I think I’m overdosing again, lol.
Gawd it’s just horrible, I can’t fucking move. Spent the whole morning again struggling to squeeze out whatever paltry ounces of air I could suck in. Arms, legs are dead. The nerves I mean. Utterly dead, each finger feels like it weighs a hundred pounds.
Very easy to see why people die from this.
I suppose I should be grateful for a break up of my life’s monotony, but truly, if I had any sense, I would be going to the ER right now, lol.
It’s just everything hurts soooooooo much. Gawd is unbelievably horrid, each breath is such a painful, laborious struggle. Each keystroke here feels like Sisyphus grinding his muscles away against that rock.
Oh god it’s horrible. So dizzy, nauseous. Vision blurry, mind is… gone, somewhere, everything’s foggily groggy. Oof Gawd it just hurts soooooooooooo bad… my nerves are on fire, horribly. Brutally painfully screamingly horribly. Gawd it HURTS ouch, lol. Good lord, this sucks. Someone help me, lol. Someone pleeeeease just help me. Someone please? Anyone? lol.
Nah, nobody cares. lol.
help, the air burns inside of me. Like the oxygen is tearing up my guts. Like it’s searing away at my esophagus as it passes into my lungs. It just burns, the air does. It’s like I’m on fire, on the inside. Someone help me, lol.
I don’t think this is normal, lol. Someone help, lol.
Whatever, lol. ouch, lol. It reeealy hurts tho, lol.
Gawd my eyeballs are burning, so badly, they are, they smolder in their sockets like fireballs from hell. My brain is such mush, lol. Dead grey matter inside the noggin, that’s all, lol. Hey that rhymes. As it hurts. Horrible searing burning flesh inside my guts for no reason.
This… isn’t good.
Oof. Ouch.
So dumb.
So so dumb.
oof.
Oh God it’s just horrible… so utterly, deadfully horrible. This isn’t the way to go. Not even a little. not like this. Not even close. Not even remotely. Not even somewhatly. I can’t die, defo not like this pain is WAAAAAAYYYYYY to intense. Whatevs. Dumb me, stupid me, dumb Tom, stupid Tom, dumbest man in the world, stupidest man ever Tom. Tom the idiot, lol. What have you done to yourself, lol.
Sigh.
Whatever.
I guess I’ll just ride this out and get some breakfast or something.