Hmmn, reread my last post and I don’t mind it. It was angry, but frankly that’s ok; everyone else is angry these days, and I think I deserve that too.
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Random relationship stuff- I’m done investigating, once again, my past relationships, and I think this time I’ve gone as far as I possibly can. I mean I’ve fully investigated stuff from the early 80’s, lol. I was a toddler back then. Not sure how much more there could possibly be.
I had to open telepathic lines with my old girlfriends to do this, but I think I’m going to close them, now. It takes energy to keep those open and I could use that energy for other things.
I’m also done investigating my health issues, and the status of… me, I mean, whatever I am. And I think it was convenient to do both the relationships and myself at the same time. In fact it probably could not have been done correctly any other way, since both issues turned out to be two sides of the same coin.
With the telepathic lines closed, I should have much more energy left to work on my own issues. That is good.
I’m dumping AnnaSophia Robb, and Lily Collins as well. I no longer need them, and it would appear the feeling is mutual.
I needed Lily for awhile- she provided a lot of useful information that I needed to parse through with all of the Hollywood backroom stuff that is apparently so entwined with my own identity as a cyborg. And this stuff is so… odd, and difficult to even grasp, that I needed all the help I could get to piece it together.
Oh yeah, and Emma Roberts, lol. But that one should be obvious, as I haven’t been with her in over a year, or more. I already archived her directory on an external disk.
I think that perhaps AnnaSophia has a different impression than I do of this stuff. I think she thinks that I’m going to follow her, or something, into her marriage. That… is not going to happen, lol. I don’t do married chicks. Absolutely, absolutely not.
I most definitely and extremely absolutely do not do, ever, girls with kids, adopted or otherwise. That is most definitely always a no-go zone for me, and it always will be. There is no reason for anyone with a kid or a pregnancy to make a pass at me, ever. No-fucking-way is that going to happen.
AnnaSophia and I had a great relationship, don’t get me wrong. It was long, and fun, but it is/was very much of it’s time. I need to focus on other things now, besides.
And no, I don’t feel any remorse over any of this.
Last year, when I was hospitalized because my lungs were filling up with blood over a grotesque internal injury, I did not see any of the three girls I just mentioned trying to help or even offering up any consolation. No, as I was screaming in pain and wishing to die, they were just going about their daily lives, unconcerned. Or if they were concerned, none of them bothered to make that clear to me.
So, I see no reason to continue with relationships that ultimately mean so little to the other party.
Contrast this with my other relationships- Kathryn Newton, McNamara, Justice, etc. who did show at least a little concern, even if well after the fact. But at least it was something.
So, there you go.
I will move their directories onto the external, where they will sit alongside… I don’t know, the chicks I used to date back in the 90’s and the 00’s. IDK who they even are anymore, lol.
And with me simultaneously closing off any extraneous telepathic lines, I would not expect any possible re-invigoration of these relationships. Certainly not anytime soon.
The point is basically- don’t take me for granted. Just because I’m not human doesn’t mean that I should not be afforded basic decency.
In their place, I have… a lot of other chicks, lol. Both Jayden Bartels and Jules LeBlanc work as Nick chicks to replace Roberts. And Jules did give me some “feel better” hospital stuff, and that was even before I knew her.
I’m also interested in Indiana Massara, ofc. And a few other chicks, but we’ll leave it at this right now.
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I’ve not even begun to investigate the possibilities afforded to me by the whole “eternal youth” thing.
You know, being a cyborg is not such a terrible thing, really. You lose some free will (well, alot of it), but there are benefits to having a supercomputer hooked up to your brain, helping you along. And as the global computer grid and 5G network gets built out, it is very possible that these benefits will increase.
And when they roll out 6G, there might be more benefits as well.
I can see society, if not life itself, stratifying along cyborg/not-cyborg lines in the future.
The way I live might not be compatible at all with normal society, ultimately. The superpowers most assuredly are not.
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Well, that does it for this one.