Honest question- is there anything out there more gross than pornography?
One of the benefits of getting older is I guess that you see the ugliness and dumbness inherent in so much of the stuff that passes for popular culture. It’s wonderful. It’s so freeing, so great, to just… not give a fuck.
It’s life changing, for the better. A revelation.
Before Christmas last year, I combed through the Apple TV archives, looking for interesting stuff. I was on Selena’s twitter back then and Apple TV was offering a deal of two free months for her fans, if they were to sign up for a trial, or something. So I thought about it.
I combed through all of Apple TV, and found… a lot of dull looking… stuff. Boring looking stuff, annoying looking stuff, dumb looking stuff, somewhat interesting looking stuff that I had already seen variations of before, and… the Selena documentary thing.
I was like… maybe I’ll sign up, just for the Selena thing. And then I forgot about the offer until after Christmas. When I looked it up again the offer had expired.
I mean… whatever.
It’s wonderful, isn’t it? The freedom to not give a fuck about dumb stuff anymore. It’s absolutely wonderful.
The only broadcast TV I watch is still the parade of idiocy that is MSNBC, when I watch it with my parents at dinner. It’s always unfailingly comical and stupid. Seriously- it’s really difficult to take literally any of this crap with a straight face. Everything is dumb- the guests are dumb, the anchors are dumb, the ads are dumb, the topics of the day are dumb, it’s literally an endless carnival of dumb, dumb, dumb.
And to think- MSNBC is supposedly smarter than CNN these days. At least, that’s what my parents think. They stopped watching CNN for MSNBC because, according to them, CNN was getting “too stupid”. And they’re not alone- the ratings for both channels seem to say that MSNBC is actually the “better” of the two channels. The mind boggles.
It’s wonderful, isn’t it? Not giving a fuck about any of this idiotic stuff. Honestly, getting older kinda kicks ass in some ways.
I feel now the same about top 40 radio. Seriously. I can’t muster up the energy to give a crap about… any of it. Last time I looked the charts were filled with a bunch of severely ugly people with nauseating face tattoos ranting incoherently about dumb stuff, and also a bunch of women singing about feminism or something like it. And the songs don’t even sound fun anymore.
Wonderful, again. The freedom- it’s just heaven on Earth.
I checked out of Taylor Swift after giving Reputation a listen. It was just horrifyingly bad, a catastrophic drop in quality after 1989. I had purchased all of her albums up to that one, but that one just… killed it, it was so dreadful. I never bothered after that point to look up any of her other stuff, except to try a few “Taylor’s versions” of a few of her old hits, only to find that they were basically the same as the older stuff, but maybe with tweaked production values.
Not worth investing time or money in, then. So I didn’t.
I’m not sure if I’m just… getting old, or what. But I mean… wow, is it just me, or does literally everything today look… unwatchable?
I’ve tried even looking at porn, online. All of it looked… boring, or ugly, or at worst, nauseating. None of it looked “hot”. At times there are different “sets” released of actresses and celebrities such doing sexual things with others, and they’re just… bad looking.
I’ve written before about this here, but I mean… yeah, I don’t find any of that interesting.
I just can’t be bothered to look at anything new. I still frequent message boards devoted to sexy celebrity content and literally nothing I see looks interesting anymore sexually, save for random pics of, IDK, Kathryn Newton. I can’t muster up the calorie of energy I would need to use to download any new “sex scenes” because it would be a waste of bandwidth and storage on my new machine. It’s just… yuck. I can’t help it, it all looks so fucking gross.
I’m sorry but I’m wayyyy too old, apparently, to find two ugly, talentless losers bumping uglies together “hot”. I can’t help it. There’s no glamour anymore. No mystery, and thus no excitement. It all just looks overwhelmingly pathetic.
Porn just sucks. Sex scenes suck, just… IDK, it all just sucks.
Out of sheer boredom I’ve decided to investigate more of the “hidden” world of celeb nudes. Gag. Hopefully I don’t find anything nasty enough to make me re-think my relationships.
It’s like… god, UGH. I’m going to have to hold my nose while combing through this awful crud, I’m sure. For every one interesting looking picture of some pretty actress I’m sure there’s going to be at least one of some ugly loser. Gag. I’ll keep a trashcan nearby in case I need to throw up at some point.
I really need something else to do with my time.
Lately I’ve been using my exercise bike for like 5, 6 hours a day. I’m just… bored, and the pilates wasn’t really doing the job, anyways, of getting to where I wanted to be. I just… hit another plateau.
And it’s just… ugh, but I really need something to do while I use the bike, and ugh, you can only play so many of those dumb mobile games before you want to throw your tablet across the room.
I dug out my old eReader the other day, though, and started to give The Adventures of Tom Sawyer another read. I haven’t read it since… IDK, honestly. But it was good, smart and very funny. Maybe I’ll just finish that instead of worrying about this other stupid garbage.
I do, though, want to look into the hidden celeb stuff, if only to verify to myself how awful and nauseating I suspect that stuff actually is. It’s going to be like… a car wreck, isn’t it? You just have to look.
Gag. I know that more shit is going to come out on Amazon Prime this year. I suppose I will at least look through it… I guess. But I mean, ugh. I already know it’s going to be bad, lol. A lot of dumb gay shit, some dumb trans shit, a bunch of dumb interracial shit, some really, really subpar looking fantasy and Sci-Fi, and a lot of other garbage I’m sure.
Well, there’s always 90’s stuff out there, somewhere.
Yuck. Well, at least I have my eReader.