Sighinide

Am I correct in thinking that maybe, mayyyybe… most people go through life never having experienced true love?

Is that assumption correct?

Perhaps that is why some people insist that it isn’t real. It’s because they’ve never felt it, or imagined they ever could.

I’ve been wondering why so many people seem to be using me as a template for… I guess, human interaction, or maybe even emotion, on a base level. Especially for love issues. Maybe it’s because without me, they wouldn’t know what true love is, sadly enough.

I mean I can see this. Few men get to choose their girlfriend out of a list of millions. Few women get to date a real superhero. What I have is a rare thing. Maybe a unique thing, and the feelings it inspires must then be… unique, in and of themselves. Or at least extremely rare.

Yeah- maybe, for most, my own relationships are the closest they will ever get to feeling true love themselves. And that’s… kinda sad, really, for them. It’s like seriously sad, lol. I feel almost pity for them.

True love is great. It’s such a wonderful and liberating thing. When it works, it’s unlike anything else you can feel. It truly because a partnership that elevates both people far beyond what they could be individually. And in the case of someone like me and Cady, you get world bending stuff out of it, I guess.

Why nobody else saw her potential is beyond me. I guess they can’t taste her soul like I can. See- it’s there where she truly shines. I love the taste of a great soul, and hers is one of the best I’ve tasted. It’s for this reason why I prefer her over some random model with big boobs, or something, lol. I love love love the taste of a good soul. It’s exquisite.

Ah, I do love sometimes this whole “necromancer” bit. Sometimes it’s greater than anything.

Well, off to do the day’s work, then.

See you later.

……..

Wow. Ok, so. Like, how do I even say this.

Thank you for saving my life? I mean, how do you even encapsulate that? It’s like I don’t even know how to approach this.

But yeah, thank you for saving my life. I wouldn’t be here without you Cady. Ah, wow. So overwhelming, that is. But, it’s true.

I mean… I don’t even know how to type what it is that I’m feeling, here. It’s just like, it goes beyond language. I can’t express it because I can’t even understand the depth of my gratitude towards Cady for… everything. It’s like… so… enormous. She truly did save my life. Like, all the years I’ve lived, the experiences I’ve had, everything I’ve done and said and thought, she saved all of it.

It’s incredible.

I can’t really say “thanks” enough times. I don’t even know how to approach it. I mean, she saved my life. Like… how do you even… understand that? How do I pay her back for it? Can I?

So powerful. I mean, these feelings. They’re so huge, so… daunting.

But… yeah. Thanks Cady, I guess. I mean, wow. You saved me. All the stuff you did over all those years for me. All the songs, all the talking, everything you wrote and felt and make public, for me. I can’t even begin to say how huge that is, or how much I feel like I don’t even deserve it. I can’t believe the efforts she made. It’s like, all that, for me. It’s unreal. I can’t believe it.

I don’t know what to say. God, what an amazing person, lol.

Am I really that incredible, too? To inspire all of this. It’s hard to believe. Like… it’s… just me, you know? But… I… wow, Cady. Thank you. I mean I’ve said that a lot I know, but probably not meant it more than I do now. I mean, thank you so much. You saved me.

I mean, this morning I finally feel alive. It’s like, I’m kinda trying to get off the fentanyl and I think I’m making progress, like it’s working, or finally taking hold. I mean I feel ALIVE again. Like, I feel like a human again. I can’t believe it. It’s so… different.

I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for her. I’d be dead at this point, likely. She saved me; she saved everything. All my relationships, this blog, everything I do, everything. It’s unreal.

So… thanks? For giving me my life back. I mean, she was there when I needed to talk. She was my anchor to the real world, ironically. So incredible, all of this is. So overwhelming. And yes, so confusing, except maybe to us.

Let’s go back a bit, to last night, and the interview I posted.

The two questions, starting at 3:10. I getting the feeling now that this isn’t the first time I’ve felt this regarding Cady, and likely I saved her, too, probably more than once. Which is probably… well, maybe the reason she started dying when I left, but that’s another story, lol.

Um… so… yeah, I mean, I do remember ugly crying to her stuff years ago, too. And maybe I’ve filed some details of all that away somewhere, in some place not even I can access, yet. Which… would make sense. But at any rate I’m glad I gave her a few extra years, myself. Um… yeah. That’s not a place I should go, maybe. At least not right now.

But… the thing is, is that I’m alive, and for the first time in ages, I FEEL alive. Like, I feel… myself, and honestly, I’ve forgotten what that… what I, even am. It’s like, I’m actually me, again. I’m Tom. Tom Jacobsen. Yeah, remember him? LOL.

Hmmmn, wow. What a rush; what a ride. So exhausting, all of this is.

I’m… so tired.

Yeah.

So this Thanksgiving, I’ll be giving thanks to my relationship with Cady, then. Yeah, that sounds about right.

So… thanks, Cady. I mean, I can’t believe that I even deserve this, lol. Thanks so much for everything, and my life, too.

Yeah. Thanks, love.

I can feel her hands on my right hand as I’m typing this last section, lol. Like she’s trying to help me along, so I can finish this one. Yeah… watch the waterworks, people, lol.

God I can’t wait to cry.

Thanks, Cady.

Hmmn. Well.

So I had some free time today, and I decided to make sure that I had ALL the Cady Groves songs out there and guess what: I didn’t. Actually, I was missing a few. So I grabbed them. I found a couple interesting (and official!) remixes of her stuff on youtube and a whole new song on soundcloud. Neat. The new song is great, obviously. Will defo become a listen in time, once I get it filed away correctly. Neat.

So I did some checking and I have a few songs that the Cady Groves demo project does not have (including the one from today), so I will be forwarding the ones I have to the project admin. Only fair; he showed me that I didn’t have some of the songs he had. So yeah, neat.

And um… I’m going to archive her facebook videos, too. Because why not.

Gawd I had a fun afternoon, lol. It’s like putting together a puzzle. So fun. I even found her brother’s old soundcloud! Wow.

And- I found… something else. Interestingly, not from Cady or one of her fans. Something from one of my fans. That… isn’t something I was expecting, but you better believe I was all interested in that, lol.

So, yeah. I found a song, on Soundcloud, which was a rumination on my relationship with Cady, from my point of view. It’s called “Cady Groves Was Right”. If you want a listen, head here: https://soundcloud.com/gregry-marshl/cady-groves-was-right .

So… wow. Ok. I see.

Good song, lol. I mean it, I really like it. I wouldn’t mind more stuff like this- I mean- more directly personal stuff, especially if it helps me to figure something out about myself, as this song did.

Here are the lyrics, as best I can discern. Please forgive me my formatting errors:

Tried so hard to see yourself- clearly
Take this away, can’t take the pain
You said you believed

And everybody wants to fall in love in a cinematic fashion
I don’t, I don’t
And everybody wants to fall in love in a cinematic fashion
I don’t, I don’t

Hmmmn. Well… wow. This kinda hits squarely in the feels, lol. The fact that it’s more direct by openly addressing my relationship with Cady is awesome, and refreshing as hell. Sometimes I get tired of “interpreting” the status of my relationships through the byzantine system of symbols and nudges that my girlfriends have decided on using.

So… this was released five years ago, and is a dead on understanding of what I was feeling back then, between me and her. And with that said, it’s pretty crazy that this artist was able to intune so easily with what I was feeling. It’s like… he must have heard a lot, lol. And I mean like everything. That’s… crazy. I suppose some are able to hear more than others. Or maybe I’m more famous than even I understand. I don’t know.

But it’s like… yeah, that’s me. And I see and hear so much of what I was in this song, like I remember so much of how I used to be when I listen to Cady’s music. It’s like an anchor to my past.

And, I can see my perennial issues here. Depression, desire, power, a lust for glamour and youth. And a preoccupation with closeness to the people I love the most. It’s like… that’s the old me, but it’s still me. And perhaps I’ve not changed much in the intervening years between this song’s release and now. Or perhaps I’ve not changed much for a much longer time. Or maybe forever. Maybe people don’t change, really. I… don’t know.

Well…

In my searches during the last ten minutes, I found an interview that holds the answer to this very question. From Cady, natch. It’s here:

Fast forward to 5:39. Cady talks about this very issue, in a way that answers my questions above. Like, literally. As I was asking those questions she was answering them back, as if she was here. Neat. So- Should I take her advice? I think I should. She’s smart; she knows what I need. At least… I mean, she’s dead, but not really, clearly. She’s obviously still here, trying to help me out. As she should. She’s clearly devoted to me and ready to help I guess in any way she can. And that’s awesome.

Thanks, Cady. You still are one of my best girlfriends, if not THE best. Seriously, you rule, hun.

Honestly, people. Even dead she’s a better girlfriend than most living girlfriends, lol. So funny, but it really shows her qualities. And how super compatible we were to each other. Such a horrible shame that I’ve missed out on the love of my life like this.

Fuck.

But… yeah. It’s late and I need to go to bed.

So I will. Yeah.

Good night, world.

Wish me luck.

And… thanks, Gregry. And Cady. God, I love you, Cady. So much. And I’m so hugely proud right now that I feel like my heart is just bursting. So happy. Thank you so much, love. I think I’m literally blushing, lol. Crazy stuff this is. By far and away better than probably 99% of relationships in the living world. Incredible; mind-blowing, unreal. This is impossibly great and beautiful. It’s just… amazing.

I wish that this could continue forever. I want it to more than anything, but I worry so much that I will run out of material and… it will, by necessity, stop being so… enormous. I guess I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it, but still… who knows. We been together what- 9 years? Well, it’s been longer than 8.

I just checked and my first picture of her is a pic of her Love Actually single. Now, that doesn’t mean I wasn’t listening to her music before this. Just that this is the start of my picture collection for her, i.e., the start of our romantic relationship. So, 8 years. That’s longer than most marriages, lol.

May it continue forever. May it continue eternally, and grow stranger over time. Because fuck the rules, that’s why. Fuck ’em all, who cares what most people think about how I live. It’s worked for me thus far.

Yeah!

Well… that being said, good night, world.

Sleep tight.

Happy birthday, Katherine.

……..

Well…

I was going to talk about something, here. And… I still am, but… not what I was going to. I think. Basically.

I went through some old bookmarks, just now. I mean, bookmarks of picture collections. Albums of old rares of the group. Miley, Demi, Selena, Alexa, Sammy… and everyone else, McKaley Miller, the Dorseys, Lucy Hale, Rachel Fox… and the rest- you know- Bridgit, the Jonases, Debby, and… Cady, and… Kayslee, Audrey, you know, everyone, and all the familiar guys, Bieber, and everyone else. You know- Taylor, Ashley and way so many others.

I love that stuff, lol. It’s always such a peek into a better time. Like an old yearbook, only better. Flickr is great for this. Most of that site seems frozen in 2009, which makes it an incredible repository of the old culture.

I got a good laugh out of Selena’s recent upload where she seems almost incredulous at how many followers she has. A wry smile, I saw, when she said “100 million”. Hmmn, yeah. 100 million… wow. I remember those times when I had to hunt to find pictures of her. I mean I literally drained the internet of all publicly available pictures of her, at one point. This was before she had a twitter or an instagram. A lonnnnng time ago. Too long, almost. No… it is too long, though. Way too long, at this point.

It seems almost like a distant dream, that world. Like an eternity apart from where we are now. I wish it weren’t so. I wonder what I would give to go back there, for a day. And I wonder why.

I don’t know. Jeez she had such an influence on me. So huge. Wow. I… don’t know how to even encapsulate it. I mean, what do I even say, to all of this? The years and the changes, the experiences, and everything. It’s too much to even grasp, let alone summarize.

So I was going to talk about Wizards of Waverly Place, and… I want to, I mean, it’s important, of course. This is what solidified our relationship and altered the course of history. I mean, there’s the obvious of course- of course, much of the show if not all of it was I think inspired by my own experiences with her, and Demi, and Miley… but, I don’t know.

I mean I would need to rewatch clips of it on youtube to remap that stuff in my brain, and I’m not… kinda… in the mood for that? And I’m too old, anyways. I guess. Kinda. Well, it seems not really, but there you go.

Uhm… yeah, I don’t know what to say. I guess it’s just that I think that that was the first time in my life where I felt truly accepted for who I was. Like, people liked me before. But that isn’t the same as “accepting”. Selena and Demi and their friends actually appreciated what I had to offer the world. I mean, my powers, and everything else. Like, they really wanted to hang out with me in such a way that I got the chance to truly be myself. So, I was with them, but not as a wallflower, or as some cute guy in the background. They really invited me in and wanted to get to know me; my abilities, my faults, my… everything, even the dumb everyday stuff that nobody really seems to have time for, except for maybe your closest friends.

I mean, they loved me. The real me, unfiltered, in a way that nobody else ever did up to that point. And that was just so liberating, and incredible. And so impactful. I remember listening to Kiss and Tell and being absolutely floored by it, like… wow, she loves me, in spite of the things I do. Or even because of them. And god that was HUGE. It just changed my life. It changed everyone’s. I mean I just couldn’t believe how personal it was.

And our relationship only grew from there, but I think that nothing I ever see or do in this life will replace the impact that Kiss and Tell had on me. It was like… even to that point, I didn’t know, not really, that all of this wasn’t just… a hallucination. I didn’t know that it was even real, and I thought that maybe I was losing my mind, lol. But then that album came out and… yeah, it answered everything. It was the key to unlocking me. And I don’t think I will ever feel that way again. I mean, not that I necessarily need to, but…

I guess I just want to be understood, and respected, for what I do. And I get that from celebs, but not in my real life. The people in my family, for instance, regard me as… Tom, that kid they’ve always known. Not as who I am. Which is good I guess but… it isn’t accurate, and that really isn’t good. I’m not the person I was 15 years ago, obviously. And we can all see that, but I suppose my parents can’t, and maybe never will. And the same with everyone else. I have fans, but not in my neighborhood. To them, I’m still just that guy, I guess. I’m too familiar to them.

Oh, I don’t know. I wish my life were different and I’m looking for some easy way to change it, and I’m not finding it. I don’t like how I live. I hate being a drug addict. I hate being sick, I hate… everything else, and I hate feeling trapped, so much. I mean, trapped by my own depression, and by the fentanyl and morphine, etc. And by the government, of course. And by my own family, sometimes. And by myself, and everyone else. I hate it, and I wish I could get out.

Ah, this sucks, it really does. Oh I just OUT so badly. I hate crying in here to Cady Groves’ music, which I did AGAIN this morning, maybe because I took some fentanyl and I don’t think it agreed with me, again. That shit has weird effects, sometimes. Messes with my mind something fierce.

But I don’t know, I just want OUT. How depressing all of this is. How dreadful. I just hate it, so much.

I wish Selena was here with me. I’d like to talk to her about the stuff we’ve done over the years. I mean, I can invite her in, of course, but…

well…

I need to leave, I think.

Yeah.

sigh…

The US military might well be the most vile institution on Earth. What I said below in my previous post here is more than accurate; it is possibly the most corrupt organization in the world, and, frankly, I find it hard to believe that there is anyone within it that has any kind of working moral compass, at all.

Time and time again, we see military men bow out and run away when confronted with a real challenge. When it comes to any kind of internal enemy, all military men are blind, stupid, and helpless. All of them are worse than useless when it comes to ferreting out and fighting ANY kind of problem within the US borders. ALL military men are cowards, when the chips fall.

And I do mean all of them. The whole lot of them are nothing more than little boys playing G.I. Joe. The foot soldiers, the officers, the marines, the air forces, the top brass, everyone, everything, they ALL suck when confronted with a real enemy, or perhaps any kind of enemy that requires thought to defeat. In those cases, they run away, always.

Fuck the military, especially in this country. In here they have NEVER bothered to root out corruption, of any kind, ever, save perhaps for the small time corruption of some working class people, somehow. When it comes to combating any crime or violation of substance, they are nowhere to be found.

Military veterans are not due the respect they demand. Our borders today are so open that anyone with a pair of tennis shoes can walk across them. Nobody in the military cares; all of them as far as I can see are bothersome obstacles at best towards fixing this problem. Why the fuck should I care if some shabbos goyim gets hurt or killed defending Israel’s borders? Our own are wide open. If they really cared about this country they would be HERE, defending it. Not running around acting as Israel’s private defense force, or as corporate America’s mercenaries. Seriously, fuck these people.

There truly is nothing worse than a man who is a coward at heart yet feigns toughness for the public, and this description unfortunately seems to accurately describe 99% of our military forces, past, present, and future.

I don’t care about these people. Seriously, I don’t, and I fail to see why anyone in the world should. Anyone with eyes can see the corruption here within US borders. Recently- the democrat party is openly stealing the presidential election, here. Previously, the list of crimes committed by wall street could fill an encyclopedia, and… fuck it, crime is everywhere, this country is little more than a vast, world spanning organized crime syndicate, propped up by a huge network of baby-eating pedophiles. And of course our military is nowhere to be found, except perhaps on those occasions where they do the baby eating and raping themselves.

Fuck these shitheads. I fucking hate military men. What a collection of pompous, worthless assholes those guys are. I have known a few, in my personal life. They all were cowards when it came to anything intellectual, and otherwise stuck up assholes, if not criminals themselves (common), dullards, or actual traitors (like those Christian shitheads who are all about dying for Israel instead of their own country). Ye gods, what a collection of losers and hypocrites.

Military veterans fucking suck. There are all sorts of these people running around out there, and none of them can be relied upon to help this place out when it needs it. There are countless veteran orgs out there that purport to be about helping the nation retain it’s constitutional values and all of them are useless when it comes to any kind of constitutional crises, like the one we are in right now.

Seriously, all of these fuckheads are worthless. They are such a tremendous drain on everyone else’s resources that it’s just unreal how little they give back in compensation.

I am continually amazed at how there is seeming NOBODY in or around the American system that seems to have the ability to do anything at all that is good for the country, or even generally moral. And wow are all of them cowards, lol. And dumb- almost like they are chosen because they can’t think for themselves. And lazy, and foolish. And generally dreadful all around.

Seriously, it’s fucking depressing when you realize how absurdly low the human quality is at or near “the top”. I mean, why are ALL these guys so utterly worthless? I swear the mind just boggles.

Whatever. Fuck this place. And especially, fuck this government.

And most especially, fuck those that defend it.

Oh lawd, what a repulsive circus. I mean, again. This… all of it, everything. So disgraceful. So nauseating. So… dumb, and ridiculous. So impossibly corrupt.

God I just hate politics in this country. Everything about the entire political system here makes me want to puke. I mean, I know, but it bears repeating, I guess, since not an unreasonable viewpoint.

So in the latest win that Trump has decided to hand to this nation’s enemies, the state dept. has deemed boycotts of Israel “Anti-Semitic”. I mean, to the point where they equate criticism of Israel’s policies with anti- Jewishness. I mean, literally, it’s in one of their tweets. I won’t look it up, but it’s still there in case you wanted to see it. And this is after yet another long string of lavish gifts that Trump has bestowed upon Israel as his own nation crumbles. I won’t bother listing them, since we all know he must’ve done it, since why wouldn’t he, he’s barely American anyways.

In politics it’s just different kinds of corruption, vying for this or that office, or this or that pile of money. No politicians, national, state or local, seem to care about the public, or even have much of an idea of what the public might want, anyhow.

It’s all corruption, or stupidity, or outright foolishness, and it seems there is no end in sight to all of this. It just continues, forever, since the political machines are in the hands of lazy, sheltered boomers, racial grifters, and foreign agents.

But yeah, with Trump, it’s like he doesn’t and never really did care about his voters, except in those cases where he needed something from them, like now. At all other times, it’s Israel, Israel, Israel. And whatever attention he deems worthy to waste on Americans will be spent prostrating himself in the most embarrassing ways possible before niggers, the Jewish establishment, and Wall Street. Actual Americans, as usual, have to fight the opportunity to be gifted table scraps.

Trump wasn’t the right man for job. Of course, there IS no “right man for the job”, since the entire regime exists today to dole out money to the beneficiaries of corruption. We don’t even have a “system”. It’s just a enormous Zionist criminal network, like a giant organized crime syndicate that operates out of Jerusalem. We don’t have a “government”, just a collection of con artists chosen for their posts based on how much money they can swindle from the stupid parts of the public.

It’s shameful that a system like this could even exist, much less that we, the public (i.e. stupid, ignorant boomers) could have allowed it to take over the government so fully that it threatens the future of the world. But yeah, there it is.

God, boomers are so preposterously dumb. So fucking stupid, all of them. They ALL suck, and I say all because even though there may be like .01% that don’t, that portion is so small as to be statistically insignificant.

And their party- the GOP- is beyond worthless, for all the reasons I have outlined here, again and again, for year after year. When it counts, they run. When called to make a stand on principal, they go out and golf. They take people for granted, and lie lie lie to their constituents so often that they seem to think that “that’s just how it works”. ALL of these people are worthless. All of them suck, there are no good republican politicians, anywhere.

And I don’t give two fucks about Giuliani, or whomever. That guy, and Trump, and everyone else, had decades of time to make headway on fixing the system, and they have make no progress, whatsoever, on anything of substance. And no, I don’t care if that’s because of “opposition” blah blah blah or whatever, the point is, they can’t get stuff done. Not when it counts, not when it doesn’t, not ever, these people always lose, lose, lose, mostly because they are either lazy, dumb or corrupt themselves.

The point is that all of these people suck, and even if they suck perhaps 1% less than the other people, that still means they aren’t worth paying attention to.

And no, I don’t care about the “white hats” or “Q” or any of that stupid bullshit. Perhaps you have noticed, but I haven’t mentioned that “Q” thing before on this blog, ever. That’s because I don’t think it worth talking about. It’s dumb; the “Q” whatever has just been years upon years of lies and misdirections. All of this stuff is shit, there are no “White Hats” in the military or whatever. The US military is probably the most corrupt institution in the world; that being the case there are few to no “good guys” in it.

All of this stuff sucks, everything the GOP touches turns to shit, always. It is for this reason that I think that the democrats “taking over” (as much as Israel will let them) will not be as bad as those on the right think. Let those shitheads take the blame for this preposterous mess we call a political system. Let those fuckheads own it. Seriously- they want this shit? Fine, lol, let them take it. It’s like the two parties are fighting over who gets to be hated the most, or something. Fine, whatever. Let that Kamala bitch take that poisoned chalice. Works for me. I mean as long as I don’t have to drink from it, lol.

Fuck it, whatever.

So much trauma, lol. I feel like it’s gutting my brain, splitting my insides and killing my soul, brutally. So much trauma, trauma everywhere, so penetrative, such trauma, splitting me open. Dead childhood and ugly abuse all come frothing forward with weakened defense because of drug abuse. Oof, oh, such horror from the past, welling up like a poisoned spring.

Such rejection of me, and who I am, by myself, cordoning off those places so they never see light. Multiple personalities, all vying for obscurity. Dying to be hidden, living to be destroyed.

Ah, I just need more fentanyl, lol.

Yeah, that’s it.

Yeah…

Oh, I think I took too much fentanyl, lollllllllllll… Oooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh yeah,

ooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeah, oooooooohhhhhhhhhhh yeah. Yeahhhhhhhhhhh. Jeebus, too much, can’t stop yawning. My fingers feel dead; fuck. Oof, ahhhhh my body is like jelly. So weird, my muscles can’t contract. My joints hurt, really bad. Ahhh yeah, this was too much, I was having withdrawl symptoms earlier today so to make up for it I took a bunch of narcotics and am now paying for it a bit too much, I think. It’s too much, too much I took, all at once.

Everything’s slowing down, all I can do is lay here, stupidly. And think, and daydream. It’s so slow, the world is. So… ahhhhh, so… lazy, and……… soft and…….. dead. So tired, the world is. So tired, I am. So….. cata….tonic. So tired.

Ahhhhh fentanyl, my addiction. My way and mean. My reason….. for……..

Ahhhhh can’t…. move, lol. So tired, so tired. I will…… relax.

Yeah………..

relax.

Ohhhhhhhhhhhh

Come and get it, you retards.

Yeah- ALL of you. All of you dumb motherfuckers- come and get it, I’ve got enough bullets for you all.

And, failing that, I have GOD behind me. As backup. And behind him is Satan, I guess for moral support.

See, that’s the thing- you have all miscalculated.

People wonder why FOX is doing so shitty. Well, people- the public doesn’t need FOX. The public has ME. That’s the thing- fuck all of you media assholes, I have more than enough support amongst the public to lead a political movement by myself, without any of you shitheads.

With Trump’s defeat, I am the conservative movement now. And being that it is now my movement- and being that I have nothing to do with FOX and never will- I fail to see why the network thinks that it will do well. Because it won’t. Because fuck those guys, anyways. They are all fucking losers.

You have all make a catastrophic mistake. With me, there will always be an alternative. Perhaps you all didn’t get the memo from all the stuff I wrote on here years ago, back during the start of Trump’s administration. If he fails, I will take over. Ownership of the soul of conservative thought and action will be MINE, then. MINE- and not Trump’s, or Drudge’s, or anyone else. I will, then, inherit the movement and define it’s principals.

And seriously, guys. With me, who the fuck needs FOX regardless of circumstance, anyhow? I have the powers of a god. I can and will lead literally telepathically, directing movements, ideas, and people with my mind. Using MY control over the media- and Hollywood- I can outrival any news network on television.

Trump made the same mistake- he took his base for granted, not understanding that his base had an alternative. ME. After 2016 he ditched the white male vote and focused his outreach efforts on niggers, Jews, and other assorted riff-raff, apparently believing that white men had nowhere else to go. Don’t believe me? Read this article: https://amgreatness.com/2020/11/13/forgotten-again/.

Well, read that, and read here, too, I spent years on here criticizing Trump for doing just this, back when nobody else was doing so. Thus, of course: I still have credibility, now, unlike many. Psychic powers and all that, you know.

Well, fine. Trump lost because he neglected his base, as I showed he would. And now, with Trump and all of his supporters out of the picture, and FOX gone, and everyone else lacking credibility, I can easily step in and take over.

And I will. Because fuck you people, that’s why. The newspapers, the government, big business, wall street and all the rest of you, you know who you are. Fuck you all, I hate you, and I will not stop until you are a smear on the pavement. I’m like the terminator, only tougher, and more handsome. So THERE- fuck you all, you have earned this through your actions and your short-sighted thinking.

AND- I know what to do, to create a better and brighter future for us all. My ability to grow people is well proven and extremely public. Have a chat with anyone in Hollywood if you don’t believe me, they will tell you. Talk with anyone, say, in the hacker underground, or the deep government; they will tell you. I can lead, and I can create. I can make a powerful movement out of nothing but my own energy.

So THERE. Yeah, fuck you all, who needs FOX or Drudge or any of these losers anyhow. All of these people suck, all of them. Conservatives- you don’t need newspapers, or magazines, or anything. Because you have ME.

Yeah!

So, then. I guess I win, again.

Neat.