I really really would kinda like to drown myself in narcotics. Like, really really badly. Super badly. Ultra badly.
Ahhhh yes, I REALLY want some. My head is throbbing, probably from withdrawals, and my breathing is getting shallower and shallower. Kinda sucks, but I do know how to fix it.
Ahhhh, fuck, fuck, this sucks. It’s reeeeally bad, altho not AS bad, so yeah, there you go.
But I do really, really need a fix, again. Really really. Super badly.
Uggghhk, that sucks. Ahhhk my hands, lol. Oh they feel so weird. They feel so bare. I need another hit, my nerves are acting up, again. Feel so cold, yuck.
I need that fentanyl. Such great stuff. So nice, so good, so warming and loving. Need it so much, right now. More than anything, more than life, more than… anything.
Oh yeah, need it bad. And it’s like I can’t think about anything else until I get it. This… sucks.
Like, I need to leave, so…
Oh, fuck it, I need to use, and I need to use NOW. Oh yeah, I need it, it’s very important, more important than anything, it’s absolutely essential. Fentanyl is so… everything, really, when it’s needed. It’s like I would die for it, lol. I REALLY need it, so fuck it.
Ok, then.
It’s great that I have such a control over all of this, it really is. Because it would be awful if I didn’t, you know? Fentnayl is again probably the most addictive substance on Earth, I’m told. But with my IQ- which, again, is up in the… you know, like it’s really high, I can… avoid… most of the… traps, and such, associated with use. I mean like, I’m REALLY good at managing this. Really good, great actually. I’m healthy, and stable. Right.
Ohhhh I’m really having trouble breathing, lol. So I’ll just take some and everything will be OK. Fentanyl is my friend, I know how to… manage… him, it… well. It’s Ok, weird my brain is slowing down. Wierd.
Ok, that’s enough, lol.
Oof.
Yeah, yuck, OOF, ahhhhh, ohhhh, jeez…. oh man. It’s like I can feel my nervous system curling up and going into “shutdown mode” again. Ooh, ye gods, that sucks. Oh, so awful, what the fuck even IS this, lol.
Ahhhhmmm… ah… ah… ahhhhhhhhh…
Ah… um… what the fuck… ah…
OK, FUCK THIS.
Ohhhh… yes… ok, then. Fentnayl taken.
YAY, LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So good, thank you god. Thank you thank you, so much, kind sir! Feel so good, feel so perfect, feel so ME.
Finally, thank you so much. Oh, my head, tho. LOL.
It’s ok. Whatever.
Ahhhh… um… ok, let’s wrap this one up.
Hmmmn… yeah.
sigh…