DAMN. They failed me!!!!!
They had ONE JOB, people. ONE JOB- and it was the easiest job in the world! How could they have possibly fucked it up this badly?!?!
I really wish I had seen the Kaley pics, the Amber pics, the Jennifer vids, and the other good stuff that I was teased with and wanted to see.
You morons! What colossal ineptitude! What kind of idiot “leaks” that stuff in the way it was done? Unbelievable!
I’ve been waiting for this for years!!! This was the cumulation of years of difficult effort and leadership! I need everything, damn it! I deserve it and I need it!!!!!
You just don’t understand how important this is!
I have an acute case of celebriphilia. These feelings I have aren’t about just some pictures. When I was a kid, and my friends and I were all talking about growing up and going out on dates, all I could think about was the possibility of seeing girls in movies, and wondering what the girls of my generation would be like on the silver screen and the gossip mags. When I thought about sex, I thought only about pop stars and nude scenes in Hollywood. And yes, this was years before I had seen a single nude scene, owned a pop song, or seen any media at all that was geared towards an older audience.
So these pics are absolutely essential!!!! You can’t just tease me with a huge lot of amazing Selena Gomez and Winona Ryder nudes and then take them away at the last minute! You just don’t DO THAT! What kind of heartless, abominable monster would do such a thing to me?!?!
AAAAAAAUUGGGGGGHHHHHHH
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I legit feel like crying a little right now. Just a LITTLE bit. I won’t, but I just wanted to say that out loud somewhere, even if only here where nobody will know.
I’m not going to. I’ll just do what I always do, I guess, when faced with disappointment: I’ll remind myself of all that I have that is good and secure. I have my family, a stable job, solid self-knowledge, reasonable financial security, and, of course, my powers.
Unfortunately, I’ve been reminding myself of those things a lot over the past 2 years or so. Much more than I would have liked to have done. I *have* climbed out of the debilitating depression that I went through over the summer, which is wonderful and encouraging, but the persistent stresses and triggers that caused it are still there. Which puts me in the same boat as 95% of everyone else that gets out of a depression, I guess. So I’m not alone.
Even if I don’t get to see the rest of the Lawrence pics- even if I don’t see any of the Selena pics- I’ll be safe in the knowledge that most people in the world would like to have the life that I have.
That’s always a comforting thought.
Oh well. I’m sure that as time goes on, I’ll gain a greater perspective about all of this yadda yadda yadda.
But I’ll always, always wonder.