So I’ve been watching that music channel that features holiday songs, Sounds of the Seasons.
And oh man it’s just so good.
All Halloween, every day! Oh how I’ve missed that stuff! I can just feel myself slipping into some of my old ways here and it just feels so comfortable and awesome.
IDK, I guess I’ve been missing some stuff.
I’ve written down the names of all the songs I’ve been seeing there that are interesting, I guess to make my own playlists in the future, IDK. But I’ve also been combing the depths of my own mp3 collection for all of the old goth / death rock / gothic metal songs that I used to spin all the time, and my god, them’s some good music.
I need to look for more of this stuff, seriously. Newer stuff. It must be out there, I just need to find it.
I haven’t played an Alien Sex Fiend song in what feels like aeons. Misfits, Christian Death, Die Laughing, Birthday Massacre, Theatre of Tragedy, Athamay, Virgin Black, Seraphim Shock, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Lacrimosa, Lacuna Coil, Darkwell, Wumpscut, I mean… oh yes, I need this shit in my life, and I’ve been missing it.
So many other bands that I used to listen to, too. Too many to list.
Lordy, have I changed.
I’ve been spending my evenings lately watching Halloween episodes on Disney+, and swooning over my girlfriends, and… jeebus, is that really me? lol.
I mean… seriously, though.
What… happened?
When did I go from being the person I was twenty years ago to spending my evenings watching episodes of Austin and Ally? And actually enjoying them?
The mind boggles.
But, yeah, well. I watched a Halloween episode of Doug and saw my old bike, which is… actually very cool. I was searching the other day for pictures of it on google images and came up empty, so that was a pleasant surprise.
But I mean…
Yeah. Well.
I guess that people change, and the relationships they gain can led them into new places. And that can be a pretty great thing.
I’m not criticizing the person I am now. Really, I’m not. I’m just… wondering, I guess.
But I’ve resolved to watching a bunch of other Halloweeny stuff on Disney+ this year, including Girl vs. Monster, finally.
That one outa be reeeeeeal interesting.
Well, I also have my old Gothabilly and industrial compilations to spin yet. Will get to those.
Those were some fun days that I spent learning about all of this and listening to this music.
I also have an obscure compilation of death rock demo tapes that I’ll find. It has an early version of Romeo’s Distress on it that I find much better and more raw than the album version, if you can believe that. Good shit.
I might also reread Johnny the Homicidal Maniac and Squee. And maybe the other slave labor comics I have. IDK. But Johnny is important, as it’s… a part of me, that no longer… seems to exist? Kinda. Maybe.
Well… maybe that’s wishful thinking.
But of all the stuff that I inspired, that work seems to exist almost within it’s own realm. It’s an idiosyncrasy even within a culture of people that prize their individuality.
Yeah.
Things to ponder.
…….
I’m not going to end up destroying all of the stuff I set out to destroy, am I?
I guess not.
And I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.
Time will tell.