Sighinide

I’m not rude, BTW. Just so everyone knows.

I just know my value, that’s all.

Hisses

Ok, she’s still like doing her thing in which she absolutely refuses to admit to all the drama she caused when she literally just… stopped letting people even see her music videos.

Lexi hun, nobody likes a drama queen hunny. I mean if this is how you’re going to act then like… yeah. I mean, it’s just… you know.

And don’t think I don’t see what you guys were doing when you named Jules’s chick on Side Hustle Lex. I mean, I see what you guys are doing. I mean, maybe I don’t say it, but I see it.

If this keeps up I’ll just have to spend time with Indiana, or, like, Jessica Belkin or somebody, and then where will you all be? Yeah, that’s what I thought.

So there.

Is so pretty but almost like… too pretty, you know?

Except on those times when she’s not, and then it’s like… try harder plz.

lol

Ok, fuck yeah. Cody Groves released a Cady demo a few days ago, and it kicks ass.

I suppose that this was released now since it’s been a year since her death.

I posted a rather slavish comment, lol. I guess I just reeeeeally want more Cady stuff, lol.

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Absolutely fantastic song… it’s a demo but it sounds album worthy, how amazing! Cady was such a great talent and such an important part of so many lives. Thanks so much for releasing this. There are people who would love anything else from her that isn’t public. Miss you dearly Cady! I still think of you and your wonderful music a lot.

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Ah, you can see it there, under my name.

Oh man do I want more Cady stuff!!! That would be sooooo amazing!!!!!!! Thank uuuuuuuuuuu!!!

Yes I am simping. I literally do not care, though. Anything for more Cady, and I mean like ANYTHING, is acceptable and good.

Ahhhhhh thanks so much.

I mean, sorry for her death and all but yeah, thanks anyhoo.

Ahhhhhh Cadyyyyyyy oh yeah she feels so good next to me!!!!

Wonderfullness!!!!

Oh man this is great… ppppllleeeeease more shtuff!!!! Please!!!!

Yeah.

Oh Jesus though. No drama this time. No drama I swear. No more, no más, no how.

Jus me listening to some good music.

Thanks!

A few random thoughts, and notes about Pixar’s Wall-E, here for future reference.

– The “space dance” scene seems taken from / inspired by the NES game Solar Jetman.

– “Auto” is not so much HAL 9000, but the A.I. from Flight of the Navigator.

– The characters are toys. Wall-E itself might be a combination of toys I had as a kid, including a robotic arm that I spent eons with, putting stuff into it’s accessories box and back out again. Also that little mobile robot from the space set I had as a kid. The space set itself looks like Wall-E’s home, with the same ramp and everything. I still have the arm and the little mobile robot. And then of course there is the obvious Short Circuit influence.

– There is an influence here from toys like the Robotix line from Milton Bradley, especially IMO in the decals, buttons and signage.

Hmmn. Interesting. Looks like a good movie. Never seen it fully- I’ve only studied bits here and there on youtube.

Still I wonder. Very peculiar, all of this. The bits and pieces I’ve seen do seem oddly, weirdly “me”, especially the space dance scene, and a bunch of other stuff, like the overall tone of the world and Wall-E in particular. Very interesting.

Random thoughts.

I still wonder. Do other people watch these movies and think to themselves “Yeah, I remember all of this stuff from my own childhood” or is this again just me? I don’t know, but damn, this is so fucking weird.

I mean… I don’t remember the exact story, or even the exact characters. But I remember the pieces. It’s again like… someone just took all the stuff I did as a kid and then reassembled everything in a different order, like they’re just painting with my memories, or something. It’s really weird.

And again, some of this is extremely specific, like the space dance scene. I remember doing stuff like that for hours on my NES, with my little pixelated spaceship. It’s just… the feeling of the scene. Like, I know I’ve done this myself, before.

And the feeling of Wall-E himself, and watching him pick stuff up and make little boxes out of them. Like, I’ve done that, hundreds of times, with my own little robot arm. Just not… like that, but verrry similar to that, in tone.

And the obvious references to my favorite films as a kid.

It’s really uncanny. IDK honestly what is going on here, but… it’s stuff to think about, for sure.

Really crazy, all of this.

See, NOW it’s obvious.

Years ago, I wondered on here whether or not Winona Ryder knew she was “dating” me in college. Well, now I know!

Holy shit, lol. Wow, SO obvious.

Yikes.

Okay then.

Reeeeeal obvious, this movie is. Just like Linklater’s Waking Life, this is… so direct, so… me, in my college years, that it almost defies analysis. I mean, why bother?

Yeah, ok, I get it.

I mean, it’s all there- Winona herself, the drug addictions, my friends, and everything else that is relevant. There’s so much in fact that I won’t take the time to list it all.

And me, and my “condition”. And the ending, with the flower. Ha- I get it. I actually remember that flower from my youth. I mean, I get it, so incredibly powerfully.

Alright, well, there it is, then.

Good to know these things!

But still, guys… you really should have told me. It’s like I’ve said earlier on this blog, many many times over- effective communication is honest communication. Honesty is the way to do it- look at this blog. See? Honesty is what makes this stuff work. It’s the lifeblood of everything that is… IDK, good?

Seriously, guys. You really need to tell people. Honestly, Winona really should’ve told me (and I guess she did, through this movie and probably a bunch of others, though NEVER DIRECTLY, and that is key) but… ugh, wow, alright, fine.

Jeez.

Yeesh.

Ok then.

Cars?

Cars.

Hero car looks identical to my first car, a 1995 Red Ford Contour. I was given this car on my 16th birthday.

For pics, google “1995 Contour”. It will be the first picture.

Looks verrry close to the hero car.

The rest of the cars came from the toy cars I played with as a kid.

I only saw this flick once- in like 1998, on DVD, with my family, but even then I was dumbfounded at the coincidences- but chalked them up to chance, like I did with Toy Story. Obviously, I shouldn’t have.

I literally have all the cars in this flick in the basement, right now. They’re in an old shoebox. Except for the big firetruck- I have one identical to that guy in a plastic bin, and when I say identical, I mean it.

Also I have the rest of the vehicles, except for the ones I don’t. Those I had to give away, since I didn’t have enough storage place. Like the Tonka trucks, which might or might not have been labeled “Tonka” in the movie. I don’t think it matters, really.

The rest of it is all from my early toys- the track, the decals, the signs, even the random items placed around the movie.

There is more of my childhood here than there might have been in Toy Story, if you can believe that.

I mean I literally have all of this stuff, and for the stuff I don’t have, I have pictures. It’s all pretty uncanny, and despite what teenage me thought, can’t possibly be a coincidence. No, it’s not the case that everyone in America had the exact same childhood I had, I guess.

And the tells. The behavioral tells are all there. In the couple clips I saw on YT, I saw about a dozen.

Okay.

Well then.

How much do you want to bet that the rest of Pixar’s oeuvre was ripped from my childhood as well?

Hmmn. So weird, but so incredibly interesting.

Honestly, I kinda hate to say this but I am really kinda-sorta majorly enjoying figuring this stuff out. It’s beyond fascinating. The scientist in me is having the time of his life right now.

And, while we’re on the subject of my childhood, what about… Calvin and Hobbes?

Do I dare to dream about this? Or am I dumb to have not considered it until now?

Who the fuck knows. Maybe there is a reason I identified so strongly and personally with Calvin growing up. He was 6 when I was 5.

Nah, I don’t believe it. But the fact that I even need to consider this is kinda mind-boggling. Seriously, what even the fuck?

Am I alone in thinking that a 41 year old Calvin might basically be me, even in appearance?

Seriously- what?

Nah, that is a reach. As far as I know, Watterson isn’t connected to Disney.

So… yeah, that’s a no go.

Weird, though.

I suppose it’s just that since I don’t know how this happens, or who does this, or where my thoughts are even going, that it’s tough to know where this stuff ends.

But I mean… maybe. I guess.

Well, Cars though. Yeah.

Wow.

Toy Story.

Yeah, alright. Let’s pick this one apart, too.

I suspect most who saw this movie liked it and probably identified with it, too. But I’m wondering how many identified with it as strongly as I did and still do. Probably not many, maybe very few, for what might be obvious reasons to some.

I mean… yeah, I don’t know, but geez. As I said earlier I had a Mickey Mouse toy in my youth that I loved and treasured above all else. I still have it, downstairs.

Was that toy and how I played with it used as a template for Woody and his interactions with his owner? I wonder, honestly.

So weird, IDK. See I just rewatched parts of this movie and I had all of those toys, with a couple of exceptions, mostly because a few of the toys in the movie are similar but not same as others that I had. So weird, so weird. I don’t get it; I mean we already established that Disney was peeking in during my teen years, fine, but before then? I mean… how? Honestly?

I don’t know; it just seems impossible. I mean it is impossible, but then again, so is literally all of this. Everything I do for hours on a daily basis is technically impossible according to “modern science”.

I don’t know, this is just nuts. But it’s all there- the army guys, Mr. Potato Head, the space guy, the shuttle / rocket toy, the etch-a-sketch, etc. I mean I’m sure that millions of other kids had this collection, too, though- right? Or no? I don’t know, this stuff is really screwing with my head.

The evil kid “Sid” seems like a take on my cruel, dysfunctional neighbor that I had to play with sometimes. Seems, since I’m sure there are millions of kids like that out there.

I don’t know, I don’t know. I guess the question again is how early this stuff actually started. Did it truly reach back into my childhood or not? And if it did, how on Earth did that even happen?

And, then, the inevitable next question: Why me? Why was I chosen, as opposed to, IDK, the evil neighborhood kid I just talked about?

Someone must have figured out when I was very young that I had all of these latent psychic abilities. That is the only explanation that makes sense. But who, and where, and how?

Was it at Disney itself? During one of the family trips down to Disney World? Is that when it started?

Weird, so weird.

I mean, I don’t know about this one, at least not really, but geez, there are so many tells here.

And this whole concept of bringing toys to life- was I maybe actually doing that? I mean, it’s firmly established that I can bring my girlfriends to life with mere pictures. Could I maybe have been using my own life energy to bring my toys to “life”, back when I was a kid? It’s a fascinating idea, I think.

Maybe that’s how it started. I brought Mickey to life, and someone at Disney noticed, and this stuff started rolling downhill. I have no idea but it makes “sense”.

I mean… so many similarities, here, too. Really… crazy, really interesting.

So incredible.

This will require more thought.