I just realized something.
For the past couple of years, I’ve been gorging on health-related supplements and boosters. I mean, I’ve been taking way, way more than the recommended dosages for some stuff… I convinced myself that I was doing it for my health but now I think I might have been self-medicating or something. Wow, imagine that. I mean… can you do that?
That’s impossible, right?
Is some of that stuff addictive? I mean, the roots and herbs and minerals and stuff. You wouldn’t think so, really, but some illegal drugs are herbs and isn’t cocaine a mineral too? It can be prepared as a salt.
I’m not saying that anything I was taking was like crack or anything- that would be nuts- but I was taking way, and I mean WAY, more stuff than I should have been, especially, now that I think about it, when I was feeling down or depressed, or stressed out at work. When I was really down I would go over by three or four times the recommended maximum dosages on the packages sometimes. Was I an addict? I mean, it wasn’t intentional that I would take the stuff just to escape from reality. So I did it without thinking. Is that addiction?
So I recently stopped ingesting all of what I was taking and I feel a lot better but I *think* I might be having some withdrawal symptoms weaning myself off of what I was taking. But that’s impossible, right? They’re just herbs and roots and minerals etc. It’s nothing illegal!
Eek. No, I’m OK. No problems here. I’m over this whole “addiction” thing. And again, nothing I was taking was illegal, so that means it wasn’t addictive anyways. So… move along, people. Nothing to see here. Nope.
I mean, I’m supposed to be some kind of genius, right? I was doing it to be healthy and I just did it wrong, but what if…
Eek.