Ugh I HATE this. My heart is going a million miles a minute, now. It’s pounding through my chest. i feel like I’m having a heart attack or something, and I can’t stop sweating. I’m so pale, so cold. FUCK.
Uh, it’s just so weird. So, the way I had it described to me was that the more powerful narcotics, like morphine and fentanyl, act as ultra-powerful nerve stimulants. So when I load up on these guys it causes all of the shit I’m feeling now, which is why ironically I need MORE of them, to calm me down. Or at least, lesser powerful ones, so I might just go ahead and take some of those instead.
Oof, oh man, this sucks. And yeah I feel like I need a lot today, since I have been… tapering, for so long. I mean like a whole WEEK. So yeah, that’s a long time, yeah?
Oof, ow. Oh man, so painful.
ow… I just need a way off of this stuff. Like, I really, really need a bit of help, here.
Like, this is just too much for me, you know? I just really need some help.
Oof, ow… ouch.
Ow.
Ouch. ow…
OW. Ahhhgk, ow. This really hurts. Really really badly. Ow, ouch. I mean, my body. My head. I mean, I got some specialty anti-migraine meds but even those don’t seem to do much. I mean it just HURTS, damn it. Like really, really badly. IT HURTS. And it would be great if someone that wasn’t dead wanted to help, here.
Ouch. Ow…
Ow.
Fuck.