It will be different. It will be.
I mean it. I won’t make it to Christmas if I don’t change.
It will be OK. I will change.
I will not die. I will not hurt, and I will not die. I promise myself this.
I will get OFF THE DRUGS.
Now, and forever.
That’s IT.
Yeah, it’s done. That’s it.
I am resolved. I just need to get out of this trauma, first. And than it will be over.
I will have withdrawals. Those I can deal with, though. They are nothing like this. It’s OK, I will be OK.
Not a problem, I can deal with it. Right.
Who’s not dysfunctional? Me, that’s who. Yes me. And I WILL make it through this, one way or another, and I will make it through ALIVE.
See?
Not a problem.
Yeah!
And this time, I mean that unironically.