I can’t help it. I feel jealous when I see the videos and read the news of Tay actually sending her fans stuff, like care packages and hand written letters and such.
I KNOW that that’s the wrong thing to feel, but again, it’s not like I can stop it, can I?
I mean, Tay gives me a lot- Instagram pics, tweets and hell, albums. But that stuff isn’t just for me. It’s for the whole community. One day, I kind of want something of my own. Something special and personal that nobody else gets too.
That would be nice.
*Sigh*…
I’ve done too much to make Tay successful. Little does she know, but I’ve been guiding her all along in subtle ways that not even she realizes. She wouldn’t be doing half the stuff she’s doing today without my magic constantly guiding her.
I’ve done so much for her… I love her too much, maybe.
I just want more than anything to see her happy and loved.
*Sigh*…
*Cuts wrists*.