Oh god is hurts. Oh god it hurts, it hurts so much, god it just brutally hurts. It hurts everything, mind, body, soul. I want off, I need off, I need to fix myself, I need to stop hurting, I can’t do this to me, I need this to be fixed, I need to help myself, I need to help me, ow oh god it hurts, it hurts SO BADLY, it hurts so much, it’s such pain, ow oh god no, what trauma, what horrible trauma.
But it will be OK. This time it’s different. NO MORE. I AM GETTING OFF. I am getting off. No more jokes, I need to do it, like, now, or else. I need to help myself. NO MORE DRUGS. I want to feel again. I want to be right again. I want to LIVE again. I need to end the pain, end the suffering, end the horribleness that is my existence.
I live in pain. That has to stop. It’s just horrible, just AWFUL. GOD, IT HURTS SO MUCH. PLEASE MAKE IT STOP.
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH