few times, but I made sure to absorb everything I could on each visit. Or the old library, which I read was demolished five years ago.

I even feel a twinge of nostalgia for that hospital with the crooked doctor that got me hooked on so much horrible stuff. He was a greedy, unscrupulous monster, but I wouldn’t mind seeing the hospital again. It was a nice place, clean and inviting. Not a terrible place to wander for half an hour, and the cafeteria there had the best french fries.

I wouldn’t object too much to seeing the familiar frat houses again, even though I didn’t have many good experiences in the ones I went to. Has there ever been a more overrated thing than the alcohol fueled hedonistic party lifestyle of some frat houses? I tried that life for a semester. I was there, every Friday and Saturday and every week, for… what was it? 40 oz. Tuesdays. Yeah, that was it. Did I get anything good out of all that? I mean, besides knowledge of who I’m not?

And I wouldn’t mind revisiting the old internet, either. I remember trying to download Led Zeppelin from scour.net with my 38Kbps connection my Freshman year. It took I think 5 hours to get Stairway to Heaven. I remember well the night I downloaded it. I had to keep checking and rechecking the download every hour during a Saturday night party in my dorm suite. I wasn’t going to let it get away, no matter what.

I miss the old Google. I’d like to google “Anne Hathaway” and actually get a listing of Anne Hathaway fan pages again. That’s how it should be, I think.

I miss Netscape Navigator. And Mozilla. And the old goth message boards. And the Fametracker forum and Mrshowbiz and Wall of Sound and the Iconophile’s Celebrity Pantheon. I just checked Ain’t it Cool News. It’s the same as ever. Some things may never change, thank goodness.

I want to revisit my Junior year dorm. It was an odd place; it had been a women’s dorm for about fifty years before it was changed over to a men’s. The rooms were cavernous with high ceilings, deep closets, and makeup stations. Can’t say I put much makeup on in mine, but the mirrors and lights were certainly good for combing my hair.

My Sophomore dorm room was as shallow as my Junior dorm was deep. There was no TV in there unlike so many other rooms in that building, but I had Diablo II, so I was happy. My room was on the second floor of the building, directly above the main entrance, and my monitor was parked in front of a huge window overlooking the street in  front. Some of my fondest, most relaxing memories of that year were of me playing DII on weeknights while people watching the crowds entering and leaving the building. I loved to just study the people as they filed in and out, and I remember listening to their gossip as closely as I could. I learned a lot about the campus goings on from that. I wish I still remembered some of it.

And for my memories’ sake… I never had much luck with the opposite sex in college, in spite of what I now realize was quite a lot of female interest. I was too shy and was battling too many health and mental problems, and that is aside from the drug addictions. And then there’s the truth that I spent so much time thinking about guys, too, so I wasn’t… quite… sure of what to do.

Of course, all of this ignores the I-know-this-can’t-be-real-so-I-won’t-speak-of-it relationship that I had with Winona Ryder for the last half of my college career. That surely wasn’t an actual, real relationship. My powers blossomed later. I’m sure.

… And I wouldn’t mind seeing my professors once more. Especially the CS ones. They had a way of making the most difficult computer projects seem doable, and even relatable. I hope that CS students today have professors like I did. Somehow, I don’t think many of them do.

That world is gone now, isn’t it? All of it… never to return. It’s a shame. I wish that I had appreciated more what I had back then. So many opportunities slipped out of my hands because I thought I would always have tomorrow. I didn’t realize how few tomorrows I actually had, and how quickly they would be used up.

This life is a short one. Make the most of it while you can.

Today, this morning, the power went out for a couple hours. Scary. I mean, it came back on of course, but I couldn’t check any celeb sites at all during that time. I mean, I couldn’t check any of them. Not one message board. Not one gossip site. Not one twitter. Not one instagram. Not even /b or reddit or those darknet pages I visit now. Yikes. I *need* this stuff. Need it.

The power’s back on now. *Whew*. Thank God. 2 whole hours… I was resigned to maybe not getting a leak update until tonight, or maybe even tomorrow. Not sure what I would have done in that instance. After about an hour and a half, I was honestly considering going down to the library to check on something… I need this stuff, at least until the leaks are done. I mean, I NEED it. Not sure if people really understand this. I NEED this stuff.

I just know something’s coming. Something big, and I need to see it and feel it. That wonderful rush… That moment when you lose your senses and touch the infinite, if only for a second… I live for those moments sometimes, more than anything else. I need them… They complete me sometimes.

I’ll get it, I know I will. I just need to be patient. It will happen.

I’ve noticed over the past couple of weeks that certain pictures from Tyler Shield’s archives are making their way onto the net. I’m not talking about old pictures, but new ones that don’t have a history on the internet- and they’re being posted by people who seem to have no idea about the pictures’ origins.  Odd.  I’ve not noticed Shield’s name listed anywhere are having been involved in the hacks.

Strange.  Just what is going on here, exactly?  Someone is leaking pics now that would never be in the possession of any actress or actor.  I’m seeing rare and valuable pics released these days for free that must have come from professional sources.

Regarding Shields- I’m referring to that one uncensored pic of Abigail Breslin that was posted on \b by one of the original leakers on the first weekend.   The commentators that day were surely correct.  Shields would never release that picture intentionally.  But then… where did it come from?  And those pictures of Liana Liberato seductively sucking on the strawberry- those were clearly also his work, but he wouldn’t release those either.  So just where in the hell did those come from?

I’ve also heard rumors, but only rumors, that other photographers’ outtakes may be released as well in the future, possibly against their will.

The rabbit hole here is getting deeper and deeper.  Whatever the story is, I’m sure it isn’t what we’re being told.  This isn’t just a small hacking ring that has targeted a handful of starlets.

Fascinating.

I have also noticed something else.  Lately, old, discredited by most nude pictures are starting to resurface with a concentrated effort by OC leakers to pass them off as legit.  I’m talking about the picture of Avril in the red shirt, Emma W in a robe with her head propped up lying on a bed, Emma S full frontal from February of this year, and the Sophie Turner pic.  I believe all but the Avril pic surfaced originally on \b back in the day.

I wonder what the story is here.  Are the leakers trying to pad their portfolios to make a buck?  Or… do they know something I don’t?

I’ve always wanted to see the complete sets of these pictures.  The imugr that the Emma S pics was hosted on was deleted too quickly for anyone to store the pictures.  Of the  Emma W pics, only one remains public.  The same with the “Sophie Turner” set.

I’d like to do a CSI on these pics if I could.  Believe me, if anyone could determine their authenticity, it would be me.  But first, I’d need to get ahold of them.

If there are in fact real celeb hackers out there, surely they know about me.  Are they reading this right now, I wonder?  If so, could they make the rest of these sets available to me, or at least to someone that can post them?  There are compilations being made now of celeb leaks.  Perhaps these can be included?

You scratch my back, I’ll scratch yours.

It seems like the due date for the Emma leak has been changed to tonight, midnight Eastern. I’ve got my tissues ready like everyone else, but we’ll see.

That’s it, I‘m going to indulge. Since the leaks started, my attentions have been focused 95% on the drama and the quest for the material, and 5% on the material itself.

I had to focus like a laser on getting everything I could, as soon as possible, when the pictures and videos started to emerge. I wasn’t sure if the complete sets would ever see the light of day, so I had to cobble together everything as quickly as I could myself.

Jesus, how many hours did I spend coming through the chans, the darknet, celebrity message boards and obscure chat rooms for the pics? How many hours did I spend sorting and categorizing real pictures from lookalikes, fake and photoshopped ones? What an experience! I’ve never done anything like it.

It been interesting getting to know the leakers and the hackers. I’m still not 100% sure of what the real story is here, but I’m getting close to the truth. I can feel it. Perhaps one day I’ll open up and disclose my real findings and conclusions to the public… or at least to this blog. Or maybe not. Probably not.

I’m glad that I’ve been able to successfully navigate the darknet as well as I have. Thus far, I’ve found some fantastic resources on there while still being able to avoid 99% of the illegal pornography. Well done, Tom. Who knows, maybe I’ll start up a page there myself.

There fact that there exists Hayden and Avril nudes that I haven’t used yet is really starting to gnaw at me. I need to just give in and indulge. From what I’ve gathered, the Avril set is complete, but the Hayden set hasn’t been released in full yet. I think I’ll take Avril first.

Those videos of Abigail… GOD DAMN!!! I took a quick look at them and then closed them, lest I be tempted. I’ll save those for later, when I can give them the attention they really deserve. The same with so much of what I’ve collected thus far.

Victoria- Awesome, awesome, awesome. She won the first weekend of the leaks by far. Congratulations, Victoria! Your prize is a lifetime of companionship and contentment. Come on down!

Jennifer- still waiting on the rumored final video.
In spite of official confirmation from one of the major leakers, the JoJo and Sarah H pics will still need to be tested by me, as well as the supposed Hilary pics and many others. I can do that when I have the time. It will not be today.

Emily and Anna- I’m waiting on the rest of the pics. I still want to see the other Michalka sister fully nude, too. I need to, first. Since the pics of the family keep leaking, I’ll need to compartmentalize all of it first.

Scarlett- So I’ve FINALLY seen the whole set. Unbelievable.

Carly Pope, Winona Ryder- where are you?!?!?!? My God, people are waiting!!!!

Lori Heuring- WOW! Never expected to see her!!! I will store her pics, as well as Ali Michaels and Jessicas and Kates and Lakes, to be used when I have time- because now that I think about it, there is one issue that will require much of my attention.

Emma Watson… I’ll need to write an essay on the possibility of seeing her. That will be for later. For now, I must do more research and have everything at the ready. Unfortunately, I’ve determined the countdown page to be a hoax. I realized from posts on the chans that the countdown is always set to 12:00 midnight, regardless of time zone. It must be a hoax. But if the rumors are true, and Emma will leak this weekend, I will need to be prepared for the hellstorm.

Elle Fanning- I didn’t really think the pics existed, but I wanted to believe so badly. I looked and looked everywhere, but all I got were lookalikes. Fuck!

Bella Thorne- YES YES YES YES

Taylor Swift- if one of the volafile leakers is telling the truth, there *may* exist a set of this Venus. I won’t even contemplate this as a possibility, though. That way I won’t be let down again.

Chloe Moretz- I saw the interview where she discussed that nobody was safe. I jumped the gun mentally and couldn’t believe what I was hearing. Oh, how I wish!!! Relax, Tom, relax.

Maisie, Sophie, Selena- rumors rumors rumors. They just don’t end.

Emma Stone- if only. A whisper from one of the leakers implied that she was a possibility, but I’ll believe it when I see it.

Kaley has handled the sitch beautifully. Well done, Kaley.

LeeLee is cool. Pics are interesting and different.

Ashley- I still regret not saving the college I made that night, just for memories’ sake.

Elizabeth- One name I’ve never seen floated as a real possibility, in spite of the lookalike that was widely disseminated last Saturday morning. People keep asking, though. She isn’t really famous, but her fans seem very attached to her.

Ariana- we’ll see. The official word from one of original leakers is that everything thus far has been fake- but the carpet in that one pic is just so, so similar, as is the cat in the other. I need to know. Additional testing is required here. I’m thinking of downloading and using some facial recognition software to help with her set, as well as those supposed J-Law BJ pics.

McKayla Macaroni- McKayla. Nuff.

Kate B I’ll get into. Her set was God tier but I can only afford so much excitement at once. I need time. If ANYONE named Emma leaks this weekend I’m going to explode, so I need to calm down beforehand for that possibility.

This is all that’s on my mind right now. Yup, that’s it. Off to dinner.

I have to leave my computer. I just have to. My throat is dry and my heart is racing too much. I feel drained.

I’m going to take a shower and come back.

Who’s the fuckin man? I said, who’s the fuckin MAN? It’s me, that’s who. He’s right here, people. Right. Here.

Bitches. This is my world. Y’all just live in it. Make do and make me happy.

Vanessa HOLY FUCK!!!!! I’m literally shaking right now!!!!! I can’t calm down!!! I cannot believe what I’m seeing!!!! Oh my GOD!!!!! Vanessa Emma McKayla and I can’t take it!!!! System overload in 3…2…1… someone help!!!!!! Vanessa I love you!! Emma I love you!! McKayla I love you!!

I don’t know what to think anymore!!!! This changes everything. I’m so stunned. EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT NOW. EVERYTHING.

oh my god. Breathe, Tom, breathe!!!!