Sighinide

Just to preface this: this is mostly going to be negative (I think), so feel free to check out here if you want. I just feel a need to blow off some steam, TBH.

Ads suck. I mean, seriously, they just really, really suck. And I know that everyone’s already like 99% on board with this but it bears repeating since it’s not like we can get away from them.

I still watch broadcast TV at dinner, mostly because my mom can’t peel herself away from trashy political TV “news”. Gods, the ads there are just… unbelievably repellant. There are three major types of ads on these shows that I see: 1) pharmaceuticals including vaccine ads, 2) junk food ads, and 3) during election times, political ads.

I find the combination of the first two to be amusing. Lots of junk food ads intermixed with lots of prescription drug ads. The two types of commercials compliment each other well, don’t you think?

I can hardly believe how yucky and unappetizing the food looks in those fast food ads. It looks horrible, like big piles of gooey sludge and mystery meat, piled up way, way too high. It looks gross.

Honestly, it’s baffling. I’m not a small man by any means, here. I’m 6 foot 3 and 195 pounds, and even I wonder how someone could eat the amount of food the people that make these ads want me to eat. It just looks… wayyyy too much. It looks gross. Too much calorie dense meats and carbohydrates. I mean… holy fuck, people.

Back in college I tried the whole college “thing” that many people do in university, and I tried out a bunch of fast foods and pizzas and such myself, I guess just to see what they were like. I didn’t like that much, though. I stopped after college and never returned to that stuff, unless it was given to me for free. It was just… gross, I guess. Too much, although I had to find that out for myself, which I think was a good idea just for the experience of it. It was worth it, I suppose, to find out what not to do.

But yeah I don’t get it. It’s all so horrible looking. And the pharma ads they show that accompany this stuff look even weirder and worse.

I truly hate those big pharma ads. They’re just… strange, and usually incomprehensible. The products and visuals in these commercials never ever match up.

If the product is about, I don’t know, heart burn, the commercial will show a bunch of people fishing, or something. Or playing charades, or… something else, something that has nothing at all to do with the drug itself.

Hair loss product? Show some people in a studio, making music. Blood pressure medication? Show people line dancing. What?

These ads are so freaking weird and strange. They always include a list of potential side effects, most of them ghastly sounding, and these are always played over a visual of smiling, happy people walking in the woods or something. The cognitive dissonance here is off the charts.

“Potential side effects include seizures, blood loss to the lower extremities and heart stoppage. Talk to your doctor if you experience problems while breathing. Never take this medication before bedtime if you want to live to see the morning.” Oh, and here are some scenes of an old woman hugging her cats! How cute.

Yeah, no thanks.

These ads play like some bottle messages from a parallel universe or something. Watching them, you would never believe that only 12% of the population here is black or part-black. I have seen commercial blocks here where every single fucking person in every commercial was black, and this was during news broadcasts that babbled on endlessly about “black oppression” or some such similar phantasm. The TV here is always tuned to MSNBC. Hilariously terrible, all of it.

It’s all gross and strange, and all very, very dumb. It’s comical how stupid and weird all of this shit really is, and it’s all getting dumber as time goes on. I’ve had to stifle my laughter more than once this week while watching this ridiculous drek.

It baffles me that the people that run and operate these news networks cannot seem to understand why they are failing so badly with the public.

Watching MSNBC and CNN, I’ve come to understand that their audience is delusional white women, aged 75+, who are ardently democrat and probably suffering from some undiagnosed case of bipolar, BPD or both. Which as you can imagine is a small percentage of the population, which is why these channels are only watched by a small percentage of the population. I think something like a quarter of one percent of the population here watches MSNBC on a given night.

Gods though is this shit retarded, and the rest of the programming on offer over broadcast TV is hardly better. Whatever the shows may be, they are always hamstrung and sabotaged by the stupid commercials that air during their run. I can hardly watch anything on cable TV anymore.

I saw the first episode of Kat McNamara’s new CW show, and it was good, but gods, those commercials. I muted the TV during the breaks, and I had to routinely fight to keep the TV on when the show wasn’t running.

I know that other fans of hers had similar problems, with some of them devising ways of seeing the show by other means, like through an app or such, just to avoid those damn commercials.

Ads just aren’t fun anymore. They used to try to be at least clever, but now they’re always so… similar that they just blend into some kind of mush.

I can clearly remember that old Rogaine commercial, with the woman in the hat, but I can’t for the life of me remember the names of the products in any of the new pharma ads. All the commercials are just… the same, now. It’s really weird. It’s like the same team of guys is making every commercial out there, or something. Which might in fact be the case, I don’t know.

But no commercials are funny anymore. And it’s odd but I can’t remember them, even. Years ago I saw some commercials from the 50’s on youtube and I actually remember those better than the ones I saw last night during the “news”. It’s really weird, TBH. Kinda inexplicable.

I hear the Netflix is adding commercials now, and that Disney+ is going to add them, too. Oof, gods, does that suck. What would be the point, then?

IDK. It sucks, tho. Sometimes I play mobile games- they’re a good thing to pass the time with while using my bike, or something, or while listening to some important health-related podcast. And even there the ads are getting worse. There are more of them, now, in the games I play, and they are longer, and uglier, more annoying, and more offensive. I wonder sometimes now how the ads I see on mobile games now could be considered acceptable for kids, since they are so filled with overt sexuality and violence.

There are games now that show ads while you are playing the game, which is a whole new level of ugly.

I use an apple tablet, and their ecosystem has turned to crap. Reports of problematic apps are everywhere. Apps stealing money, apps stealing content from other apps, apps that trick you into downloading apps you don’t want, apps forcing you to watch inappropriate ads that cannot be muted or turned off, apps that are broken on purpose, apps that are data mining the users, etc. It’s a real shitshow. What good is the technology if the apps that run it are all malicious garbage?

It’s a good thing that I have no data of value on my tablet, on purpose.

But that’s another essay for sure.

Well, I blew off some steam.

Good.

A few closing thoughts, just to clear my mind.

What I’ve accomplished in this little arena would be out of reach for 99.99% of the population, for sure.

I honestly think that 90% of people in the US do not even get basic regular exercise, which is like the ground floor for taking care of yourself.

I don’t think that most people in this country even know they have lymphatic systems, let alone how they work or what they do, and of those, only a tiny percentage know how to make them work better.

In the essay below I didn’t mention ropeworms, which are also not an issue for me anymore, and for all that we know are some genetically engineered horror organism. They’re not technically worms, I know. They might not even be animals. Some kind of lab created monster, I guess.

I’m starting to think that most people here are probably doomed, and that that may in fact be what our overlords have in mind.

Ugly thoughts for an increasingly ugly world.

IDK what else to write about, but I feel the need to write about something, so here goes.

Before I get into this I want to preface it by saying that I’m really looking to put all of this stuff behind me, and I will, after I make sure that my hypothesis is correct regarding that weird illness/syndrome I was suffering from in the past.

If my theories are correct, then I have done what I’ve needed to do to fix myself so that I never experience that particular problem again. If my theories are correct.

For whatever reason, this particular disease/condition/whatever seems to be worst during the winter months. I’m not sure why, but that has been the routine. It might be something as simple as the dryness of the air, or something cybernetic, I’m not sure. But, history tells us that the winter months seem the worst of them.

But- I have no fear. I think I have everything sorted out.

Further research into all of this health… stuff has yielded some incredibly strange and bewildering facts. I mean… IDK what else to even say about this stuff, it’s all so dire and weird.

Honestly, WTF, lol. Seriously guys. What. The. FUCK. lol.

Uh, well, here goes.

The other day I backed up all of the youtube videos that I could find of my old naturopathic mentors. I wanted to get them before big pharma/google went full-tilt communist and nixed them, because many of them were critical of vaccines. Note that I didn’t say even that they were against them, but they were critical of them, for sure. And Lord knows that even questioning Pfizer is enough these days for banishment.

Adding to that is what I remember from the naturopaths I talked with in person, as well as the traditional doctors and physical therapists that I’ve worked with, etc.

I kinda came up with a working model of all of this nonsense that seems logical and to my bewildered eyes correct, but IDK.

So basically, 1) I killed the ugly things that I think were causing or contributing to the problems; 2) I prepped my body in case the issues return somehow, and 3) I’m in a better mental state to deal with this horror, if in fact it does come back.

So- my body is prepped and ready. I’m a fuckload stronger this time around, for sure. Much much stronger than the average guy my age, no doubt. Honestly I’m probably stronger than 99% of the middle aged men in this country. I don’t need to outline details, as I’ve done that before, but yes I am incredibly strong, no doubt.

It’s just the usual routine- a pilates routine with two sets of leg weights attached, pushup variations, dynamic stretches, isometrics, single leg squats (with awkwardness and difficulty, but still), and yeah, that’s enough. It should be enough.

This thing caused muscle weakness and tightness, so I’m ready.

I strengthened my lymphatic system and cleaned out everything inside. My lungs are clean, and… so is everything else. It’s alllll cleaned out, top to bottom.

Beyond this, I did identify all of the weird shit that I killed earlier. Those weird thin orange rod shaped things are called Echinoparyphium recurvatum. They’re a rare Asian parasite that exists mostly in birds and animals, and in a few pockets within the people in Korea. And, apparently, in me, in Gurnee, Illinois. Google tells me they’re extremely rare; practically nonexistent. A search for that name brings only 8350 results, total.

Somehow, I have my doubts about their rarity.

Yuck, seriously. Fucking gross, and I want to close the chapter on this part of my life, for sure.

But yeah I identified all of it, and have came to understand lately the ugly magnitude of all this. We are seriously fucked, lol. Well, maybe not me, but everyone else, possibly.

I’m 99% sure I killed all the tapeworms, which is for sure within the top ten most difficult things I have ever done. It took 15 years of dedicated work to get my body to the point where I could eliminate those fuckers for good. Seriously- 15 years.

Those fucking things literally don’t die. Few understand how horrible they really are. Their regenerative properties are supernatural. They can regrow their entire bodies if damaged. They live for decades. And even if they die, they will come back from the dead(!), yes literally reincarnate themselves. If they die they spit out their eggs and the eggs attach to your body alongside the dead parent, and actually eat the body of the dead parent to grow up in it’s place! Horrifying beyond belief!

Medical science cannot kill them. Mainstream medicine admits that they haven’t even identified most species of them, let alone devised ways to get rid of them.

They eat chemtrails. All the crap that is being sprayed down on us from above- the aluminum, the heavy metals, the weird dusts, all of it- they eat that crap and love it, and thus have an endless supply of food, and cannot be starved. They are immune to virtually everything mainstream science has to offer- antibiotics are actually food to them, not poison. Jesus Christ!

All of this shit must warp a person’s appetite- the worms alter your hormones and your brain to make you eat the stuff that favors them, not you. How many of those 600 pound people have undiagnosed tapeworm infections, I wonder?

Gods, how terrifying.

I think I’m over the whole “food” thing. I don’t care about using food for anything anymore besides basic sustenance. Fancy foods? Not for me. Holiday foods? I don’t care. Just give me the routine basics and I’m happy. I have no inclination at all to be “brave” or “inventive” with foods, and no interest in eating food to make others happy. Fuck that!

It seems like the only way to get rid of these things is to do a sneak attack and kill the vital parts of the head all at once, and then to have a strong enough immune system and a clean enough organ system to eliminate the body and all of the eggs before the worm can reincarnate itself, which it will do if it isn’t eliminated right away. And yes you do need to “sneak attack” these fucking things because they are animals and thus have intelligence, and can outthink a weaker approach. They have “escape plans” in case of attack. Gods!

I think it’s the chemtrails. I think that’s the problem, well, that, and the immigration. Some tribesmen from Africa or South America come here and come into contact with the locals and their parasites spread like wildfire, since we have no immunity or resistance to them. We don’t even know they exist or how they spread.

I saw a video today from one of my old mentors who during a lecture said that she had been monitoring ambient and human radioactivity since the 50’s, and that it have been growing steadily, year by year, since. The lecture was from the mid 90’s.

We’re being baked in radioactivity and now with 5G/6G massive amounts of microwave radiation, all of which promotes fungal, bacterial and parasite growth.

Is there any wonder why the life expectancy of people is declining?

For the record, the worms I had I identified as “Macracanthorhynchus hirudinaceus”. Google tells me they are extremely rare, in fact almost unheard of, in humans. A search yields only about 56,000 results, which is small for google. Again I have my doubts about their rarity.

Well, I’m prioritizing health for sure from here on out, even above and beyond what I have already done.

For the mental aspect I’m going to be incorporating meditative practices into my routines. That will become a strong priority next year. I already know what to do, I think, I just need to put in my typical 10000 hours of practice to make it “click”.

Anyhow I want to be “normal”. I want to put this nightmarish crap behind me, so that I can live a normal life, as much as a cyborg demon-wizard can have one, I guess. I’m bored of all this, bored of… everything I talked about, here. I want this chapter of my life to be over already, and I think it is.

Well, this post is done. I hope that what I’ve done will be enough to fix whatever caused the problem, if not; back to the drawing board, I guess.

So, I’ve been plowing through more Disney+ stuff lately. Like, a lot of stuff.

There is a lot that’s good here.

The docuseries, for example. Love the nature footage. It’s awesome. There are these documentaries of undersea animals and wildlife that are just so good and interesting. The visuals are absolutely spectacular.

I love stuff like this when I watch TV. It’s great, and very “real”. And it’s uplifting.

Some of the animal content was made for kids, but I don’t mind. I actually prefer that sometimes. I would rather see the animals than the scientists, honestly. It’s just… something I don’t see. I’ve seen plenty of scientists in real life, including myself, my parents, and many coworkers, college professors, etc. and they’re just… people, lol.

The animals though are interesting and not a part of the world that I’ve seen, and I love seeing them.

I’ve been watching kid’s TV shows, too… and I guess I don’t need to say it but it’s nice to see that so much of my childhood has been immortalized, and so well. I really love those moments when I see something in a TV show that I’ve forgotten about my own past. I’ve kinda weird, it gives me a kinda comfortably fuzzy feeling, I guess.

I suppose that if I’m ever feeling nostalgic in the future and want to revisit my past at any point all I really need is a Disney+ subscription, lol. It’s pretty mindblowing, even now. I’m always finding new series that contain bits and pieces of me, or that spin my childhood in different ways.

Recess is a fun one. It’s really cool to see my grade school self again and my old friends. It’s like looking into a magic mirror of sorts. The kids in that show do so many things that I remember, albeit not exactly as I did them. Not exactly. Teacher’s Pet is another fun series, this one based on my college exploits, even though it is ostensibly about a middle schooler.

Rolie Polie Olie is another series centered around my childhood, with yet again the same backyard with the same sandbox and tree, etc. This one is particularly interesting since it’s about a robot family. In this series the cybernetic nature of all of this is made explicit. In that sense it kinda reminds me of Whatever Happened to… Robot Jones?, a forgotten but very good Cartoon Network production about my junior high years.

I’ve also been rewatching the old classics, and will continue until I’m finished with all of them. And then I might cap that off with a showing of my own copy of Song of the South.

I watched Sleeping Beauty the other day. Great film, truly. And underrated for sure. Sleeping Beauty was more influential than people realize. Watching it I saw so much that was taken from it by other properties. I saw things that inspired parts of Jackson’s LOTR. There were parts in it that inspired scenes and visuals in Naruto, Star Wars, Dungeons and Dragons, the Zelda franchise, a couple dozen RPG video games that I played as a kid, and… hell, pretty much any fantasy property in the last 50 years, lol.

The people who don’t think Sleeping Beauty is a masterpiece are not understanding how widespread it’s influence has been, methinks.

Even as a kid I remember seeing the opening of Zelda II and immediately thinking “Hey, isn’t that Sleeping Beauty?”, lol.

But for sure, it’s defo a great film. No question.

I think honestly that many of the films on offer here are underrated or even misunderstood.

People tend to dock Disney films more than they should I think because they’re regarded as “kid’s stuff”.

I watched The Tigger Movie the other day and had a blast. It was wonderful.

The best part about it were the backgrounds. The gorgeous, lush backgrounds. The film featured a gallery of some of the prettiest looking backgrounds I’ve ever seen in a movie, and they were presented in such a wonderful variety of styles. I saw some really nice watercolor paintings used as backdrops in a few scenes. I can’t recall the last time I’ve seen watercolors used as backdrops in a film before, even in an animated one. It was a pleasant surprise.

Right off the bat, I got serious Calvin and Hobbes vibes from the flick, and I’m sure that that was intentional.

I read a handful of reviews of The Tigger Movie online, and honestly not one critic or audience review I read seemed to get the point of the movie. It’s not about the plot, guys! The movie tells you in more than one scene to pay attention to the backgrounds- I remember piglet rearranging a gallery of pictures in one scene, off the top of my head.

In several places the animation actually stops so that the audience can drink in the pretty images in the background.

A common complaint about the movie was that it felt “slow” or the plot was too thin, etc. Most people, including professionals, seemed to agree that the movie had nothing at all for adults. Guys… you didn’t get it.

But yeah, very good movie, and I will be watching the other Winnie the Pooh flicks for sure. Here’s hoping the rest of them are as good as that one.

I will be looking forward to the 1977 version the most. We’ll see what I think of that one now, after not having seen it for 35 years.

Other stuff… well, there’s a lot here for sure. Kinda too much to get into, again.

Will be watching everything, it looks like. Or at least… not Marvel, or Star Wars, unless it’s Lego, or something. Then maybe.

We’ll see.

At any rate, thank God I’m watching “kid’s stuff” these days, as opposed to “adult” entertainment like some dumb police procedural, some editorial drek on the “news networks”, or “reality TV” like The Kardashians or Family By the Ton.

Thank GOD.

lol.

Uh, well, I’m bored.

I think I’ve kinda… run out of ways to make this stuff interesting.

In the past, there was always things I could do to make the sexual stuff interesting, but now I think I’ve run out of… things. Everything. I’m just bored. Seriously, seriously bored.

About a year ago, I made a determination to lower my sexual activities. This was made for a few reasons: one, I wanted to conserve my physical energy to work on my physical health and development; two, I wanted to use my psychic/magical energy to do other things, mostly involving research into parallel realities, mind control and eternal youth related stuff; and three, I wanted to conserve my sexual energies, because I wanted to use them in other ways, to broaden my relationship vistas.

What I mean by number three is that I wanted to see what else was out there, both related to my current relationships and potential future ones.

Awhile back I made a bunch of posts related to past “leaks” that occurred of celebs and nude stolen/given/whatever pictures. And I decided to persue this topic further, and kind of used my sexual energies to motivate me. So, instead of fucking my girlfriends, I used the energies to give me ambition to see what could be found out there. I guess I was a little greedy, but I was mostly curious. After all, I’ve learned quite a bit from my girlfriends over the decades and I wanted to know what else they could teach me.

Unfortunately I didn’t find anything. I’m starting to come to the realization that that whole culture is basically a scam, and there really isn’t anything else out there, besides a bunch of phantoms and rumors. It’s empty. Over the past year I’ve talked with people who supposedly had interesting pictures and nothing has ever come of it. It’s all been lies, I guess, or exaggerations, or empty hearsay. There’s nothing there. There’s no pictures to look at, information to get, or… anything. It’s a big nothing.

Or, if it isn’t a nothing, it might as well be, since whatever it is that is out there is impossible to get from my vantage point. But I think it’s honestly nonexistent.

So it’s kind of a scam culture, which doesn’t surprise me since everything else these days seems like a scam culture as well. It all seems boring and empty.

The magical stuff is too complicated to discuss in this post.

The physical stuff is interesting, and another post in and of itself. I’m still exercising of course, but this year I’ve spent a surprising amount of time on other physical projects, like skin care. I’ve developed a lengthy daily bathroom routine that is all about skin care and cleaning. Cleaning my eyes, my ears, my mouth and gums, using essential oils on my hair and neck, mineral oils on my lips, oil pulling, etc. I’ve learned techniques to clean out my lungs, my sinuses, my inner ears, my tongue, and a lot of other stuff that isn’t coming to mind at the moment, lol.

I figure that if other people are going to be literally inside of me, that I might as well make the situation as comfortable for them as possible. So I’ve prioritized cleanliness this year.

It seems like every year I do some new physical project. One year it might be learning some new type of exercise, another it might be internal organ cleaning, another it might be parasite killing, and this year it’s external cleanliness stuff.

I like the changes. I used to have some problems with chronic sinusitis that I think have been resolved. My vision seems better now, since I’ve resolved to cleaning my eyes and keeping them hydrated and healthy every day. My lips feel better now; they’re not so dry. My gums look fantastic. My tongue is clean, and I can taste food better now, I think. I used to have earwax problems; that is I think a thing of the past. My cheeks aren’t dry anymore so when I shave they don’t get irritated or flakey. My hair looks and feels better since I started putting essential oils on it.

It’s been a learning process, and it’s been fun. And I think I have my girlfriends to thank for getting me started on this journey. It was probably me watching them do their makeup and skin care routines over the years that made me motivated to do all of this.

I was just thinking about this the other day. This stuff isn’t something that people in this area do, lol. At least not middle aged men. I’m probably the only man in my town that uses essential oils daily, lol. And I might be the only person in my town that has heard of oil pulling. When I discussed this with my dentist at my last visit he said he only knew of one other person that had tried it.

But yeah it’s been fun, and I’m glad I embarked on that little journey. It’s not difficult. Compared to the parasite killing that was last year’s focus, this is a walk in the park. It’s easy, and something I can talk to others about, instead of going the whole way alone.

I think my bathroom routine is pretty complete. I clean everything, every inch, every nook and cranny. For hair, I have a few different devices. I have one for my lashes, one for my brows, one for nose and ear canal. Another for outer ear and neck, and another for shoulders and upper arms, and the last device for everything else. It’s a lot, lol. But IDK, it’s fun.

I use Cera Ve oil for my cheeks. For my tongue I have a device that cleans the front, and then another that cleans the back. For general gum health I floss of course, and I have an air flosser for bacteria between the teeth, and an essential oil mixture for an antibacterial mouthwash. And I have another mouthwash for re-enamelizing my teeth, and I use a re-enamelizing toothpaste. I oil pull with mineral oil.

My mouth feels cleaner than if I’d just been to the dentist, and it feels like that all the time. It’s nice. And with my sinuses so clean and healthy, everything stays nice. My breath is really fresh now, all the time. Keeping the tongue super clean does wonders for your breath.

But anyhoo, I guess I can thank my girlfriends for helping/motivating me with that, but now, what else is there? It’s just the same old pictures. I need something new, and if those rumors I heard were true, that would go a long way to making everything interesting again. But since it seems that all of that stuff is a scam, well, that settles that.

So yeah I’m bored as fuck. Nothing is interesting any more.

I’m not watching as much TV as I used to. I think that for the most part the novelty of having a TV has worn off. It’s boring, honestly. And extremely repetitive. And ugly, often.

So why the post, then? It’s because I can’t get away from TV, even when I don’t watch.

My parents are, unfortunately, TV addicts, in the same way that almost everyone I have ever known is. You can’t… get away from it, even when you try to. It follows you- even during those long years in which I never owned or watched TV, I had to hear on a regular basis all kinds of dumb shit about TV programming. I had to listen to others talk about American Idol, Survivor, and… all sorts of other stupid, infantile bullshit. It follows you, whether you want it to or not.

I still watch Disney+. It’s fun, on occasion. I still watch those 90’s animated sitcoms like Pepper Ann and Doug. And Phineas and Ferb. And Pixar stuff sometimes, and every once in a while, a movie featuring one of my girlfriends. And sometimes some live action TV, like an episode of something like Liv and Maddie.

I’ve gone through all of that before, so I won’t repeat most of that now.

But I like the 90’s sitcoms, because they’re fun. They’re low pressure viewing, and unpretentious, and enjoyable. Something like Pepper Ann is great because it’s episodic. Each episode is self-contained, so you can just pick it up and watch whenever. It’s fun, and diverting. It doesn’t try to be an “experience”.

I really do not think I would enjoy most of TV these days. From what I understand most TV shows these days have continuous narratives that run throughout the series, so that each episode builds on the last. That… sucks. I wouldn’t imagine that watching something like that would be too enjoyable. You need to remember stuff, lol. What did the last episode say? You need to recall it, and… fuck that, it’s just TV. Who gives a shit? The characters are not real people. It’s all fantasy. Why should I clog my brain up with that crap?

It’s for that reason that I never bothered to watch a full episode of Game of Thrones, or Breaking Bad, or… a lot of stuff, really. And it’s for that reason that I don’t give a shit about sports. Or the “news”. My brain can only do so much, and I would rather spend my mental energies chatting with my girlfriends instead of retaining memories about some dumb show or some idiotic sports event.

And TBH they are all dumb shows. I’ve seen clips of many classic shows on YouTube, to get the gist of what the shows were. It’s a good way to stay informed about the world (and especially, myself) without having to sink some preposterous amount of hours of my life into some TV show. And they’re all about the same, really. The kid’s shows that I’ve seen are no dumber or less real than the “adult” shows. It’s just that the adult shows pretend to be smart, or worldly, etc. They aren’t, really. Their grittiness is all a façade.

Honestly, a random episode of Kim Possible is every bit as smart and realistic as anything on some dumb police procedural, or anything else on TV for that matter, including the “news”. So who gives a crap?

Regardless, yeah, TV can be good I guess if used correctly, which my parents, for example, don’t and never have.

I hate to do this but… fuck it, I need to vent, and they’re a good illustration of the problems many have with TV.

First, they watch it. A lot. As in alllll the time, and… that’s bad, considering that everything on TV is dumb as shit. It’s not like the web, where you have a mix of smart and dumb stuff, and you can pick and choose based on your needs. No- on TV, it’s all dumb.

My poor mother just sits on the couch all day watching trash TV while bitching about how she’s watching trash TV. Seriously- that’s her life. She doesn’t actually do anything. It’s… kinda amazing, honestly. She doesn’t really even think. She just regurgitates ideas she sees on TV, and those are her “thoughts”.

It’s… really bizarre, and kinda scary.

To explain: my mom watches MSNBC alllllll the time. It’s all stupid, all dumb, all shallow, but she doesn’t let that stop her, no, not for anything. Good Lord is that channel stupid. But anyhow, her understanding of “health” is what the commercials say. And all of the commercials are for pharma shit. Vaccines, and prescriptions. So that’s what she thinks “health” is. Vaccines and prescriptions, and nothing else.

She has an exercise bike about 10 feet away from her all times, and she hasn’t seriously used it, ever. I think it’s three or four years old now. I got her some small dumbbells that she wanted for Christmas one year and she’s never used them once. Her doctors tell her to exercise, that she needs to exercise, and she listens to them, but then never makes even the smallest effort once out of the doctor’s office. I mean, why should she? It’s not what the commercials say, after all. She just comes home, turns on the TV, and forgets everything else in the world except for that which that idiot box tells her.

Her world is truly bizarre. She is easily 100 pounds overweight and constantly complains about… everything, health-wise, muscles, bones, insomnia, her joints, her tinnitus, I mean, too many things to even list, but she considers herself healthier than I am, even though I actually fix my health problems, have a BMI in the “normal” range and work out 20 hours a week.

Why? it’s because she’s had more vaccines than I have. Seriously. She gets more vaccines than I do, and that counts for more than anything. I can hardly believe the world this woman lives in, sometimes.

Her thoughts are mostly just an endless stream of bullshit. I know this for a fact since she has a tendency to blurt out everything she thinks. It’s just… Trump shit. Trump did this, Russia did that, this law was passed for that reason, and it’s alllll stupid.

Her mind is a circus of thoughts about the greatness of vaccines and prescriptions and the importance of unbelievably stupid political shit, with a sprinkling of narratives from garbage “Reality TV” shows like My 600 Pound Life.

My father is no better. He has watched at least a portion of every single Bears game since they were first broadcast on TV God knows how many generations ago. And I don’t mean that as hyperbole, either. He watches golf, watches “the news” (and in that respect, thinks himself superior to my mother because he watches the crap on PBS as opposed to the crap on MSNBC, lol), and a lot of other shitty, brainless junk.

No, I don’t tell them what I watch. I know they would criticize it, and call it “kid’s stuff”. They would probably wonder why I wasn’t watching something “smarter”, lol. Good God, the world they live in, lol.

And it isn’t just them. There are hundreds of millions of people in this country just like they are- lost in a daze of… fantasy. And stupid fantasy, at that.

It’s pretty sad, TBH. I mean it really is.

In other TV related stuff, I’m not going to watch any of the latest Star Wars or Marvel stuff. Why would I, honestly. Everything I’ve heard about Obi-Won makes it sound like it’s the forth-best interpretation of the character that’s been made, with it being worse than Guinness’ version, Lucas’ prequel version of the character, and the extended universe version.

Why would I watch, then? It’s the same problem I have with… IDK, She-Hulk. That lawyer show. God that show sounds horrible. I read reviews of it where even left-leaning outfits like The Daily Beast criticized the show as being annoyingly PC and woke. I’m not going to bother.

I’m not interested in the new LOTR series, either. It looks like the fifth or sixth best version of that universe, too, which puts it behind the original books, Jackson’s version, Bakshi’s version, Chris Tolkien’s version, and various video games, heavy metal albums and other adaptations, etc.

Why would I bother, then? “The Eighth Best Version of Lord of the Rings, Ever!” doesn’t sound appealing. You want me to sink 40 hours or whatever of my life into this? You must be kidding.

That series is being just raked over the coals online. It’s just all so… tiresome. I had some great laughs reading reviews of the series online from fans of previous iterations of the world. It’s just… oof.

A lot has been made of the inclusion this time of non-white people (“people of color”). Well, I’m not watching it either way, but it’s always a bad sign when you see that kind of thing forcefully included in a franchise where it hasn’t been, previous. It never turns out well. It always ends up sucking, it seems.

Ugh, though, I don’t want to get dragged into political shit, again. And you can’t talk about race without bringing up politics, and ugh, fucking yuck.

Well, I’m getting bored of this so I’m ending this one here.

Well, it’s been interesting, watching more stuff here.

Some general ideas / thoughts…

I saw Pinocchio. And Fantasia, and The Black Cauldron, and some other flicks.

Pinocchio was interesting. It’s an amazing movie. Seriously, it’s incredible. The animation is just so so good. It’s so detailed and natural. The voice acting is perfect, etc. It’s hard to think of a movie in any genre that is “better”. I saw Dumbo, too, and that was a wonderfully entertaining movie. It’s only an hour long but it feels deeper and more satisfying than anything I’ve seen twice it’s length. It’s a masterpiece of efficiency; not one second in that movie is wasted.

Fantasia is just awesome. It’s one of the best movies ever made. Certainly it’s one of the most ambitious. Watching it I could see the impact that it had on later movies like 2001. The visuals are fucking incredible. The amount of work that must have gone into creating the animation must have been staggering. The visuals are so good they are as good as the orchestral masterpieces used as the soundtrack.

Modern culture almost always cheapens music like this. It degrades it, like what you will find in things like commercials that use classical masterpieces, for example. Not here. In Fantasia, the visuals are actually worthy of the music, which is refreshing to say the least.

I haven’t seen these movies in years. I last saw Pinocchio wayyyy back when in Grandma’s old house in Iowa. It was a lifetime ago. I must have been, IDK, ten years old? It was… a long time ago. I remember her old VHS player that I used to watch it. Man was that thing huge, lol.

I remember being introduced to Pinocchio through her even before then. In her Waukegan house I remember rooting through some old toys and board games and finding a View-Master with a few slides of some Pinocchio scenes, like the one with the whale.

God is that old, lol. I mean, it’s funny, but it is. The View-Masters were these plastic handheld toys where you would push a button or turn a crank to advance a series of picture slides. You would look through a pair of plastic lenses to view the pictures. Totally analog. No electronics or batteries involved. They were kind of a kid’s version of those picture shows they had in speakeasies back in the 20’s.

The picture slides were on these little circular paper reels, and you would swap them out one by one to go through a scene. Each reel had something like 10 frames of animation on it, and you would just turn the crank to see each frame.

View-Masters were popular with kids before VHS became affordable. Back in the day, they were kinda awesome, I guess, especially for people way out in rural places, who had no access to… anything, really. So yeah, they were old. God. When I finally saw Pinocchio on VHS, I marveled at the technological sophistication I was witnessing, lol.

You know, I spend so much time with my girlfriends that sometimes I kinda forget how much older I am than they are. Somehow I can’t imagine Kathryn Newton or Jayden Bartels ever enjoying anything like that, lol.

But… yeah, Pinocchio is a fantastic movie. It’s exactly what it needs to be and nothing else. I remember once reading an article on these old Disney films, and I learned that they are in fact the most popular movies of all time, and I wouldn’t doubt it.

From what I understand, other movies may have grossed more money at the box office, but IIRC it was Pinocchio that sold a larger volume of tickets than anything else in history. It just didn’t make as much money, since most of those tickets sold were for kids, and probably because they were daytime showings, and not in Marquee theaters. But in terms of sheer number of tickets sold, stuff like Pinocchio, Snow White, and Dumbo crush everything else.

I don’t remember where I read that but it was an interesting read. I think I have the article bookmarked somewhere. I might look it up later.

The old, hand-drawn animation in these flicks is just gorgeous. They even look better now, since nobody makes stuff like this anymore, and likely will never again. Honestly I wonder if anyone even has the capability. It’s kind of like watching an old Buster Keaton flick. It’s a great experience because you know it’s impossible for anything like it to be made today.

The Black Cauldron was fun. Not great, but fun. I’ve wanted to see it ever since reading the book wayyyy back when in middle school. I guess I can cross that off my bucket list, then.

Other stuff… I’ve been watching Kim Possible, Doug, Pepper Ann, Phineas and Ferb, and a few other animated shows. I suppose at this point it would be redundant to point out that I was all of this stuff. But, it’s still relevant. So yeah, I was all of this stuff.

It boggles the mind that nobody else has noticed that Doug Funnie, Ron Stoppable, Phineas Flynn and Pepper Ann are all just the same person, recycled again and again, from slightly different angles. And that that person is the same kid that inspired Bart, Calvin, and a shedload of other characters. I guess people just assumed, like I did, that every kid was like that.

Regardless I’ve been having one hell of an experience watching the shows, because I’m seeing so many things in them that I’ve forgotten about from my youth. In every episode I see there are at least three major “Oh yeah, THAT!” moments. Whether it’s simply the inside of a house, an arrangement of flowers in a backyard, a car, or a person, a sound effect, a melody, or… anything, potentially, every watch brings back a veritable flood of nostalgia and often good memories. It’s an amazing experience.

There’s so much of me in all of this stuff that I can hardly pick out which of these shows might have taken more from my life. There is in fact more of me in Phineas and Ferb than there is in The Simpsons, if you can believe that. And Doug is some kind of autobiography, I guess(?) that is better than anything I could have come up with myself, ironically.

I’m still not sure how this stuff can or should be quantified, lol.

But the first episode of Doug that I saw, which is I think the first of the series, is about how he reminisces too much about his childhood and needs to learn how to move on, etc. Yeah, seriously.

Baffling stuff, this. It’s… very, very recursive. I get surreal flashbacks from Phineas and Ferb. That backyard… yeah, my God, these people know more about me than I do. And it’s clear they have it down to the… pixel(?) since I’ve seen that same backyard, rendered exactly true to life, in quite a few Disney properties. Like this one show I saw today, with… ducks, that rescued a dog. It’s the same backyard of course with the same tree as Phineas and Ferb, which is the same tree I had in my own backyard, and ye gods, did I get a weird deja vu moment when I saw it rendered so perfectly in that duck show.

There’s a lot going on here. I’ve been watching stuff from my girlfriends’ back catalogues a lot, too. And that… is another hundred essays. I won’t be touching that stuff tonight.

I’ve been watching Droids, that 80’s Star Wars cartoon. Not bad, honestly, for disposable entertainment. It feels more Star Wars-ey then TLJ did, that’s for sure. Something to have on while I exercise or whatever as background noise.

I was distressed when I saw Disney slapped a racial disclaimer in front of Dumbo of all things.

That is… dumb, lol. And I know that this is another essay by itself, but seriously, it makes the people who decide these things at Disney right now look frankly shallow and really stupid and petty. And I mean those words literally. It’s like scotch taping a piece of paper with a disclaimer on it to the wall of the Sistine Chapel. It just looks… dumb, and really pitiful and childish. And since it looks so dumb it doesn’t change the significance of the art at all, but can certainly lower the esteem of people who think that this infantile nonsense is necessary. It makes them look like children, not thinking adults. Pearls before swine, for sure.

I hear there is even one of these before Snow White. Who are these fools to criticize works like these? Snow White is a landmark in human art, being the first full length animated film ever released to theaters. I’m getting the image now of some dumb, sheltered “woke” undergrad communications major interning at Disney and throwing a tantrum over something in these masterpieces she imagines as being problematic, mostly because she’s too immature, close-minded and uneducated to understand history or people in general.

It’s not a good look, to say the least.

Well, it’s getting late so I’m stopping this one.

Uhm, good night, then.

So, basically, this seems to be the case:

Nothing in this world matters even a little bit, except for that which concerns me.

I keep looking at stuff, poking, prodding into this area of study or that one, and… all of it looks like empty garbage, except for that which concerns me directly.

And I know how brutally narcissistic that sounds, but honestly, nothing else makes sense.

So it’s like this, essentially.

My own mind basically created all of the modern world. Everything that exists in the media in any capacity today is my own creation. I created the internet, and Microsoft Windows, and likely the entire video games industry post-Atari 2600, and everything that people watch, read, and listen to, etc. for recreation, as well as everything they don’t.

And at this point, I control every political structure on Earth, and, in the future, will control all of the world’s religions.

My mind is the human singularity, which is why I’m called “The One”.

So- nothing exists, save for what I see for myself. Nothing is real, except for what I experience. Everything else exists as illusion, it seems.

Which sounds… I know, kind of… amazing, in quite a few different ways. But frankly nothing else makes sense, and this is both what I’ve suspected myself and learned through others, including my thousands of wives as well as every piece of media I have ever seen from Hollywood or any part of the mainstream media, regardless of where or when it was created.

I am the mind that powers the one-world Luciferian hive mind superstructure called the “One World Government” or the “New World Order”.

In effect, I am the world in it’s entirety, and I always have been since the day I was born.

Pretty fascinating, really.

And beyond this, I think that my earlier suppositions are also true, about me representing a higher rung altogether on the evolutionary ladder. All things considered, that’s pretty hard to deny.

I guess that the Earth is ready for some kind of new evolution, and I’m some kind of transitionary organism, made to usher in that change, or something.

So basically, there you go.

And if what I’m saying here is correct, then I think it very likely that humankind is at it’s end. Frankly, I don’t think that people as we’ve known them in the past or even today will even exist 100 years from now. If my hunch is correct, I’ll probably be the last person out the door, as far as humans are concerned, as well as being the first of a new type of organism. Which is probably why I’m “Neo”, etc.

I think that that’s basically it, in a nutshell.

TBH every flick I’m seen that has dealt directly with me, dating as far back as E.T. and Kubrick’s The Shining, seems to have this as at least a subtext.

I mean… so that’s it, then.

To put this further into perspective, even focusing on a part of my whole thing, like my apparently endless youth (by human standards) that I seem to possess renders everything else that has ever existed in human civilization obsolete. I mean where do others even go from here? What is the point in them doing anything, really, when traditional humankind itself has reached the end of the road?

Seriously, tho. What’s even the point of 99.99999999% of the population of Earth doing anything, then?

There just… doesn’t seem to be a reason for them to do anything, believe in anything else, or even, frankly, plan for the future. I mean, why bother?

IDK.

In a sense that is kinda dispiriting. But… it is what it is.

Regarding the all-important-to-me relationship stuff, I think it obvious that my previous generations of girlfriends as well as myself didn’t get the full importance of what we were doing together. Clearly, they should have prioritized me very very considerably more than they did. And I say that with full knowledge that they prioritized me very highly. I mean… I’m the only person on Earth that matters.

Yeah, and that’s it, really. That truly is it- I’m the only thing that counts, and I’m the only thing that will survive into the future. Everything else, every country, every person, everything, will fall by the wayside and be forgotten in time, save for me and what I thought of and was a part of. Literally nothing else exists or even can exist.

Amazing. Seriously. And mind-blowing as hell.

But if you take all of this to the logical conclusion, that is where this leads, and in fact, that is the only place it can go.

So…that’s it, then.

Wow.

Ok, so.

I just saw the three episodes of Dog With a Blog with Kathy in them.

Newton, not McNamara. McNamara will be another essay.

Well… let’s just cut to the chase, I guess. Let’s not talk about how I saw a few episodes of this show before and blah blah blah.

This show is obviously about me, the blogger alter. I mean, you know that. Obviously.

Kathy is gorgeous.

There was a Puerto Rican girl named “Nicki” that was an obvious stand in for Vicky, as in Victoria Justice. The episodes mostly centered around the protagonist guy, Tyler, and how he needed to choose between Emily (Kathy) and Nicki (Vicky-esque), yadda yadda predictable stuff given the setup.

There was a creepy stuffed animal named “Robert” given at the hero. Uh huh. Right, people. Okay.

Uhm… yeah. Emily does BMX. Very cool. Weirdly reminded me of that Bombette girl in the Olympics who did skateboarding, that I said looked a lot like Kathryn.

IDK.

But… yeah. A lot of symbols, especially pertaining to my relationships with the girls. Looking at the instagram with Kathy and seeing the poodles and other dogs there (“Poodle Person”, amiright?) and… oh hell, all of this is yet another 10000 word essay.

Genevieve is gorgeous and awesome.

Francesca is gorgeous and cute. I mean, she was like 4 here, lol.

Now she’s more “hot”. I think. Maybe like 70% hot and 30% cute.

Or maybe like 75-25, even.

But, that’s another essay.

Uhm, yeah.

I think I need to stop blogging, and stuff.

So I will.

Ok, then.

But… wait.

G is soooooo cooooooool. I should… I mean I REALLY should… bring that back. I mean, like, really really. Really really.

REALLY really.

You know.

But… not now.

Ok, then.

Maybe tomorrow.

So…

Well.

*Ahem*

Disney+ is interesting, no doubt. And kinda creepy and unsettling. And fun, and… IDK. It’s hard to quantify some of this stuff, honestly.

I’ve been watching a lot of classic Simpsons. A lot. I just kinda started somewhere in the middle of season 4 and am working my way through season 5 right now.

I remember all of this when it was new. I watched these episodes when they premiered first back on FOX wayyy back when. I was a huge fan, and I mean huge. For awhile The Simpsons was the smartest show on TV for sure. And looking back at these episodes now, the quality is still evident. The writing is brilliant, the voice acting superb, and the animation spot-on. Everything just “clicks”. The sound effects, the music, I mean… everything, is just so perfect.

And Goddamn, it’s funny. I think the show is even funnier to me now than it was when it first aired. Some of the humor, mostly the jokes involving Marge and Homer, went over my head when I was a kid. I think that I missed alot of the funny/interesting stuff involving Patty and Selma, especially, back then. But now, I get it, and goddamn is this show awesome.

So I watch an episode or two every night, which is I guess an echo of what I used to do as a kid, when FOX would rerun an old episode or two every weeknight.

So yeah it’s been fun. And it’s also been revealing.

Natch.

See- I think I “get it”, now.

Hollllly fuck.

Ok. So. Am I the last person to realize / understand the significance of this show as it pertains to my own childhood? I mean I can’t be, right?

I must be.

Gawd, what the fuck.

It’s like the rest of this stuff. When I was young, I chalked it up to a huuuuuge amount of coincidences.

Like- it’s a coincidence, of course, that the Springfield nuclear plant is a direct copy of the local chemical plant, here, in Lake County. And it’s a coincidence that Homer is a nuclear engineer, and that my father, who worked at the local chemical plant, had a similar job as a chemical engineer.

And it’s a coincidence that one of his co-workers was a woman named “Marge” who had a personality like, you know, Marge’s. And then there was his friend at the plant, Carl, who was like “Carl” in The Simpsons. Pure coincidence, right?

I mean, of course it is! What else could it be?

And it’s a coincidence of course that I was like Bart as a kid, complete with him doing a bunch of stuff that I remember specifically from my own past, with Lisa being an eery, close match with my own younger sister. And it’s a coincidence that the age difference between us is the same as it is in the show. Of course.

I mean, of course.

Right?

Of course.

And it’s a coincidence that the family house is the same as the house I grew up in, with the same sandbox, same fence, same neighbors, same little treehouse, etc. Total coincidence, of course.

Obviously!

The little sandbox they have… of course, a total coincidence that it’s the same one in Calvin and Hobbes. With the same treehouse, and the same house, and the same… parents. And the same kid.

And it’s also a coincidence that it’s the same sandbox featured so prominently in Toy Story, right? You know, the movie with all my old toys in it.

See, I grew up thinking I was so… average.

I didn’t realize how… IDK, imaginary everything else was. How everything else out there was fake, apparently, except for the stuff in my own teeny-tiny little world.

Really disconcerting learning all of this, honestly. Seriously.

But I mean… every episode. Honestly- every single episode is stuffed with stuff from my own past- very specific things, as well as all sorts of clues as to how my brain was being programmed and such from a very young age to do this or that for this or that person or purpose.

It’s a funny watch but there is a very “uncanny valley” aspect to the show now that’s hard for me to overlook.

There’s an episode that features my old teddy bear prominently. You know, the one that co-starred in Spielberg and Kubrick’s A.I. Artificial Intelligence. It’s the one where Mr. Burns tries to steal it from Maggie in the sandbox. There’s a direct cypher of me, Tom, in the episode where Homer “adopts” a needy kid Pepe and when Bart replaces Homer for awhile with a pretend older brother named Tom, obviously modeled after yours truly.

Another episode has the Simpsons relocating due to being enrolled in the Witness Protection Program. They become “The Thompsons” and the screen flashes the name while showing a Simpsons-esque picture of my family on the side. Wow.

Yeah.

But… with all this in mind, I reread Matt Groening’s early Life in Hell tradebooks. Nothing of me in there, I guess. I don’t know. I guess. I mean there’s a ton that could be me, certainly. But nothing drill-down specific to Tom Jacobsen, I think.

I think.

I don’t know, that was a lonnnng time ago. I don’t remember.

But… yeah. Every. Fucking. Episode. Guys… every single episode.

Good show, though.

Uhm… in other news. I started watching Frenemies. Alot to say there, with Jack the protagonist obviously being modeled after me, and the dog being a virtual clone of my old dog, etc. It’s a good and fun movie, and goddamn, is Stephanie Scott gorgeous. Fucking hell is she hot.

I’m not going to get into specifics, here. I don’t have the time. But… Bella Thorne is in the flick, and so is Zendaya. Bella is hot, too. So is Zendaya of course.

I considered a relationship with Zendaya but I determined that she probably didn’t need me, for some reason. I mean, that hunch was right, but… IDK, maybe I should have developed one anyways. I mean… IDK.

Mary Mouser is also cute, for sure.

Bella is awesome but every time I see her, I unfortunately think of Kathryn Newton, since that’s… kinda what she wanted me to do, I think, when she introduced Kathryn to me, way back when. IDK, but maybe that wasn’t such a good idea.

Speaking of which, I guess I’ll watch the stuff with Kathryn in it. I mean, later.

I saw some episodes of I Didn’t Do It, with Olivia Holt. Obviously again based on me, with the show seemingly taking place here in Gurnee, IL, or someplace very very close. The second episode had Olivia’s character winning “Miss Waukegan”. Which, come to think of it, is probably the town they based Shelbyville on.

Uhm… good show, though.

Speaking of Waukegan, that was also the setting of Kathryn’s movie Blockers, which… isn’t on Disney+. So… yeah.

But yeah, small world. Olivia’s Kickin’ It is my old Karate stuff, etc. Alot of setup there for Peyton List and Mary Mouser’s Cobra Kai.

Speaking of Peyton List, it occurred to me awhile back that Jessie might be influenced by one of my alters, maybe one of the ones with bisexual tendencies. And I suppose I might be right since I discovered recently that in England, Jessie is slang for a gay dude. Yeah.

God there is just no end to this stuff. I suppose I will watch at some point Girl Vs. Monster, which has Kerris Dorsey, Kathy McNamara, and Olivia in it.

Speaking of Kerris, I saw Justine’s new stuff on YT the other day. Good stuff. But… yeah, there’s just no end to any of this. It seems infinite, or something.

I scrolled through the movies available on the app and saw a Disney movie that dated back from the early 70’s that I swear was based on my Dad and his exploits in the chemical lab. I mean I don’t remember what it was called but I suppose I will find it again and watch it, because… I don’t know. I suppose that this is what I do, or something.

There’s just… so much stuff. Aladdin seems to have been based off of me and that NES game I played ages ago, Magic of Scheherazade. Beauty and the Beast I think I talked about on here already, but I’ll just say that in my research into the occult I learned about the significance of the Beauty / Beast station in the Kaballah, and it’s importance in MKUltra type mind control beta sex slave programming, which seems to be what I was programmed with remotely. There is even a scene in The Simpsons that to me flat out says this, directly.

Speaking of MKUltra, I think I figured out the significance, finally, of BOB. I think that’s the name of the demon they attached to me. See- Sideshow Bob, of course, Bob from Twin Peaks, the Dread Pirate Roberts, etc.

Speaking of which… yeah, Princess Bride, too. It’s also on Disney+. The kid in the bed is me, based in Lake County, IL, etc… and so much other symbolism in that flick, too much to even begin talking about, here.

I mean… there’s just too much to even talk about. Too many topics. How do you even process all of this, let alone write about it? Or even encompass it? This stuff, taken with a full view, is preposterously huge.

I think it’s quite obvious now that myself and all the girls I listed here are victims/participants in some kind of unbelievably vast MKUltra type sexual slave mind control program, and that that is the reason we’re all apparently even alive, or something.

I mean, there are parts of Simpsons episodes and strips of Calvin And Hobbes that, if I’m reading them right, basically come out and say just that.

Really fucking weird stuff, for sure. And baffling. Utterly fucking baffling in some ways.

I see Underdog with Taylor Momsen and Inspector Gadget with Michelle Trachtenberg are on there, too. Both of these movies are most likely based on the stuff I thought while watching those cartoons wayyyy back then, when I was a kid. And they both undoubtedly serve a dual use in getting me and the girls together, romantically.

I just seem to hang over everything remotely modern on Disney+ like some unseen god. Which, I suppose, is what I am, so that makes sense, lol. Okay, then.

Well, whatever, I guess, for now.

I guess I cleared my head with this post and that’s good.