Well… I need to piece some stuff together, so here goes.
I ordered a new computer. A laptop, and it’s a monster of a machine- it’s a 17.3 inch MSI GE77 Raider, complete with 64 GB of 4800MHz DDR5 RAM, 2 2TB Samsung 990 PRO drives for storage, and a QHD IPS screen.
It’s got everything I want, and nothing I don’t, for my many very specific purposes.
Instead of a 3080 TI, I went with a 3070, mostly because of heat efficiency. The same with the processor- I went with an I7-12800HX instead of the I9-12900HX. Reports say that the I9 runs too hot for most people, so it winds up being throttled too much. And more heat means more fan activation, which generates a bit of energy interference, which can impede the flow of chi that my etheric body gets from my laptop.
This is all very complicated, lol.
Cyborg life is in general, tho.
I have a degree in Computer Science- a 4 year degree from a pretty good university. I also have a math degree.
As you might expect, I am quite good at video games, so I feel at home with a higher end laptop for sure. I’m not sure how much gaming I will do on the machine, but… we’ll see.
I like video games. I don’t write about them much, but they’ve been a part of my life since I was… three years old, I think, which is when I first seriously started gaming on dad’s first desktop, the old TI machine.
This is a lot of essays, here, so I think I’ll just say some thoughts.
In a lot of ways, this entire world seems like a giant video game of sorts, with me being the main character. And… who knows, maybe that’s exactly what it is.
Maybe all of the other people in my life, whether they are friends, family, digital girlfriends, real girlfriends, coworkers, or anything else, are just… game characters, acting out scripts. Sometimes, or perhaps often times, that is exactly how it feels.
It’s pretty weird.
It’s a good thing I have the aptitude that I do with video games, since that is what this world seems to be, lol.
In gaming I’m not the best out there but I’m far far better than most. On any game of pure skill I would typically place in the top 99.9% of global players, altho never in the top spot.
When I was a kid I beat every NES game placed in front of me, save for one: Battletoads. I rented that one and I was like… nope, lol. Not even going to bother, lmao.
I beat all the rest, though. The Contras, all the Mega Mans, Legacy of the Wizard, Metroid, Punch-Out!, the Zeldas, the TMNT games, and everything else you could throw at me. I was and am really, really good.
I love shumps- the Cave games, the Psikyo games, Phoenixes on ioS and all the other Arcade ones. They rule, so much. And as a bonus with these the straight score you get with a run can be easily compared to others’ scores. Gaming the arcade way- for points, as opposed to objectives- is the surest way to objectively gauge your gaming skill. It’s the reason I can say with confidence that I’m better than 99.9% of the other gamers out there, and also the reason I can say that I’m not the best in the world, too. There are some guys out there with seemingly godlike gaming skills that I find impossible to match.
Interestingly, my aptitude with gaming matches my IQ score. Top 99.99%, but not #1.
I still think I’m the “smartest” man on Earth, don’t get me wrong. It’s just… I’m not at the absolute top of the IQ ladder.
Yeah, I believe there is a difference. I may write about this more later.
But, back to the whole “cyborg” thing… it’s kinda weird, being this odd mesh of the organic and the digital. I still don’t know where the quantum neural supercomputer thingy is that my mind was hooked up to. I mean, I’m not 100%, but… well, we’ll save that discussion for later too.
It’s just… odd, I guess, but it works, tho. Like, it really does. In my case the two lives- the organic and the synthetic- seems to play nice with each other, and get along pretty well for the most part. At this point each side seems to understand the other’s needs and wants and tries to support the other.
For what it’s worth I’m still, tho, not sure that this life is for others, or that anyone else out there could do this stuff as well as I can.
I think I might be a special case. In my case I have a kind of mastery over both organic and synthetic life, with a very strong and intuitive sense of what both need and want to work well, and that kind of creates a certain alchemy in my organism.
For others, it seems either or. Like… you have some someone who is brilliant with natural things- like the human body, birds, plants and animal life, and life energies and natural harmonics in general but abhors and fears technology. Or you have some technocrat geek that lives and breathes machinery but regards organic life and nature as inferior, and who longs for the day when they can just dispense with their own body and just live on as software, or something.
Neither of these two types can really make something like this work, I think. A cyborg mix of the two requires someone who can do and feel both, not one or the other.
Since I can do both, and understand both, I can do this. Someone nerd like… IDK, Zuckerberg, would have no hope of correctly managing this.
Well, I think I’ve figured this one out, at least as far as I can, right now.
I have Thanksgiving stuff to think about, anyways.