Yeah ok so I’m like super overdue for a big dose and I’ll FINALLY have the chance later on today so… yessir, in it goes. Gawd just a few hours until I can get my hit, not too long, I can take it. Yes yes. Not a problem; not at all, everything is completely under my control.
SO. Blah blah usual stuff, but I also got my hands on a new kind of pain med, can’t wait to try that out this weekend. ALSO- yes I have thought verrrrry meekly and mildly about trying mayyyyyybe just a smidgin of heroin, juuuuust to try it because why not, seriously, I may as well, I am curious now, and I might…. have the opportunity. I mean… seriously, why not? Just a taste. I’m curious.
I… think I can get some, if I really wanted to. It’s mostly just a “thought” though. I mean I remember talking to Demi about that like a loooong time ago and she said that she tried it (and yeah, I mean I can prove that too) and it didn’t seem to bother her too much so… yeah I know I know, but don’t worry, I have this thing COMPLETELY under my control. I’m smart- much smarter than most- so we’re good. I mean, the fact that I collect my used fentanyl patches should be of no concern, lol. But srsly, we’re good.
So…. yes yes, I can’t wait for this afternoon. FINALLY, I get back to… normal. FINALLY, and I can get that reward that I need to get very much, just for dealing with this crazy fucking world of ours. Oh yeah, can’t wait. Nothing else matters really until I get my hit again, yes, I mean I just can’t wait, lol. oof, FINALLY. lol.
Oh yeah, just to feel that wonderful icy cold love surging through my dry veins… nothing is better, nothing is more needed, nothing means more. Right.
You know I really need to start talking about other stuff, here. And I mean I said I would, so… yeah, let’s seriously turn this into a diary, like a real one. Let’s do it. Let’s talk about being a celebrity, day to day life, and everything else. Let’s do it, let’s do it. Yup.
But not now. Right now, I know what I REALLY need. And I’m counting down the minutes until I get it. Just think though, heroin would be SO MUCH more convenient… a medium sized dose of that would take care of me, no problem, just as a supplement, you know? I mean occasionally, once in a while, until I get everything else straightened out, during those times when my supply of other stuff is shakier.
Well, I need to try out that new pain med this weekend, defo. Can’t wait for that, it might be phenomenal. I mean, might be. We’ll see. Oh yeah, life is good.
See? Everything’s under control. No problem!
Yup, everything’s great.
Yup, absolutely.
Seriously. Of course.
Yup.
Yeah!
Right.
Right!
Right.
Right…