Ouch, though. Ow, god damn it. It just HURTS. God DAMN this!
FUCK this! How long have been “tapering” now? Two months? And it feels like I’ve gotten nowhere!!
I take less, but I feel no better! And in fact, I feel WORSE!
Gods, it’s been TWO FUCKING MONTHS!!!!
How the fuck long is this supposed to even take?!?!?!?!
This is utterly preposterous, absolutely ridiculous. Unfair beyond belief.
2 fucking months of careful patience and daily planning and meditation and prayer and venting and exercise and EVERYTHING ELSE and I feel WORSE. Fuck the fucking fuck is this shit?
Why even bother? What is the point of even trying?
This is such a fucking joke that I can’t even believe it.
God FUCK THIS.
I need to kill myself. Yeah- that would work. That alone is my way out of this prison. There is nothing else, can never be anything else. Suicide is all there is to get away from this.
No point in even trying anything else, really.
Fuck.