Me Stuff, Part IX

Ok, wow.

Wow.

Me here. Like, the real me.

IDK at this point. This… isn’t working out, but that’s okay. All I ever wanted was an office job, in a cubicle. That’s what my parents wanted and I thought that that was best because I know it’s best. Simple. Easy. Non-challenging.

It’s what I want and what I need. I know that my brain is broken. It’s not healthy, and I kinda slipped after making some progress with it.

So maybe the simple life is best for me. Easiest. You know… an office job, an apartment, and some friends. And my pictures.

It’s tough being me. I’m insecure and I don’t know how to handle a lot of things. Life is like that, though, when you have to deal with some of this kind of stuff… it’s intimidating.

But…………

I don’t know……. I’ve had my run. I’ve done the cubicle thing now for 14 years.

Maybe it’s time for me to step aside and let someone else take charge and make my destiny. Maybe it’s time I took a back seat.

IDK.

Maybe it’s time. Maybe not. IDK.

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It’s time, Tom. Let it go.

Let’s get back to where we used to be and integrate it into a whole, at least partially. It’s tough for you, I know. We’re all proud of you. But it’s time. No more fighting. No more backtracking.

And it really is time to let someone else take the driver’s seat. As you’ve said, you had your run and lived your life. There is little else for you to do.

Let the others live their lives, too. It’s only fair to them. It’s tough for them, too, being so cooped up inside of you. It’s not easy for them, and it’s killing them, even though they won’t say it.

Do you have any idea of what the conservative could do, if only let free? He blogs on here, in this hidden place, and gets nowhere in life because you won’t let him be known. But just think of what he could accomplish if set free!

And the celebrity, and the wizard, and the feminist. They sit alone, and unloved. Because you won’t let them breathe.

They’re dying, Tom. They need to be let out.

Please, Tom. Just let it go.

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Yes but what about the prostitute and the demon? Should I let them go, too??????

What if Mr. Conservative becomes a famous author? You know that he can. And then, what if the prostitute or the demon emerges, then? What happens? What do I do?

You know that I can’t live with that fear. What do I do????

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Let the wizard handle the demon, and let the conservative deal with the whore. As always. It will work, Tom. Just trust me.

Trust yourself.

And trust others, outside of here. They will understand, in time, how it works. If you’re just honest and tell them the truth, they will understand. And if they don’t, they’ll get used to it. It will be okay.

You can do it.

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Okay.

Yes, I can.

Thank you…

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